if i am depressed how do i stay alive ?

Question

i have never missed alot of work from depression,but i have went through a lot of jobs,and none seem to work out its like i reach a level, and thats it,and by that time i feel so bad i have to quit,the only job i ever had that didint make me feel this way was when i was a night watch man(no stress) and no pay) but i felt better, do people realize this is why i cant stay at the same job, right now i have a job that i will be returning to in 2 months and the angsiety is all ready attacting me, and i have not even started it,and i am trying every way i can to change jobs so i can be well again. some times i feel like just because i am still able to pull my self out of bed and go to work ,even though i feel like crap, and sometimes i feel like every one is carrying me,but the superviser tells me i am doing fine, i still feel like i am not advancing fast enough. do people realize how sick i really am, just because i am still able to go to work and they havent had to put me in a mental ward?

responce to june s, thanks for the advice. i dont smoke weed, but i have found proof that it has helped some people with depression, and they have prescibed it to treat depression, some of the people that claim that it helps them are sucessful people, but they are probly just lieing. and the people with cancer they are just lieing to. maybe i should change my name.

Answer 1

Just for now try and be proud of the fact that:

1. You are able to go to work, even when you don't feel like it.
2. You are doing a good job, your supervisor says so!
3. You do not have to 'advance' if you don't want to at the moment. Our culture has a tendenancy to make people feel bad about this. Ignore it.
4. Having a job, bringing home some money and standing on your own two feet is honourable, it doesn't matter what you do.

Keep up the good work.

Answer 2

I would speak to your GP about this problem / condition if you are not already getting some treatment for it. It's the best thing you can do for yourself.

If you ever feel suicidal phone the Samaritans or get to your GP soonest.

Try not to place blame on people that you are working with for not understanding your illness, its ok for them not to understand.

I wouldn't place any extra stress on yourself by thinking you must advance faster, just be content to do the job for now, when you are feeling a bit stronger then think about more responsibility perhaps (or not).

Trying to push yourself to achieve more may be the reason you are becoming more anxious. Give yourself a bit of slack and say to yourself you don't have to put yourself under pressure to advance faster. Just take things easy for now.

Do try and get some advice on this situation though.

Good Luck and Best Wishes

PS If appropriate to take into account - smoking weed is not going to be helpful to your situation and often causes the chemistry / mental imbalance.

Answer 3

It does sound like an anxiety attack. My sis is bipolar w. anxiety and she has trouble going back to new jobs because she has an attack on the day she's supposed to be there. Just because you haven't been in a mental ward or can still get out of bed doesn't mean that what you're going through isn't serious. See a pshychiatrist and think about trying medication. It works wonders for me.

Answer 4

You call a doctor, or if you can't afford a doctor, call your emergency room for the phone number of a free or sliding-scale mental health clinic.
I know what you are going through--I have been down that road. I now take meds, and see a therapist--but I only see her once every 3 months--in the beginning it was at least once a week.
I take two meds--one is an antidepressant, and the other is for panic attacks. They have both helped me tremendously.

Answer 5

I have gone thru this alot myself. It might be hard, but this is what you have to do: Make happiness priority over income. Find work that you're happy with regardless of what it pays (to a reasonable degree) and then adjust your lifestyle and spending habits accordingly. After that, buy a good mattress. You will spend most of your life at work or in bed, so as long as those two things make you happy, the rest will fall into place!

Answer 6

Try explaining your situation to your doctor PHONE NOW do not wait and let your doctor advise. It is a good thing that you have had a lot of jobs. It has given you experience, and it proves that other people do value your work, shame on them to pay you a pittance in wages. It is a good thing that your superviser tells you.

Answer 7

I honestly don't feel people understand depression unless they have experienced it themselves. It is a very sad, hopeless, empty, lonely feeling and without medication it is very hard to deal with. I think your mind and body keeps you going day to day even though you are depressed.

Answer 8

Have you tried to get help? You need some one to talk to. You seem to be having panic attacks.

Answer 9

you need anti-depressants off the doc, they work a treat.