Depression... How can I help myself?

Question

How can i help myslef get out of a really bad depression without getting put in a mental hospital or getting my kids taken away.me??????

Ever since I was little I have had problems with depression. When I was a child I used to sit in the corners of the school yard by myslef sometimes, all by myself and do nothing but watch everyone else. I wouldn't be bored or sad, just kinda didn't care.

Now that I am older (23) I spend 99% of my day either in bed sleeping or on the computer.

I live my life in minor pairanioa. I cant keep a job more then a month cause once someone looks at me the wrong way I start thinking what did *I do? What did *I say? I am always nervous and always thinking I did something wrong. Because of this I cant concintrate. I cant think at all while working. To worried I'm gonna mess up the next order, or still thinking about why thouse two girls were whispering 5 hours ago, and if its about me.

I have thought about suicide. But could never do it.

I love my kids to much to do such a thing to them. They need me. Although most days I wish and pray for a way to turn back time so I wouldnt have them. Cause they are the only thing keeping me in this cruel world.

I hate the world. Afriad to be alone at night cause of horrible people out there. Murderers, rapeiests, kidnappers, physcos.

I feel like I am the only one who see's the world as it really is. I cry when I watch the news and see someone brutly killed each day. My Dr. won't up my depression pills cause he doesnt feel I need it. Meanwhile I have askedto see a physciatrist and he wont refer me. I know I need help. My dr. wont give me a referal to a Physciatrist though (cause he would have to do paperwork!!!) (Lazy *** hole ) I a only on 75ml Effexor for my depression pills.

I dont want to get up in the morning, I dont want to keep living. But I have to. For my children. How can I get help? Without being put in a mental hospital, Or having my kids taken. I LOVE my kids

Answer 1

Millions suffer from depression. You're focusing far too much about what people say/think about you. You must focus on your attributes and how you can enhance them. You need to search for a good peer support group near where you live.

Depression does not mean you will be put in mental hospital or have your kids taken away. You must show some initiative and get out of bed no matter how difficult and find a place for professional help. There are many around but you must take the first step.

A Doctor can prescribe you a good medication that will help there are many different classes Tricyclics, SSRIs, SNRIs that will help but you have to be willing to put in some effort yourself.

If you go to mindovermood.com you can learn about a great book called Mind Over Mood, it will help you understand your problems better and how you can change the thoughts that contribute to your problem. It has exercises that will help you solve problems and take action to improve your life.

As for the problem you have with your doctor, try a community mental health clinic, Effexor is a good medication (SNRI) but it might not be the right one for you. There is alot of trial and error till you find the right one. You must find a good mental health professional that is willing to work with you to find the best one and the proper doseage.

The world is far from perfect, but you can not change this, just work on yourself, you must learn how to change self-defeating thoughts into self-enhancing onesSupport from family and good friends is paramount as you go through these changes. Do it for yourself and your children will benefit.

ALL THE BEST!

Answer 2

Honey I've lived with depression for 19 years,and I know exactly how you feel about everything.I've been there and from time to time I get in that mood again.My past was no fairy tale life either,and I was abused by my parent's and my uncle raped me when I was13years old, and got off with it.I've seen many doctor's and been on many meds to,and even been hospitlaized for a nerves break down after my first divorce, then my second marriage ended when my husband cheated with my best friend.I'm now on my own and living day to day one day at a time.I did lose my kids in the divorce to my husband due to the fact that the judge said men could raise boys better than woman,I'm not a dead beat mother either.I do for them everyday and I'm a major part in their lives everyday.I believe you need to change your doctor,depression to me is nothing to play with.Depression to me is worse than any other diease out there.I see my doctor every three months,I'm currently on cymbalta it's the best for me,no complaints. Now on the other hand I don't see I call them qaucks,but anyway I keep a daily journal not a day doesn't go by that I don't write an enrty in there.Write anything that's on your mind if you think it's stupid write it down,if it's funny write down,anyway try that honey,it may sound strange but it takes some stress off and it works for me.Well if you'd like to talk further on I'd love to talk with you anytime,I'm here at home all day.May God Bless You,and I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

Answer 3

Over the last five years I had begun to have increasingly withdraw into a downward spiral of depression..

But now with the method I can fully focus my energy and thoughts into a decisive line on how to make my life better constantly. And it works like magic! I'm beginning to attract people to me once again and things have just been looking up since then.

Helping you eliminate depression?

Answer 4

Obviously the medication isn't helping as your symptoms are still quite dominant. I am sorry that your doctor isn't helping. Find yourself to a different doctor if you can so you can get the help you need. I also second the recommendation to call your local mental health clinic as they should be able to help.
You deserve to be treated for your depression, not brushed off the way you have been. If worse comes to worse and you have to go to a hospital just to see a psychiatrist, it would get you the help you need...and they don't always put you into a hospital.
Good luck, my thoughts are with you.

Answer 5

I am not a physician, but there are many simple, excellent treatments for depression. You will not be put in a mental hospital or have your children taken away. Go see your family doctor, and tell him/her that you feel depressed. Don't hesitate, you will be amazed at how much better your life is once you've been treated for awhile.

Answer 6

i am the same exact way except ive tried to commit suicide too many times. running infront of muni busses and casuing accidents, slitting my wrists (the right way), trying to od...you name it.
ive been placed on NUMEROUS meds... only to find they made me worse. then i started smoking pot. that helped me imensly. you dont need to be rolling blunts ok. just take two hits in the morning and two hits at night. experiment with indica and septiva
see which one works for you. one will give you more of a speedy feeling. the other with mellow you out.
i myself took it to another level that was even more theraputic. i started growing! i dont grow anymore but i will once i get my **** back together. its great to give life to something that will benefit you and others. most importantly you can do this all legally.

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Answer 7

Every community has a community mental health clinic. I recommend calling and arranging to learn some new cognitive skills.... and to deal with the mental, emotional, physical and/or sexual abuse in your childhood that is likely at the root of your depression.

Answer 8

You probably need a med of some kind .Go talk to a psychiatrist .I doubt weather he'll put you in the hospital unless your a danger to yourself or someone else.

Answer 9

You have a medical condition and should see a doctor for it. If people really could make their own depression go away they would. Trust me.

Answer 10

Honestly and seriously, smoke drugs. I was on all different kinds of anti-depressants and they all just "Zombified" me. I found that toking not only helped my crippling depression, but it also helped my appetite. And everytime I think about suicide, I just puff on a bowl of some danke nug, and it makes me feel better. Just do it outside so your kids don't see you. Feed your head.