Am I going crazy/Do you think I am Depress?

Question

I think i am going crazy.I cry everyday and i am mad everyday. I am only fifteen years old.I hate everything and everyone. I hate my school so much. i hate all the teachers even if they like me. I am pushing all my friends away saying that i hate them or by not talking to them. i dont want friends and i hate my parents and i want to run away and just be alone. i think to much and i know it but i still think so hard about everything that i get fustrated and a headache. i keep thinking about death. I hate the thought of dieing and it scared me but i think i am starting to think about suicide even if i am reading a suicidal book call THE BELL JAR by SLYIA PLATH who later killed herself.i dont know what to do. i try to be happy but no matter what i do i am not happy at all.i'm serious. I dont know if it is depression. IS IT? I keep saying i am depress but i dont know. I am a normal girl who pass all her class and have nice parents and good friends. I dont know what wrong with me.HELP ME!!

Answer 1

OK... well, this is not the sort of question that I'd normally attempt to answer because I'm not a psychologist. I can tell you that I've had periods in my life, starting around your age, that I had very similar feelings and was concerned in a similar way. I did very well in school, was relatively popular and had, what I thought at the time, was a relatively normal life at home. Turns out that my life at home wasn't as normal as the veneer that my parents put on it (Dad's an alcoholic). That's not really the point though. I'm not saying you're missing anything. A lot of things can cause you to feel the way you're feeling. Maybe it is depression. Maybe it's just unhappiness that will pass. In either case, trust me when I tell you that it's worth seeing someone about it. For me, I was always a very closed-off person. My first thought is to bottle things up and do my best to act like everything is cool. Problem is, there are times in everyone's life when things are not cool and we need the help of someone that doesn't know us --- someone that doesn't have the same expectations or perceived expectations --- of us and of who we are and has no other interest in us than to help us figure out what's up. Even if it is depression, that's OK. You can get through that too. You're 15 and you're concerned about how you're feeling. That's a good thing. If you were really in trouble, those concerns wouldn't be so strong in you. Do yourself a huge favor, see someone. It doesn't seem like it right now but in a couple of years from now, going to college, starting your real life.... things are difficult and great and sad and happy for the most stable of us and the more fragile alike. Better for you to get a handle on how you personally process your stresses and your ups and downs now. You'll really be glad that you did. Even if you don't take this advice, do your best to take care of yourself. It's OK to keep to yourself sometimes too. When you're ready to lean on your friends, do that if that's comfortable for you. And, remember that you do have good friends and nice parents.... you might be surprised how much they have to offer. Don't forget, no one is problem-free and no one is happy all the time and, when people are struggling? Guess what? Most people like to hide it. Those around you may be able to help more than you want to allow them too. Take care.

Answer 2

honey, this IS DEPRESSION. everything you have just descibes fits the definition of depression. it is when you become sad all the time, turn away from things or people you love, stop doing activities that previously interested you, and think suicidal thoughts.

i have good news and bad news. the bad news is YOU WILL NOT SNAP OUT OF IT. it is not a mental state, it is an illness caused by a chemical imbalance. just trying to think happy thoughts will not get you out of this dark hole.

the good news is that there is still hope. first, talking to people you know and trust is a good start. apologize to your friends and tell them that you are depressed. they will understand if they truly are the good friends you say they are. ask them to help you. ths will be very hard for you, but i know you can do it. you are asking for help here, so you have the strength to ask your friends. they will listen, and if they don't, MAKE THEM! alone is the time when you become the most afraid. form a support group within your friends. chances are good that they have been wondering what is up with you, and chances are even better that they have been wanting to help you.

therapists, or the school guidance counselor would also be a good resource for help. it may seem a bit awkward and scary at first, but if you open up to them, you may make a good friend.

stop pushing your friends an parents away and let them carry you back onto the right path. sometimes we get tired of walking and need a life.

Answer 3

If you are being genuine here, you are certainly not alone. Depression is a clinical condition, I know because our son went through it. He is from a good home too. He didn't understand it back then and either did we. Guess what, It's OK to ask for help. Depression can be treated and things will look a lot better. Talk to your parents. If you can't talk to them or if they just try to blow the whole situation off, talk to a school nurse or counselor. You might need some intervention but don't wait -k? Oh yeah another thing, put that book down, go to the library and get yourself something from the motivational section. Life isn't perfect and we all have problems but it certainly is worth living.

