how do i stop making myself sick?

Question

im not overweight but i used to suffer an eating disorder and went v v thin now im a normal weight. im really health conscious i eat v v healthyily and balanced food most days and do alot of exercise at the gym eveyrday. then night time comes and i ruin all my good work by eating crap. i dont make myself sik at night time coz there are people in the house but during the day when im trying to do uni work i eat a good breakfast then a good dinner...then i sit and think about chocolate and crisps and whatever else until i finally go eat them n then make myself sick. then i eat normally and go to the gym again. im stuk in a routine. feeling guilty. not loosing or gaining weight. but its very distressing and i know im damaging my health. how can i programme myself to stop doing this il try anything except i will not tell any1 and i will not go and see a counsellor. please help

Answer 1

In all honestly I had the exact same problem as you, though my problem was not knowing enough at the time. When I was in your position I thought I ate perfectly healthly and did everything all organized, until I educated myself and realized I was malnurished. I had sufficiently low calories which caused my body to crave food until night time when I would binge. After several months of this bingeing I kept telling myself I would stop bingeing, until some points I would purge my food.

I was in the same position as you, scared and somewhat confused. I sure as hell did not want to talk to some counselor, so I did all that I knew of, I stopped caring for some time. I let myself relax and not worry about my health for about one year. I ate when I was hungry. Though I did not need a year or even a half year, I allowed my body to begin eating maintainence again without depriving myself. Now when I engage in cutting or bulking plans I make sure to eat enough calories so that I do not feel as though I am starving.

BTW- In my opinion not all doctors know about health/dieting therefore they can't always offer great advice aside from telling you to seek a counselor. You're having a mental conflict and you need to relax and stop restricting your body. Don't feel guilty if you stop eating well for some time, elsewise your problems may get worse.

Need be I can help you calculate your calories and tell you first hand if your eating enough. That way you would know if you are undereating.

Answer 2

As with any addiction, the first step is to *want* to quit. And by your question, I assume you're there. It's a hard road to travel. Every person is different, and what works for one may not work for another. I was bulimic for 2 1/2 years, and what made me quit was getting pregnant. I did not *intend* to get pregnant - I was engaged to be married, and had always had a fantasy of how my wedding would be (tiny dress, tiny waist. . .). But then I got pregnant. I now had another life for which I was responsible. Regardless of how much I detested myself, I could NOT do this to the unborn child. So I quit. Cold turkey. And I quit smoking, and taking the ephedra-based pills, etc. I ballooned! I gained 75 lbs with that pregnancy, and again with each of the 2 subsequent pregnancies. I then weighed MORE than I did before I started the whole vomiting thing. Was I tempted to start it again? You *bet* I was! But what if my children saw or heard me? I don't want them to suffer what I have, so after a few individual backslides, and many diets and exercise plans, I underwent gastric bypass. I will always wonder, if I had gotten control of my weight ~ the RIGHT way ~ would I be where I am today? What if I had stopped the bulimia on my own, not due to pregnancy? Would I have gained so much? Take care of you. Think of where you could end up if you *don't* quit. Find a GOOD habit to replace this one. It could be exercise, crafts, reading, sports, anything that you can do the minute you feel the urge to purge. And train yourself *slowly* to not eat so much at a sitting. If you can't vomit it out, don't put too much in. It's hard! Best of luck from someone who knows what you're going through.

Answer 3

There are professionals out there whose job is to help people when they find themselves in situations like this. Not so long ago I was in a mess with something and it took me ages to get up the courage to talk to someone about it but it was worth it in the end. Why not try a phone help line first, I'm sure there is a suitable one in Yellow Pages. It may be easier to do this first than going to see someone straight away, face to face. By asking this question you are asking for help and this is also a positive start to getting better. There is a programme on BBC 3 tomorrow at 7 pm about issues like this, I'm sure there will be a phone number on there afterwards, why not try that?

Answer 4

i sympathise with you dear, i myself have a weight problem
but i really think you should see your doctor. i am not an expert,
but it sounds to me you,still have an eating disorder called
bullemia.you are showing all the symptoms i can only hope that you shall find a sympathetic doctor.someone who will give you the help you so desperately need. there are not enough people
who understand what you are going through. i really do feel for you god bless

Answer 5

maybe you should speak to your doctor and see if they can reffer you. If you are eating crap but going to the gym and leading an active life then you shouldn't need to make yourself sick as i'm sure this will balance things out???

Answer 6

The only way to help is to get professional help. I know that's not what you want to hear but that's the only real answer. You can't do this alone. You could try a support group as well.

Answer 7

You definately are in trouble and need to see a counsellor. Gather courage and go

Answer 8

well i would say tell some one....or try and get whomever your living with to buy healthier sancks or food so when you binge you don't feel guilty for pigging out

Answer 9

you should ask a doctor

Answer 10

Don't eat it.