Will I go to hell for this...?

Question

Someone please help me. Please read the story and answer the best that you can. Im 16. When I was 13, I overdosed on pills. I did it maybe 10 times, each time worse but have since stopped. I didnt go to the doctor but I know it damaged my liver slightly. It has healed quite a lot but without medical help on it, I couldnt be able to tell if it healed all the way. I didnt do it to kill myself. Maybe at times I thought about it but I believe it was more a cry for help. I had no idea that it could damage my insides so much. Stupid, I know. Ive thought about going to the doctor to get it checked and if it needs, get it healed. But the problem is that sometimes I dont want it to be healed. I think about losing my loved ones almost everyday and I cant bear the thought but I love them and I wouldnt let them have to see me die. I just don't want to live long after they do. Im a healthy vegan so I thought maybe it would shorten my life even just a bit. If I die from this, will I go to hell?

Thank you for your responses...

I can tell I had/have liver problems because I had all the symptoms. It's kind of strange to explain... but I can feel it. I know the feeling I've had for years since I overdosed. It's kind of like you ask a person who has cancer, and they can feel it inside of them...

Also, to the person that said if I ask for forgiveness... how would that work? How can I ask God to forgive me for something that I'm doing? By not getting it checked and healed, how can he forgive me for deliberately doing something NOW. I mean, no way will I ever overdose again, but I'm not getting it healed... doesn't that mean...?

Answer 1

If you die without Christ as you Savior then you will.
Everyone has some skeletons in the closet.
All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. But when you put your faith in Christ you have the promise of a much better place.

Answer 2

If you ask God's forgiveness and do not do it again, you won't go to hell.

More importantly, you need to speak to a lisenced therapist. You have psychological problems and poor coping skills. I'm not sure how you think you can tell you have damaged your liver, but you probably should see a doctor to be checked out too.

May God bless you and keep you safe.