Whats the point in going on?

Question

Please someone help me. Ive just taken enough pills to make me sleep hopefully some of the day. Im stuck in the house with a husband and two grown up sons who treat me like **** and have no brain. I shut myself in the bedroom most of the time. Im trying to keep on top of things by trying to get a job - no easy task when Ive been to prison last year for beingh drunk and shoplifting. Ive got another case this week when I was actually sober but stupid enough to think I could get away with walking out of M*S with a new pair of shoes. I got caught and now Im worried sick Im going to be sent back to prison. Ive got no life, no friends, noone to talk to. I dont know what to do. Im crying, I just wish someone would phone me up. I dont see the point in going on. Ive been clinging onto some sort of fantasylife, but I know Ive got to face reality. Ive started going to AA meetings again but Im not really tempted to drink like I used to so thats something.

Answer 1

you've started going to AA meetings, that's fantastic! it's really, really hard to see the positives when you're down and when there aren't that many of them about but be proud of yourself for taking that step and doing something about your problem.

my advice is to take things one step at a time and be proud of your achievements, at the moment that might be getting through the day without drinking which is an achievement if you're feeling so down.

take things one day and one step at a time. at the moment that might mean not drinking, it might mean feeling proud of yourself for not drinking, it might mean just not being so hard on yourself.

have you thought about maybe doing some voluntary work? maybe just a few hours a week would give you a sense of purpose, get you out meeting people and give your self esteem a bit of a boost. if you're not ready for that don't worry about it, just bear it in mind for the future maybe. it could help you getting a job in the future, especially if you find something you're interested in. it will prove to yourself and others that you can stick to something and that you're about more than a criminal record.

deal with the shoplifting case as it comes up, it sounds like there are extenuating circumstances surrounding it and be honest about them.

remember that there are always groups like the samaritans on the other end of the phone [phone]) or even email ([e-mail]), they're trained and there to help 24 hrs a day.

Your doctor might be able to help or refer you to someone who can - if you take this route don't be fobbed off - persist til you find someone who can give you the help you need.

things can get better and you can make them get better. be patient with yourself and most importantly believe in yourself.

i really wish you best wishes and the best of luck with it all x

Answer 2

good news is you know where your life is or has gone wrong and have taken the first steps on the long road to recovery.
hopefully this answer finds you safe and well as your answer got me worried that you had took an overdose.
mail me if you want to talk. the email address is always open and i'll reply as soon as i can. if you want to talk in detail about this. while i can not guaranteed to help, i will try to help if i can.
jane we all feel alone sometimes.
wo just pick someone at random and start talking about this. the more you talk you will see a way past the short term problem to get to the solution that is perfect for you.

good luck and keep safe.