Please help me?

Question

I'm on antidepressants and have been for over 2 years now, my psychiatrist thinks I'm in remission from my depression at the minute, but right now at this precise moment in time I feel awful. I don't know why, it seems to have come from nowhere - I've been having quite a few days like this recently, where I feel like I'm going to burst into tears but I don't know why.

I just seem to get this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness, and I start having stupid thoughts again, but nothing seems to trigger it - it just comes out of the blue. And sometimes by the next day I'll feel fine again, other times it'll be a couple of days. I just don't know what to do when I get like this. I'm supposed to be better now, but right now all I want to do is curl up in bed and cry, and try not to think about the paracetamol or blades I have in my top drawer.........

Answer 1

You've gotten some good advice from others. I just want to add that speaking from personal experience, you will have good and bad days even on antidepressants. They are not a cure for depression, as there is no such thing. They just help us have more good days than bad or at least help get us out of the "fog" of depression. But you will still feel down a lot of times...it may be normal or it may be a sign that you need to change meds. You have to discuss it with your doctor though. I started out on Prozac for my depression and it worked for about 6 months, then all of a sudden, my depression came back full-force. My doc then put me on Zoloft and it worked a little bit better, but still stopped working after a while. Now I've been on Paxil for 6 years and so far, it's worked. So also know that just b/c you're on antidepressants doesn't mean that you're on the right one or that there's no other solution. Somtimes you have to change meds or up your dosage or just go in for more counseling. The point is that there are options and you shouldn't give up and think that you're "supposed to" feel perfect just b/c you're on antidepressant. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. This is a lifelong problem, there is no cure and you have to just keep at it. Whatever you do, don't give up. If your circumstances are fine and you feel down for "no reason," that's when it's the chemical imbalance kicking in and a change in meds/dosage should help. But if you're down b/c of life circumstances, then therapy is your best bet. Either way, there are solutions out there. And that's what your doctor is there for...to help you find those solutions. Life has ups and downs and everybody hurts sometimes, but nobody should have to bear the pain of serious depression alone and without help. So please talk to your doctor right away, even if you feel fine at the moment. Something is wrong that you're having so many mood swings and you shouldn't just wait for the good days or ride it out. You should talk to your doctor and get to the root of the problem immediately. I'm sorry this answer is all over the place, but I'm just writing off the top of my head! I really understand what you are going through. And I know you feel like no one understands and that no one has ever felt as bad as you do, but believe me, there are lots of us out there. And there's also lots of help. The problem is that sometimes with depression, the symptoms prevent us from seeking help. But since you have enough energy to come here and post, it's a good sign and it means you'll be able to call your doctor. Please just don't do anything drastic...call your doctor, call a suicide line if you have to...anything to get you through the day until you can see your doctor. Good luck and God bless. Again, I feel your pain and I hope you feel better. :)

Answer 2

hey i sympathise with how you are feeling. I am in a similar emotional place. I wish there was some magic trick to make it better. All i can suggest is that you set some goals.
1) stay physically active. set yourself an easy an achievable goal eg. every day during the next week i will spend a t least ____ minutes doing____( walking or something)
2)Make time for pleasurable activities. You may not feel motivated or enjoy them as much as you used to but commit to scheduling some fun activites each day
3) spend time with people who can support you. It is easy to avoid contact when you are depressed but you need the support of friends and loved ones. Try explaining to them how you feel, if you can't that's okay just ask them to be with you, maybe they can accompany you in pleasurable activities.
4) practice relaxing. Depression often leads to anxiety because you are unable to meet your responsibilities or you just increasingly hopeless. Physical relaxation leads to mental relaxation. Try deep breathing, a warm scented bath or just finding a quiet place and comforting yourself by saying to yourself' that "it's going to be okay"
5) Simple goals and small steps. It is easy to feel overwhelmed when you are depressed. Try breaking the tasks you have to do it smaller steps. be kind to yourself when you achieve a step be proud and give yourself credit. Focus on what you can achieve not what you haven't done.

I know how hard it is, i know that sometimes it just seems easier to curl up, cry and sleep. I also know how hard it is to not htink about the things you shouldn't. I wish there was an easy way to take away the pain, it takes time and a lot of hard work to overcome the feelings you are having. Believe in yourself, believe that you can control this and believe ultimately you will reach a better emotional place.

Answer 3

I have feelings like that too, i have only been on anti depressants for just over a month and although they work most of the time, i get the odd day/few days where i feel really low and keep thinking of the rope in my dads garage, but i find talking to my bf helps as he is going through a similar thing and between the two of us we keep each other from doing anything we could regret.

