So depressed and don't know what to do...?

Question

I have been so depressed for so long. I have been hospitalized multiple times in the last 5 years ( for anorexia, depression, suicide attempts, self-harm, etc...). The shortest stay being 3 days, and the longest being 15 months. I have seen multiple thearpists and been on multiple meds and nothing has worked long-term. I stopped using drugs in October of 2006, have recently (in the last 6 weeks) gotten into a healthy weight range, and have only self-harmed 3 times since June of 2006. ...But in the last month or so I have not been able to sleep, or if I do sleep, I sleep for a very long time (9 or 10 hours minimum), my appetite is out of control, and I think about suicide a lot (although I would never do it again). I just don't know what to do anymore. Some one please help me.

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I have endured sexual/verbal abuse throughout my life, the bulk of it being from age 4-8. I am seeing a therapist and she is great, but it only works temporairly. I am in college and it is also VERY hard to focus/consentrate. My grades suffer when I really have the potential to make straight A's if I could focus for longer than 2-3 minutes.

Answer 1

No matter what you problem might be, there is some own is ready to help you. Guess who, the Lord Jesus Christ, call him for help. He is always longing for you. Jesus loves you!

Answer 2

what do you think would help?
what would you do if money was no object?
what would you do that defies the laws of nature (for example change something in the past, bring a dead person back etc)

who do you live with? does anyone help you and support you in life?

I don't say this much, but I honestly feel for you. I hope you find something in the end.

Theres limited advice we can give because there's not enough information. Maybe you could post another question or extend this one with more info?

First we would need to know whether your depression appears to be a chemical imbalance type, one that has no real cause.
Or if it is because you were abused or something like that.

You are a female, how are your hormones? Have they been checked?

Hang in there

PS- I wish people would really stop telling you and people like you to find God, and pray, and all that. *rolls eyes*

Also I wish they would stop saying to go to the doctor. You've been and been and been.
Obviously the doctors can't help you. I think in the end we all have to do it on our own. You might need a little help from the doctors though, maybe you need some meds to help with the physical effects, or someone to advise you etc, but you can do it on your own. I think somehow it will work itself out

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I'm not saying I can fix you or anything, or even make you feel a bit better. But it's just there if you want, for whatever. Try me if you want.
Sometimes we just need a bunch of different people to talk to about different things. Or to really just say you know what, life is F'in S**t and I need help. Why won't anyone help me?!
I am one person who never gets tired of hearing people venting. I think it is the most healthy thing ever and I encourage people to do it more often. I'm also not judgemental either. I have heard a lot of weird s**t and it doesn't phase me.

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Answer 3

Have you tried nutritional supports like fish or flax oil, B Vitamins and magnesium?
All these would help with some support for depression, anxiety and sleep problems.

Have you ever gone for acupuncture? If you could find a good practitioner, it could be amazing for you. I have tapered off my anti-depressants and xanax by the treatments, although I went for pain. I still have lots of migraines, but my fibromyalgia pain is less.

Another idea is to learn meditation and visualization. These can really help you, too.
I have lots of trouble sleeping and when I can't sleep, I follow my breath, in and out, and think of certain words or phrases as I inhale or exhale. In and out can be fine, but you can figure out what may be better for you. Sometimes I use "I'm OK" or "I'm Fine". The more you can repeat positive thoughts, the better you feel and are.

I'm sorry you have these troubles and pain. I know what some of that is like. I just got thrown back into a reall bad mental and emotional place last week and feels so fortunate to be a lot better already.

the bottom line is you need to find out how to help yourself, through self-help or a good practitioner of some kind & most lkely both.

Answer 4

Search Yahoo Answers under depression or better the seven thousand 'Answers' under happiness. It's so funny how so much energy gets behind one thought or attitude and if you take one positive thought you can bring all that energy over onto the positive thought. The mind is funny. "you feelings are made up of the same junk your thoughts are made up out of', is a quote I like. I really do ignore all those negative thoughts and feeling.s I consider them mostly as a big lie or exaggeration and laugh them off because they really are all fake, really. The worst depression I ever had I believed the thought, but just got up and went to get something to eat and trashed the whole thing. They haven't come back because they know I hardly believe a word they say. Get on a good intuition site and get in touch with the greatness inside you. I put a site down below. I don't know how good it is but I got this quote off it. “intuition” means “education from within.” So you have two worlds within. Choose. Search the web or RSS under intuition, it answers everything. In the world of intuition there's some fantastic stuff to take you all the way to God. Now I see sadness as disconnect from God and my receiver the subconscious. I got off meds and can be as happy as I want, giddy, delirious or as depressed as I want, as crazy as I want to and go visit with the insane and take them on the trip back. Yahoo! answers. Your in a better position than others. You can flip the coin in a second and become "the head and not the tail", and get twice the good back for all your suffering. Or, "Turn you to the strong hold, ye prisoners of hope: even to day do I declare that I will render double unto thee" or "Instead of YOUR shame there will be a double portion, and instead of humiliation they will cry out joyfully over their share.' The only part I don't understand is the double. I'm up into the thousands in joy and it's still coming. You can go into heaven or hell in your mind and "it has no hold on you." "Born Free", then enslaved by the world then "Free at last, free at last, thank God almighty I'm free at last." Martin Luther King quoting as he said " in the words of a great ***** spiritual."
Yeh, there's an answer.

