Had really bad side effects from cipralex so my shrink switched me to efforex. Less annoying side effects but it sometimes knocks me out. Told my wife I was suicidal and she thought she wasn't good enough for me. Had to straighten that out. Feel so useless. Just can't force myself to do much. Have 7 docs on the go trying to figure it out. So I'm fighting physical symptoms, have to fight with people everyday to try and get benefits and it is just pushing me over the edge cause I'm running out of energy to keep going. I hate myself, the way I feel, the fact that my wife has to take care of me and deal with all the bills on her own. I went in the hospital because I woke up feeling like I was being crushed and my head was going to explode. They told me to leave after 4 hours cause I was already doing everything possible with all the docs. The drugs help calm me but the sadness and feelings of worthlessness won't leave. I can't do suicide cause it will hurt my wife. What do I do now?
2007-01-29 02:58:57 · 7 answers · asked by numb nuts 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
It sounds like you should be in the hospital now. You should be in till you get yourself leveled out. Im sure your wife loves you and try to let her understand as much as possible. If you cant go inpatient there is also outpatient programs you can go to. Ask your docs what are some of your options here. It doesnt sound like they have done what they are supposed to and if you arent happy with them try to get another. Just from the way you are talking though it just sounds like you could really use the rest as an inpatient. Try your best to get better not only for your wife but for you too. Hang in there.
2007-01-29 03:13:26 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I know how you feel, I've suffered depression on and off for twenty years. So you are a real champion! Depression is such a challenge and you are doing well to keep on top of it. Thinking of others like not wanting to hurt your wife is really the way out.
You see the opposite of sadness is hapiness. That's what you want right.
Now here's the key...
It's really strange, but so true...
"There is more hapiness in giving than in recieving".
Now I know you are feeling lousy and worthless but you need to ponder this. It's universal, its based on intrinsic human nature and it works!
For instance, I know someone in an iron lung that is happy because of the goodness they can share with others. It is fulfilling and purposeful. you don't really need health. You don't need money. What you need to find is something of real and lasting value to share to give to others. It will give you meaning and purpose in life - it will make you happy - if and only if you share it with others.
2007-01-29 03:17:15 · answer #2 · answered by http://www.1worldenglish.com 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
If you feel suicidal, you qualify to be an inpatient. A nurse once told me that there should be no shame or guilt in going to a hospital- as many times as you need to to get better. I believe it's wise and true.
Hearts are with you- take care.
You might also consider a private hospital offering privately-funded financial assistance. You might qualify for that.
2007-01-30 03:09:28 · answer #3 · answered by Habt our quell 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Do Service you need to volunteer everywhere to do as much as possible. Look up charities in the phone book, call and volunteer. Keep your self so busy helping others that you can't think as much about yourself. I know this may sound too simplistic, but I went through a 2 year period of time where I wanted to die, I understand, but I started helping cancer patients and visiting some of the old people in my neighborhood, they love visitors they are all so lonely. And most will talk your ears off. Try really hard to think of what their needs are and try to fill them. Volunteer to drive for meals on wheels. Or drive cancer patients to their appointments. You don't care if you die so forget about your problems they are beyond you. Concentrate on thinking of things that will please your wife and do them what else do you have to do with your time? If you have kids concentrate on ideas of how to entertain them. Write letters to everyone in your family aunts uncles everyone. It will brighten their days. Start a journal but only allow yourself to write down good things and make yourself write in it every day. Basically get your mind off of your problems. YOU CAN DO IT YOUR FATHER IN HEAVEN LOVES YOU!!! Call and talk to one of your church leaders. Say your prayers and Jesus will be there for you. I will say a prayer for your too. I love you, you are my brother.
2007-01-29 03:23:44 · answer #4 · answered by Kat 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Have you had inpatient care?? You may need it if you are suicidal. It can be hard to know what to do, I cant' comment on what type of therapy you are getting b/c I don't know. Hang in there, ask God for help. I will pray for you.
2007-01-29 03:05:07 · answer #5 · answered by zaeli22 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Have you tried seeing a psychologist and talking about your feelings besides only taking medication, if you haven't I think that would probably be best thing to do, medication can only go as far, you need to do more for yourself and seeing a psychologist would probably be a good thing.
2007-01-29 03:05:04 · answer #6 · answered by melimel 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
medication will never heal you, it goes on for yrs and yrs, though doctors don't agree b/c its their bread n butter,
plz do the course Art of living , its natural breath cycles, its very powerful , and cleanses ur system and frees ur mind, yoga of breath...it will make you very calm and centered....
www.artofliving.org
it will give you a purpose in life, and please do service , go and help needy ppl, children whatever......
2007-01-29 03:18:52 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