Hating Life?

Question

I get angry & annoyed so easily, that even when my mom walks thru the door i want nothing more than 2 leave my home or go 2 my room 2 escape from her nagging. She always complained about not doing good in skool, being distant from family, the way i dressed, how i thought about myself, & never wanting 2 do anything w/ her. Growing up I was always put 2nd, I would try 2 talk but then got told 2 stop for she didnt want 2 talk about it, or when my brother interupted, she would listen 2 him 1st. My brother would yell & hit me when i wouldnt do something right. It got 2 the point when I stopped trying 4 acceptance, didnt talk about my feelings, & tried 2 get out of the house as much as I could I began eating less, started smoking, smoked weed, skipped school, got addicted 2 coke @ drank whenever gotten the chance. I want nothing from this life, & when when I die I hope 2 put my family thru the pain i lived day 2 day, so they no what it feels like 2 loose a loved 1, which i lost long ago

Answer 1

solution=grow up. get a job. pay bills. stand on your own two feet. fall on your face.

Answer 2

don't kill yourself it not worth i went though the same thing you just have to stop take a look at your life figure what you want to do with your life when u have made the decision go with it try to meet new people join new clubs try and get away from the people associated with your smoking maybe sport join a team it will give you something to do new friends .
once u have your own life sorted talk 2 your parents tell them how u feel they probably don't realise they r hurting u and they do love u.tell them about your feelings and whats gone wrong and they can help they can't do anything if they don't know whats wrong
if u feel u can't talk to your parents then maybe a counsellor close friend relative
good luck

please don't give up its true time is a great healer

Answer 3

Hey,
i can totally understand what you're goin through, iv'e been there plenty of times. how old are you?not that it really matters...
listen, iv'e been through a whole lot in my 16 and a half years of life, enough to understand when someone's in pain and feeling totally lost. many times i have wanted to end my life and even now my situation aint that great. i would really recomend that you try to get ahold of a book called "you don't have to learn everything the hard way" by laya saul. i personally know the author, she's an amazing woman, and i've read her book at least a couple of times and it's one i beleive every family should own. it's really for all ages, so i really hope you read it cause it really has helped me and i know it will make an impact on you'r life.
feel free to write back at all times, even if you're just feelin' down and need a friend.
so get that book and read it! you'll thank me.

Answer 4

I know it is really hard usually to understand this when you are the victim but the chances are your mum feels like the victim instead. I suggest that, for two days you try just spending a lot of time around with her, chatting, even if she does nag you just nod. Try and be positive during this time and receptive to her even if she will say negative things about you work/clothes etc. After all, its only for two days. You mum will probably really appreaciate even this small time with you, and you might get a chance to show her that you don't deserve being spoken down to.
Just give it a shot, worked for me.

Answer 5

The #1 thing you MUST stop, right now this very instant, is any sort of drug use. Speaking from experience I can tell you with zero doubt that drug use does not help. Join AA. Despite the face that AA is for drunks, they have THE idea on how to quit anything. Give AA a shot. It will change your life for the better.

What you need is acceptance. You will find it there.

Answer 6

OK, I understand life can seem awful when you have no life of your own & you are being nagged all the time & being made to feel you are rubbish to be ignored. You haven't even had time to find out who you are before there is an adult telling you what they think of you, destroying your confidence, self belief, & self-worth. That treatment invalidates your existence, makes you feel you wish you'd never been born...

Which is a terrible shame, because your mum suffered so much to bring you into this world, & she had such high hopes for you.

Your relationship with your mum is now so strained - she's probably under a lot of pressure wanting you to be safe, & doing something progressive whilst not being able to devote enough time to you due to other family pressures & possibly financial problems.

But you need to get her back on a level with you, so she feels happier about you, & so you feel life is worth living.

Yeh, it's a case of your mum is your best friend or your worst enemy...

How to achieve friendly relations?
Don't do things that antagonise your mum or get her cross! ALWAYS peak calmly & quietly- don't yell at her, or swear at her!
Give her the respect she expects.

Explain to her, when she has the time (make an appointment if necessary!) exactly how mixed-up about things you are feeling.

Help her to understand the pressures you are going through. Just doing that honestly will help you (& your mum).

Then look at yourself in a long mirror. Check out your appearance. If you think it's OK, that's what really matters.
If you look like a fashion victim, perhaps you need to effect some improvments?

Then tackle your craving for drugs.
Could your GP help with hypnotherapy?
Do you have sufficient will-power to say "no" when you are offered some?
Can you talk to yourself before giving in to the hell bent desire to self-destruct by admitting to yourself you are only seeking to escape from your problems by trying to blot the problems out?

You need to be working on how to achieve independence, so
be honest- is doing drugs really the best way to learn how to look after yourself? Your body & brain is a marvellous, highly tuned & sophiscated piece of God-given equipment. Do you really want to ruin it with dangerous chemicals???

Once you realise you are doing that to retaliate against the bullying abusive situation you are unfortunately in... maybe you will find the inner strength & character to be able to stop?
I really hope you do.

Finally, you need a better sense of direction so you can move on with your life & find what you need to make you feel happy.
What are you good at?
What do you enjoy doing?
What comes easily to you?
By listing your attributes, you will narrow down the confusing array of choices that are out there, of things you could usefully do & dedicate your time to doing, so that you will have a rewarding & satisfying future.

You are bright, intelligent & probably gifted.
So don't waste that. Be kind to yourself (& your mum).

(But if your mum remains angry with you, rejecting you & she refuses to be supportive, then walk away, holding your head up high).

All the best.

Answer 7

I am sorry to hearr what you are going through, it is like an echo to my life. all I can say is, dont do the drugs no matter how tempting. I know it is easy for me and others to say, you need to become you, stop putting yourself down, your family does love you (its hard to see, but later you will see it). I found myself through reading book, and taking time out. you are at a stage where two paths are opening up, 1=downwards, blaming others, drugs. 2=just get on with it, start your life fresh (its hard but its the best path,) it`s a path that I took and am now moved away from family and am working. good luck.

Answer 8

ok so the first part i understand, the drinking, smoking, drugs, etc. i get that too....im right there with ya...but the end where you say you want them to feel the same pain i completely disagree with....be the bigger person and live your life hoping no one else ever has the feel that pain....once you help take others pain away you will feel better about yourself and your life because then you are NOT like the people that hurt you so much....it made my life so much better to change things then to just be bitter...

Answer 9

A lot of people feel like this, but what you've got now isn't your life.

Wait until you're old enough and then go out and experience life. It's in your power to make it what you want. It's how hard are you prepared to try. I know I've been there.

Answer 10

You are loved, your mom loves you and your brother loves you. even if you dont want to believe it. I am so sorry your life has turned out this way. You really need to talk to someone about your problems, I don't know how to comfort you or make you see that you need to change, I'm not qualified. I really think you need professional help to help you with your addictions and to help you with your family problems.

Answer 11

learn from your experiences and become a better person because of it. playing the blame game isn't a way to escape. if all else fails see a psychiatrist. there are plenty that even work for free. don't give them the satisfaction of knowing they ruined your life. and on the other side. if you do become successful and happy......make sure you let them know they had nothing to do with it