Eating Disorder?

Question

I have been over weight my whole life. I am 5'2 and 24 years old. At my heaviest I was 200lbs that was 2 years ago, I now weight 138. I know what your thinking.. wow..thats great. And it is, but I still look in the mirror and see that fat girl. Dont get me wrong I still have more than enough fat, hips thighs a butt ..its all there.
Anyway, My fiance has been away for the last 6 months, since he has been gone i have been extremelly depressed, and in turn i always put a lot of blame on my weight. About 4 months ago I started throwing up after I ate, not all the time but I was doing it, If i felt guilty. Istarted getting nose bleeds, my tounge was a wierd color and my skin was looking horrible. I decided if i went at this alone and never told anyone things would only get worse. So I decided to tell my fiance what was going on, not to worry him but for some help. Someone to turn to someone to keep asking me and a reason not to do it anymore...

The thing is that Since i have told him, I haven't thrown up, not to say I haven't thought about it. But everytime I put something in my mouth I feel a little guilt. Its so sad that I feel this way, I hate it. He tells me I am beautiful and I am sexy and I am perfect the way i am. And I do feel that I am beautiful, and sexy...some days. So basically I should seek outside help, like from a professional?? I don't feel like I am that seriously into this that i can't just stop, and I don't think that anyone is going to give me more self confidence thats something i am going to have to do alone.

Answer 1

I think that you should also look into any self help books and most probably look into talking to a therapist. My friend used to be overweight when she was in middle school and when she started high school she lost a lot of weight. It took her a long time to "feel" thin , even though she looked thin. I think its perfectly normal to still feel insecure about your body since you struggled with it for so long. BUT it's not normal to throw up after you eat (bulemia nervosa) that is something you do NOT want to do, and should look into getting help for.

Answer 2

hey my name is misty n i am 24 i know how u fell i was n the same boat you r n my heaviest was 410lbs yeah i know thats real big but i have lost most of the weight doing what u doing is not right i use to b that way untill a very good friend of mind sat me down n told me that is was not the way to go by doing that stuff i died 4 diff times not to scare u r nothing but if u keep doing this to your self then u well hurt your self like i did so plz stop doing what u doing if u wanna kept liveing cause if u dont stop u will die hope u get help n by the way u did a good job by telling your fiance k hope u take my advice bye

Answer 3

If you are throwing up the food that you eat that is definitely an eating disorder. I would tell your fiancee if you weel that you need his support. Bulimia is very dangerous, the stomach acid eats away at your throat tissue, it degrades the enamel on your teeth, etc. You are not fat. I know it is easy to be self critical and stuff, but you are not fat. I would suggest trying to do things so that you don't feel guilty after eating. Make sure to eat healthy things, etc. Remember too, one treat is not going to gain you back all that weight. If you keep feeling like this I would go and talk to your doctor.

Good luck!

Answer 4

You may not be able to have children if you keep doing that and your metabolism will go down causing you to gain more weight later. Your hair will fall out too and you will grow more body hair and that is gross.

Answer 5

I have a niece who was struggling with bulimia for several years. My sister finally got her some counseling and she was much better, but not overnight. I think you should find someone to talk to about your eating disorder who will encourage you while holding you accountable. Please e-mail me if you would like to talk more.