What's wrong with me.....?

Question

I'm very confused. The last two years I have just been really depressed all the time. People say I look emo but I think emo is an over rated term. Emo now is just a stupid fad. But I often think of suicide. And I feel hatred for alot of things. It seems everytime My parents ask me to do something they scream at my telling me not to yell at them. I try not to yell at them but....I can't help it.. I get mad at everything And now my friends are kinda getting mad at me too. Then my brother just died and also one of my best friends. I just don't know what to do anymore.What do you think is causing me to do this?

[[I am currently going to concealing but I only went twice so far]]

I did start feeling this way before my brother and my friend died. Their deaths just kinda pushed me into being more sad.

Answer 1

I have felt the same way pretty much all my life. i've felt like i didnt belong in this world, and that everyone was against me or out to get me. i have harboured an intense hatred for all of mankind for many years. its not something i ever acted on, i was just very withdrawn, and angry at everyone. when confronted about things i would lash out with angry, mean, hurtful words...especially to my parents. at the age of 11 i started cutting, and have been a cutter for about 12 years.

you are lucky in the instance that you are getting counseling, it was never an option that my parents gave me. and i could never afford it on my own. please treat your counselor as though he or she is a friend who can be trusted, and not an enemy to despise.

also i agree with the people on here that have told you to try a relationship with God. but i highly disagree with the people that have advised you to stay away from "drugs" that the doctor will prescribe you.

some forms of depression and mental illnesses are caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain. medications that can be prescribed to you by your doctor can help with the imbalance and help you feel better. it would be best to talk to your counselor about this, and your family doctor. dont be afraid to tell someone how you feel, and what you think. just admitting that you need help is the first step to healing.

try to talk your parents into going to counseling with you. i am sure they are hurting over the loss of your brother just as you are. it might be beneficial to them to talk to someone too..and then you guys can grow and heal as a family without each of you trying to heal seperately, and grieve alone.

i am so sorry for your losses, and i'm pulling for you..best wishes

Answer 2

First of all, it's a great thing that you are going to counseling. Stick with it even though sometimes it seems like it's not working. There is no miracle treatment for depression and you've also had some very tramatic events to deal with. Make sure you are honest with your counselor. Believe it or not, they do NOT judge you. If the counselor is not the right personality for you, then you have the right to switch counselors. Don't feel guilty about it because that counselor won't be mad..they want the best for you. You are doing the right thing to treat yourself. What's wrong with you?? Nothing. You are a normal (teenager) I think. Depression is frequent with people your age. It's hard going through life and sometimes you need a little help getting through things. Don't be embarrassed about it either. You would be suprised at how many people around you are depressed. It most definately does not mean that you are crazy. It could be just a hormonal imbalance. And that whole emo thing is lame. It's stupid to try to put people in one big category. If it were that easy, then we would all be cured. You can get through this. Make sure you tell your counselor about your thoughts of suicide. If you are alone, call someone. Your counselor can give you a card with the 24hour numbers to call..and they are completely anonymous. Hang in there and keep up with counseling...you will get through this bump in the road.

Answer 3

First off, I'm glad you are going to counseling to help get to the bottom of why you are feeling the way you are. What you describe in many ways sounds like classical depression. However, since you don't mention your age, I should also mention that some of what you are feeling might be attributable to being an adolescent (if you are). One of your emotional "jobs" right now is to be figuring out who you are; what goals and aspirations you have, what your values are, the kinds of people you look to as role models, and who you admire--basically finding your identity. As you go through this process there are a lot of comparisons you make between yourself and others and this comparision, sometimes, can lead us to feeling a little inferior. Those feelings of inferiority can lay the foundation of feeling very vulnerable. I'm sure much of your anger and depression is coming from coping with the loss of your brother and friend, which is completely understandable and almost to be expected.

My biggest concern is your thoughts of suicide. When people are depressed, and have one of those bad days or spells like we can all experience, since the thoughts of suicide are right there in the mind already, they act on those thoughts. That's why I'm glad you are in counseling and have the opportunity to have someone help you through your feelings. I sense you are a young person and if you are in counseling, I'm assuming your parents are aware of your situation. That's good because they can help keep you safe, too.

