I Cheated ..with my X ..Help?

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Here it goes , I broke up with my x like 2 years ago for the simple fact of her having her attitude that she gonna due what she want even if it has to do with not repecting me. She never felt like she was wrong for anything almost. But the truth to the matter is we had our ups and downs, but when we had our ups Our souls connected and she became my best freind for a 1yr 1/2. But she eventually wonder off following behind her friends and countiuned on her spree of hanging with basically the wrong crowd, what I consist of the type of wrong crowd is a negative crowd, and life behind bars crowd. So eventually we broke up because of it, for like a month. In the month time span I met someone who I fell for and she was in the moment of a break up to.But eventually me and this someone went our seprate ways back with or mates after this month. We kept in conact but keep it descrete.My x kept at her ways so much that one of her so call friends bought her a luxury truck.So eventually we seperated

Then Me an the girl I kept in contact with eventually got together and now we are engage 2 yrs later. I went throught a lot of drama with my X ,from tryin to fight my lady to curse at her etc..... But eventually things calm down. She went her ways I went mines. But while I went mines I found that she have touch parts in my heart that was hard to reach. My lady is the best person in the world and she always try her best to help me out with what ever I need. But she only been in few relationships nothin compared to me. I found it hard for me to connect with her even after all of these years we connected for a while and then eventually it became just sexual. We barely kiss and she clam she dont know how to really,we tried to work on it but it doesnt get to far where I feel a connection. For a while my heart was beating for my xx but i blocked it out mentally where eventually my feelings became num.. but I still felt love.I know I love my lady and she know she loves me. Next page

From time to time I find myself chatting with my x online and our minds are on the same pattern. She went through a few up and down relationships sense our break up .But she admits that I was her best friend and from a friend of mines bares witness to it. Yesterday I found My self out her house just kickin with her. This isnt the first time I chilled with her sense our break up,The honest truth is we just chilled and basically talked like adults instead of children for all the faults and things that went wrong. I was basically looking to understand this void I had in my heart what made all my love tendences feelings go num...because she was the last that felt me at my best when In love.Plus I relationship did not have any proper closure to it,so it basically left both of our hearts wide open at the end with no feed back. So yesterday I decided to chill with her because after talking to her I felt a little better. Well basically we ended up tonuge kissin for hours and sex ..

What I was truthly lookin for is if we still have a connection.Me and my lady talked about these feelings. It something like a broken heart feeling that not to many people can fill. Its like Me and my x was married and divorce to where it felt like a dream,and sometimes I find my heart hurting and its annoying & she have a kid thats not mine but I was the most close thing to a father that the boy every knew , he was 4 when we seprated but he was so young he did not know what was going on .But his memory of the time we shared still played a part of his life because he mentioned my name to this day about the time we spent to her from time to time. Well anyway I found feelings that I did not know was there and I can see my life dramatically taking a turn. What Would YOu dO "Contiune to see her or Leave it alone." I know some words are miss spelled but if you can understand it I appreciate ur reply

Answer 1

what? did u not learn anything the first time around it doesnt get any better

Answer 2

Tell your new girl you guys need to have a talk. You know what to say, be like "ive been thinking things over and unfourtanetly i need some time apart i feel really weird sometimes my feelings are somewhat different.." be very up front about it thats what me and my bf did with each other we talked. look the only thing i see is love, people make mistakes, people change is true they dont change in a second but they change. Go back with this girl im sure you feel complete with her as i told you, as long as there is love you will be very very happy. good luck!