Answer 5

There is no really good answer for this -
-beyond a good friend (that is truly there for you)
-a journal (to let out your true emotions)
-some free time (where people aren't giving you their 2 cents)
-a night to do somethings you want to do and not what everyone else does (but with people (it's a trade off ...you pick, they pick, you pick....)
- A great reason to live
- Your motivation (find it)
- Your release (find it)
- and a list of (what you like about yourself)
this will not make you all better but might help on the extra hard nights
-change your diet (for always being tired)
- if you cant eat - take a vitamine or something
hope some of this helps

Answer 6

my mom had a problem with her weight also. She's now going through therapy, and she's keeping her weight up. Do you know what could be bothering you that makes you really depressed. I know a lot of people told you to seek help, but I think you should just turn your stress over to god , and let him handle it. Ask Him personally if he can deliver you from Depression, and suicidal thoughts, And trust me he will. Last year I was catching anxiety attacks a lot. And I felt like no doctor, or anyone could help me so I just ask god to deliver me , and he did. Ever since then I haven't got sick. God Bless you and I will keep you in my prayers. God put you on this earth for a reason. Maybe that reason could be to share your story with others like I did.

Answer 7

Find out the reason you're depressed. It's a state of mind. I'm sure you're better than that. And forget about drugs. It just gives you a false sense of well-being. Think of people from 3rd world countries. They manage to survive and be happy inspite of having less than what you have.

Answer 8

I think you should find a hobby that u enjoy doing or start a jounal and write in it write how u feel and then later or even the next day read it what u learn from it.most of all target the behavior and write montions u feel also.talk to someone you really trust.write peoms and share them with others that u trust

Answer 9

My sweet sweet dear life is much much to precious to throw away. Killing your self will solve nothing, You will be in hell for eternity.
But than is not the worst part of it you will cause the ones who truly love you pain.
I know that you think life is hopeless that know one cares about you but you are wrong.
I am 46 years old never had girlfriend and never had sex .
I at one time thought no one gave a damn about me but I was wrong.
The Lord God in heaven cared enough about me to send hie son Jesus to die on the cross and then rise from the dead and ascend to heaven to sit on the right head of the father.
Life really is worth living, no matter how bad it looks.
Because thing is it always look worst than it really is.
Please dear do not harm yourself because you will be great missed.

Answer 10

Please tell me you are in counseling. I have borderline personality disorder. I self-harm to make myself feel better, and suicidal thoughts rage through me. I too have been hospitalized for being a danger to myself. But that you are on this board asking for help means you want to get better. If you didn't you'd just given up. I wish I could give you some thing that will make it all go away or tell you about the "magic pill" that will take all this hurt and sadness away. I can tell you this though. There are people like you out there going through the same things and trying everyday to feel better. I post on some a boardson www.nami.org. We post about are feelings and what we are going through and try to help each other. It makes me feel we are not alone. Please don't give up. Like I said, if you are asking for help, that means you haven't given up and want help. I had two days off in a row and slept for 38 out of the 48 hours I had off.
it does get better. Please try to take your meds and see someone. Please don't give up. Killing yourself shouldn't be an answer, even though I know you think it might be. I just lost a very special friend a couple of weeks ago. I cry alot when I think about my Tigger (that was my nickname for her). But when I went to her memorial and saw all the people who were sad and suffering because she was gone, I realized what it would do to so many people if I gave in. I realized that suicide was selfish. I can't do that to the people i love. I realize that if I died and she was still alive how much pain I would put her through if I died. I loved my Tigger very much. I couldn't do that to her. Please hold on. Please try. If you have to go back to the hospital to feel safe, please go. The world doesn't want you to go. I don't want you to go. Please email me if you need help. You are not alone, I promise.

Answer 11

You really need to tell someone close to you how you're feeling. You need to contact your dr. promptly, also. You don't have to go on suffering like this. Please tell someone right away. The sooner you do, the sooner you'll be feeling better. Perhaps, your medication needs to be adjusted. The only ones w/the correct answers to your questions are professionals. Call someone tonight and ask him or her to accompany you to see a doctor tomorrow. Don't put it off another day. Good luck and God bless