What you should find comfort in and focus on are these two things- First, this phase in your life WILL pass. Life certainly does throw us a lot of crap sometimes, but good times come back, too. Secondly, the feelings you describe are also pretty common for young people; as I said before, this is a very important time of emotional growth for you. Don't worry that you are having feelings that are weird or different or that no one else has ever experienced them. You're not going crazy or anything. You've just hit a patch in your life you need some help getting through, and I'm glad you are getting that help. God bless you and I wish for you better times soon.

Answer 4

I think that from what you've just gone through, thats a lot to handle for one person! It sounds like you might have depression and i think you are doing the right thing with going to counceling. Keep going, and if you don't like your councelor you can always find a different one that will fit your needs. Just give it time. Try to cooperate with the councelor so they can help you.
Just know that your parents only want what is best for you and they love you no matter what, im sure they have been through alot too now.
Hope every thing works out for you!

Answer 5

Need a friend? mail me..


Anyway, you have to listen to what I'm going to say, and listen good....


You have to understand that the world does not revolve around one person...you, for that matter. Sometimes, it's hard to accept that; but in reality, everyone has to make necessary changes within himself or herself. The good news is that no one is forcing you to. You are the authority in your life. The bad news, which can also be good by the way, is that whatever you choose to do, you should live it. You have to stand by the choices you make.

Before you can go to the world, you have to go back to the only person you felt was with you ever since. Go back to yourself. Love yourself and recognize that as much as we'd like others to appreciate us, there are also certain things that they must adjust to. That is a reciprocal act.

I understand you. I've been there before. I was so mad at the world. I knew i deserved more than what it gave me. But now that i've reached the other side of the mountain, I realize that i had been too blind. I only focused on the negative side of things, pretending not to see the beauty that was all around me.


Do what you must do. But remember two things: actions have consequences; There is something to be appreciated in every step of the way. If you can't see it, you're not looking hard enough

Good luck!

Think about your dreams; going to parties; settling with a family one day; what you'd like your baby to wear; how you'd sit in a posh Manhattan suite; how it must feel like to be drinking coffee one time while reminiscing how you went over this impossible hurdle, once in your life.

Answer 6

you may have experience something different, hard time i your life. from what you said is reasonable that resulted yoursel depressed, and emo all the time.

its jus the matter of how you going to face the real world, the fact!!
i can simply say, good and bad thing are taking turn. if you can overtake this problem, good thing is coming your way. dont ever thing to suicide or do silly things, your relative will only get more sad about it, and ultimately it does not help at all.
just take it as challenge, if you can pass the hard time now, what else you cant manage in the future life???

rememberm, parents my be bad habit, not respect you or even worst may happend, but however they are your parent, without them, i won't be here to talk to you. and i belive 95% of parent do love their children. just they may love in wrong way, or wrong expressiong like screaming to you. you should know??

hope its help ;)

Answer 7

I dont know how you feel about going to church, but it has been my experience that when you have a relationship with God your whole life comes into perspective. I am glad to hear that you are seeing a Counselor, I just hope that it is a Christian Counselor not someone who wants to get you hooked on pills instead of resolving the problem. If you have not tried God, give him a try. I think you will be able to turn your life around and maybe even the lives of your parents. [Specplusoh's Girlfriend.]

Answer 8

Oh, my dear....you are 'me'. I have felt the same my entire life....I'm 40. I have begun taking a depression/anxiety medication called Paxel...it has helped. Also, talk to your parents. I never really believed that would make a difference. Now that I am older and feeling somewhat better, I really wish I would have. I'm sorry to hear about your brother (and your friend), but remember your parents are hurting too. They may be feeling quilty which in turn may make them feel a greater loss then just losing their son. They may need some guidance also. TALK TO THEM...please! It may be just what you all need. Also, they may need counseling and support. Talk to your counselor about bringing them in...Good luck my dear and don't give up. If you ever need to talk to someone who knows/feels the pain....IM or email me.

Answer 9

i think sometimes we forget all the things we have left especially things like parents and friends.we also should look at every little thing that makes us slightly happy and think if we didnt have that how more miserable we could become.i also suffered serious dpression about 12 years ago i wouldnt wish it on my enemy i aslo swore 2 god i wont let my self feel like that again.iv had a very testing life and will always be gratefull for the little things that i take for granted eg for having two eyes that work teeth and arms and legs etc.always remember there is some one worse off than you

Answer 10

Counseling is a great idea and I'm glad you have taken that step to get to the bottom of things. A good counselor can help you understand what is causing your feelings and help you with behavior changes and coping skills. Good luck and congratulations for recognizing that you needed to make a change.