So, maybe it might be an idea to talk your problems through with people that have been or are going through a similar thing. If ever you want to have a chat, email me, i am always happy to help, and who knows you may be able to help me out as well!

Good Luck, i really hope this helps and that you get through this.

Answer 4

have suffered from depression in the past and remember how debilitating it all was. And you know, we are all looking for someone else to help us get better when in fact, the real road to recovery lies within ourselves. Antidepressants are fine to give us a lift but we have to take it from there. You sound quite normal to me now, and you days of doubt simply come and go, just like everyone else on this planet. I think you should hook onto the good days, remind yourself how much better you feel on those points and slowly but surely, the good days will outnumber the bad ones and all of a sudden, you'll wonder where the bad times went.
Remember, depression is an entirely natural thing, we don't ask for it or really cause it ..... and just about everybody on this planet has bad days .... that's what makes the good days so good.
OH, and as for the pills and blades ... for god's sake girl, throw them far away ...... they're only a reminder of the bad times,aren't they?

Answer 5

Thoughts of death are an indication that you have relapsed - that your depression is no longer in remission - it has returned.
Depression is often a chronic condition which means that it comes and goes, and you need to hit it with medication or other types of therapy every time.

Go to your doctor tomorrow and explain that your depression has come back, and he/she should increase your dose to deal with it in the next week or two.
Sorry to hear you are going though this pain right now. But it does get better, and then you can have a laugh and joke about it.
Take care x

Answer 6

I've been suffering depression for over 15 years now and have been on tablets for the same length of time on and off. You go through periods when things seem fine and then all of a sudden for absolutely no reason you literally feel a mist descending wher you feel completely flat-no energy,no enthusiasm-nothing,you cry over nothing,feel downright crappy and silly ideas pop into your head when you least expect them...it's all part of depression,some people have a bout of it and get over it,others like me have it (according to the doctors) for life-it's there and your stuck with it,drugs only temporarily solve the problem. You need to find a way to channel your moods, I found writing very theraputic! Give that a go - you can play out whatever is going on in your head on paper and get it off your chest.

Answer 7

I know exactly what you are going through. It sounds like you need to either up them, or change them totally. You should NOT be feeling this way if you are on something that is working.
I developed a immunity to my anti-depressants after 2 years myself.
Your doctor should be doing something about this and I am pretty upset that she hasn't already.
Have you explored the option that maybe you are bi-polar? Have you been diagnosed with something?
I also have had an issue with cutting, and I got the right help.
Seriously......contact me if you need to.
And my response to IGNA: I know you feel like you are helping. But being suicidal and cutting myself, I don't think that minimizing it is the right thing for anyone to hear. I know that you mean well..but when you get depressed for days, do YOU want to cut your arm or leg open with a knife or blade? I don't think the normal person does.
Again, I know you are trying to help. but being there myself I think it sounds like it is just being brushed off. Please don't take it personally! :) :)

Answer 8

no no no. Stop taking the medication. It has been two years and it is not working. I suggest you take a different turn and do things differently. Do the opposite, within reason, of what the media is telling people, namely women, what to do. Go take a trip to India, or Thailand, live on the beach, meet some people that will give yo a fresh impression. And stop dating all those white guys. They only make you feel worse about yourself, no matter what or who you are.

Answer 9

aunestly i am in a similar spot to where you are and all i can say is that it sucks, but i know you should call someone who cares. and it is OK TO CRY. im not sure if your christian but if you are pray and if you dont have the strength to do that then ask someone to pray for you. chrstian or not i feel for you. im sorry life is so sucky right now. just hold on. it could just be a down spell or a relapse. you can beat this. medicines only do half the work[which is what im learning now] the other thing you have to do is talk and cry and be hurt. complain. whatever you need to do to let it out. give it time. if it doesnt get better then maybe concider going to the hospital[if your me you will never let yourself] but it may be a good idea. for now just find something that makes you happy. for me its putting coins in a jar. my friends way is watching ballons float up to the ceiling and pull them back down. listen to comforting music. i hope you feel better babe. get a support group. you need people to help you through this. you need someone to hold you up when you come undone. im here if you need me, even thought you dont know me. if there is anything i can dop let me know. hang in there! know your loved.

Answer 10

The brain dislikes having to relearn anything and will make unbalanced chemicals and discharge them into the spinal fluid blood . When we force our brain to deal with wrong expectations for love and sex we get an extreme anxiety called depression. These unbalanced chemicals are still in your brain fluid much later than when you were thinking about a stressful situation and these chemicals are the cause your feeling sad without reason to. We can be disinterested in anything that is happening around us or these chemicals make real total body pain.