Answer 4

You are definitely depressed!!! And it breaks my heart to see it happen to such a young person! Maybe there is something physically wrong with you that could be causing this. Ask your mom/dad to set you up an appointment for a physical and then tell your Dr. how you are feeling. There are tests that they can run to see if there is anything physically wrong. If not, then they can prescribe an anti-depressant for you and help you find a counselor to talk to.

Don't give up.........things CAN and WILL get better. You are way too young to be so sad and angry. As a parent I would want to hear if one my kids felt the way you do. Because if they left this world by their own hands and I didn't know why.........I would be a lost, sad and broken being each and every day for the rest of my life!

I wish I could be there to help you right now, because I'd do the best I could. Unfortunately I can't, but I will say a pray for you and hope that it is answered.

Please seek help.....................

Answer 5

Sounds like your hormones are all out of whack. You say your parents are nice and you have good friends but you don't want friends and hate your parents. My teen went through the same thing at your age so bits of it is normal. However, you may need medication and therapy to resolve the issues at hand. It sounds like you're very angry and can't find a way to communicate your feelings in a healthy way. Hope you can find some peace. The Bell Jar is one of my favourite books--it's so sad that Sylvia Plath took her own life when she had so much left to contribute to this world. Good luck, hon. I'm rootin' for ya!

Answer 6

You DID say that you were fifteen and also female. Not really being emotionally mature, but having the needs of an adult can be very trying at times. Has no one explained this to you? There is more...estrogen (a hormone produced by your ovaries) is warring in your system, changing everything about you. The child you once were is going to be left behind, -much of it, anyway. The new 'you' is in the process of being discovered on a daily basis, as it is produced. Be careful to try and remind yourself that these feelings pass, and above all -don't do anything rash or desperately stupid.

Answer 7

You've got to start living outside your negative thoughts. Negative thoughts bring a negative life. The first thing that you have to do is write down all (and it sounds like you have alot) of the things that you are grateful for in your life and then out loud in private recite that list. Look on Oprah's web site (Oprah.com) and check out a DVD called "The Secret." You have your whole life ahead of you. Get up and get out. Make sure you are eating good food and not skipping meals. Drink a lot of water. Don't eat a lot of junk food, processed food or fast food. Start eating apples and carrots for snacks and learn how to cook. Ask your mom or dad if you can grocery shop and cook together. Take a multi vitamin. You need to do some kind of exercise every day, even if it's just walking around the block. When you are doing that, think of other things that you are grateful for. I saw a bluebird today--it's very cold, windy and blustery--it was amazing to see that bird. God bless, sweetheart. Only you can change your thought patterns.

Answer 8

I am suicidal and depressed too. You seem to need some sort of support and help. Is there anyone you can talk to that you trust about this? You are not crazy, just very stressed out, have something being held inside (like anger or something), and depressed (and possibly suicidal). I recommend getting help somehow. It seems like something is bothering you and/or you could have a condition that could be treated with counseling and/or meds. Since you are 15, your parents will find out sooner or later if you decide to get help, but you will just have to face them. I'm here if you ever need to e-mail someone.

I have asked questions about this, and have gotten some good advice. Try looking at those questions on my profile.

Answer 9

I was there at one point. Its a scary point in your life having to deal with so much stress. Stress with your parents pressuring you, drama at school, stress on getting your good grades. I dont think you are depressed, but in need of being able to confide in a friend and be able to talk to them. Some times the best thing is going out to have fun and just laugh! Take some time to yourself, walk around, and just breathe. might be the best thing right now for your nerves. Please do not attempt sucide. Your family and friends love you too much to let you go. :)

Answer 10

Please call your local mental health hotline. They can steer you in the right direction, since you don't seem to like anyone at school or in your family. Please tell someone how you feel. Somebody cares.

Anger can be a symptom of depression. You need assistance to find out what you're so angry about. If you were my daughter, I would want to know that you turned to someone for help even if it wasn't me. You have your whole life ahead of you (you're probably tired of hearing that too!). Get on the right path now and the rest of your life will be much more enjoyable. Good luck.