Mental and phycical broken- what to do with life.?

Question

This is my desperate attempt to try to see if I can obtain some valuable information from some people on this site regarding what to do with my life :S

This may be long and I apologize. First off I'll state that I'm currently 21 and almost 22 years old. I have back problems (bad) and i suffer from psychosis which ***** with my head.

I was fine before the age of 19 and had about 6 car accidents (4 totaled cars) all of which i was a passenger in. The last one my head smashed into a windshield and currently they're trying to figure out if this may have onset my psychosis. havent worked in 2 years and when i try to work i cant continue due to mostly back pain and some of my phychsois.

So what do i do I'm bored?

I LOVE animals and i enjoy writing and poetry and also history/ religion. I don;t have any education past high school becuase most of this happened just after high school. I barely passed high school and didnt pursue any post secondary institute.
What should i do for my life?

Currently I live with my panrets and I get paid "person with disabilty) which is only 850 a month
I'm only 21 and i dont want to sit on my *** for the rest of my life. i'm so lost and my brain doesn't think like it used to.
my email is [e-mail] by the way.
thank you

Answer 1

Ur in a bad situation. I too am disabled from a degenerative spinal disease & sever clinical depression. I feel the same way U do. U could come hang out with me. I'm bored too, it's been 1-1/2 years sience I worked last. The highlight of my day is going 2 bed at night. I would suggest volunteering but I know how it is when U can't be on Ur feet all that long. U have got 2 keep a good attitude. I know this is real hard. I lost my D/L 2, so I'm really stuck at home. Be thankful 4 what u have. Have U tried reading? I watch a lot of history, discovery shows, I'm a walking glossary of useless information. U could take classes online if that intrest U. I don't have an answer 4 U. I'm dealing with the same feelings of worthleness. U can contact me any time U need 2 talk. I'll be more than glad 2 talk 2 U. I hope in some way this helps or gives u something 2 think about.