Im losing my mind?

Question

i can literally feel depression in my veins (like uncomfortable heat within). This week has been the worst of my life, i have been loosing hair tho no patches, just thinning. I have been feeling so ugly not just cos of hair loss, just looking at my face makes me so sick, i never thought possible. I dont know why i am realising the uglyness right now, and not before. Only person i know, is the girl i liked, she just dsnt want to know me anymore cos of how negative i am and thinks im doing it on purpose. I wish i had a gun to shoot myself, but i dont. parents dont care, and i dont have any friends. ive tried going out talkin to people, nothing. i workout a lot, but nothing. What does a 21 year old guy do now? i think i will kill myself any time soon, cos of the buildup, right now i can only with a gun, but i think i might do it with anything IF this can get even worse. god help me, he knows ive prayed my head off, i cant take this anymore

i know people are worse off than me. i really do. i have tried helping people. i just have lost confidence. i stand for nothing. i am nothing, i just want to not exist. even such a wish is so hard to come by naturally.

Answer 1

You need to see a doctor, losing your mind no depressed yes. You are far from alone in this, depression hits a huge amount of people in the world and makes everyday more of a struggle.
A doctor can help you with therapy and prescribe you drugs they can help bring you back to your old self and drag you out of the depression you are in.
There is a way out and it's not suicide please seek your doctor your parents are ignorant and should be helping you sadly they're not so you will have to help your self, that girl was evidently not your friend if once you feel "negative" she left, there are people out there who will see you through thick and thin see a doctor and you can get help.
Best of luck, remember the footprints in the sand story

Answer 2

I suffer from depression also. Its a terrible thing. But if you notice its just a loop of NEGATIVE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS! Change your thoughts into positive thoughts and youll start to feel better. Instead of saying "I can't" say "I can". (theres a 100% chance of no if you dont do something about it!) Instead of saying I feel worthless concentrate on something good you did in your life. Even if it was for a short while. Remember life is like a baseball game your going to strike out a lot but swing everytime. and when you hit that home run after many many many tries everyone is going to scream for you. Another one that gets me is when thomas edison was inventing the lightbulb it took him thousands of tries to make it work. and he said " If I find 10,000 ways something won't work, I haven't failed. I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is just one more step forward....”.

In short you have to think positive. Dont just give up and end it, you only live once and be happy with what you have! Be happy your alive!

Answer 3

I honestly do think that your parents care more than you think. Do they know the depth of what you are honestly thinking? Most of your friends probably do not know how to help you. You need to see a doctor and get on some medication to help you get a hold of this depression, better yet, please........
If you are thinking about harming yourself or attempting suicide, tell someone who can help right away:

Call your doctor's office.
Call 911 for emergency services.
Go to the nearest hospital emergency room.
Call the toll-free, 24-hour hotline of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255); TTY: 1-800-799-4TTY (4889) to be connected to a trained counselor at a suicide crisis center nearest you.
Ask a family member or friend to help you make these calls or take you to the hospital.
As a research institute, NIMH is not able to monitor this web site for crisis messages or make referrals.

I do not know where you live, so the best place to start is with your physician. There is a website for real men with depression that has some information also. For information about the NIMH Real Men. Real Depression. campaign:

Call toll-free: 1-866-227-6464
Or e-mail to: [e-mail]

http://menanddepression.nimh.nih.gov/textsite/infopage.asp?ID=25
Depression is a real, medical illness that can be successfully treated, most often with medication, psychotherapy ("talk" therapy), or a combination of both. Support from family and friends plays an important role as well.
The feelings and behaviors that are part of depression can hinder a person's ability to seek help. In addition, men in particular may find it difficult to admit depressive symptoms and ask for help. It's important to remember, however, that depression is a real, treatable illness and is nothing to be ashamed about.

There are so many people who really do care that you probably do not even know about.

I know a very good way to help get out of the house is to go and volunteer. It helps meet people and helps others that need it. You can volunteer at your local hospital, or read to children at a local library, teach someone to bowl. What is your passion in life?
Try to teach someone what you love to do. This will help while you are seeking help for your depression. Don't give up.

Not long ago, Oprah had a guest on her show that was a famous person who tried unsuccessfully to commit suicide. He is to this day thanking God everyday that it didn't work. He would have missed out on his acting career, his marriage, and his children. You have to have faith that there is something right around the corner that is wonderfully waiting for you. As you can see, there are several of us who care for your well being also. You can email us and let us know how you are doing. Please seek immediate help. I think you need some medication to help you get on track. Don't be ashamed. I was on it for a month once after my mother passed away. It did help me feel much better and I wasn't so sad all the time. Hugs to you. I will be praying for you.

Answer 4

call a suicide help line now! No one deserves to feel so much pain. No one is worthless and you do matter. You need to get some medication and keep on working out. I bet you have a really good body. In the mean time get some St. John Wort in a health food store and start taking long walks - things look bad now but everything will change - nothing stays the same.
Please get some help - I'm waiting to hear when you do.

Answer 5

I've gone through the same thing myself when I was younger. I couldn't bear to look in the mirror because I thought I was so ugly.I attempted suicide 3 times but you know my life is normal now.It's not going to be easy but things can and will get better.Every human being has worth and your no exception.You need to get some help right now.Right now contacting a crisis center would be of the utmost importance.They can refer you to a specialist who can help you.Your perceptive of yourself right now is distorted and untrue.A doctor can help you get back on track.It might take a combination of consuling and medications.
I believe in God put us on this earth for a purpose,and he will decide when it's time to for us to go.Just that thought alone kept me going when I felt hopeless.I'll keep you in my prayers.

Answer 6

hurry run and find it