i wrote this poem last night about my father... i know i write alot of poems but anyways it's different than the other ones i've wrote. i want him to read it but i'm afraid of what he might say. please read it below and tell me what you think. if it's a good idea to send or not, thank you.
2007-01-26 03:28:34 · 30 answers · asked by Back*To*Me 4 in Family & Relationships ➔ Family
did you ever think
about having a kid
then never being around
missing everything she did
dad this is directed towards you
and the kid is me
do you remember my acheivements
i forgot you didn't see
it's hard to be a real father
when you're in a drunken state
you'll never be a father
not that it's too late
may 13th 2004
do you remember what you did
i invited you to my graduation
to see a diploma given to your first kid
you looked like you were pissed
then i asked you if you would go
you looked me straight in the eyes
then turned way and said no
my graduation wasn't worth celebrating
it meant nothing to me
i walked across that stage
but you didn't see
i graduated with honors
you use to say i was so smart
i just wanted to impress you
my life is missing a part
the part where i shouldn't have to stress
about every move i'd make
how i never failed a single tesh
that i ever had to take
2007-01-26 03:32:30 · update #1
remember when i was in track
it wasnt' just for fun
i knew you ran track
so i figured i'd run
you never cheered me on
you always reeked of beer
but i was just happy
that you were near
i dont' really do sports
but i did it for you
i wanted you to be proud
it's all i'd try to do
i've got a college degree
but you didn't even know
i was trying to impress you again
i wanted a degree i could show
i shouldn't even try
you didnt' give a sh!t
even if i was perfect
i'd still get hit
am i so hard to love
that you wish i didn't live
the few things i want
you can't seem to give
i give up
but atleast i did try
why did you hurt me
why make me cry
now i'm tired
i'll no longer try
you've never been a father
i'm done good bye
2007-01-26 03:37:39 · update #2
sorry about the typing errors. i type too fast for my own good sometimes
2007-01-26 03:39:13 · update #3
by giving it to him i want him to know that though i may not be perfect in his eyes i was trying my hardest and i just wanted his support.
2007-01-26 03:42:25 · update #4
Sweetheart..That is a great poem and you did a great job expressing yourself.Yes you absolutely should give it to him.Don't worry about what he is going to think.One thing that I would like to say to you is that you need to be proud of yourself and continue to do well don't live for your father rather live for yourself you are a special person and it is unfortunate that he does not realize that.It is his loss not yours..Keep your chin up kiddo..
2007-01-26 03:47:25 · answer #1 · answered by Maureen B 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hun, wow you must have been through alot...if anybody can relate it would be me...Your poem was very good...i cryed ;) I liked it alot. I would say that your not over or ready to move on though and i know thats not what you wanna hear but, you'll never be over it because, it feels like you've been deserted and your dad can't love you...and it makes it seem like its all your fault...Just remember its NOT YOUR FAULT. He is messed up in the head and he just is incapable of being a father. You are in the right place to send this to him just realize he might get mad but, he deserves it. When everything is said and done...This is life and it moves on so you have to move on with it. I'm sorry this happened to you...trust me i really am and i'm not just saying that because, i have had a hard life all though i rather not go into that because, this is about you not me. You have to make your own choices but, DON'T give up ever. No matter what don't do the stuff that makes him proud such as sports...but, do what makes you happy because, if your happy then thats all that matters...as hard as that sounds eventually you'll move on or he'll come around....Go ahead and send it, it lets him know how you feel and it is straight to the point
Good luck!
2007-01-26 12:52:42 · answer #2 · answered by Shay 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Depends. What are you trying to accomplish by giving to him? The problem is it completely contradicts this email you sent to him:
Long time no talk. sorry i left again i just can't be in that house. it brings me down. sorry if i've ever disappointed you. i just want to be daddy's little girl again but i think those days are long gone. i hate how everyone in that house talks behind my back like i'm the bad guy. yes, i ranaway but i graduated highschool top of my class, and college. i live on my own and i'm surviving. be proud will you? hope to hear from you someday. i don't agree with the way you raised me but you did the best you could under the circumstances and i respect that. i don't have a phone at the moment so you can't call me. if you want to say anything feel free to email me anytime. i love you and always will... you're my daddy.
2007-01-26 11:41:05 · answer #3 · answered by JB 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Honey if this is how you feel about your father send it but if you want any type of relationship now you might write that in too. Might I suggest you also state that you were disappointed on how he hurt you then and you will forgive him, it will take time though. Offer suggestions on how he can start over having a relationship with you now (if that is what your seeking).
Don't send it with no suggestions on how he can rebuild the relationship unless you want him out of your life forever. The poem will anger him but if he truly seeks a relationship with you now, he'll apologize for his actions, beg for forgiveness and will try to build a relationship. If he doesn't move on, he's not ready to be a father just yet. Good luck
2007-01-26 11:49:02 · answer #4 · answered by trojan 5 · 0⤊ 1⤋
You should send it. He needs to know how you feel and have been feeling because of his actions. And it will help you with your healing to send it as well. My father wasn't a drunk but he is manic depressive and he behaves like a drunk. I can relate to your pain. Just last week my dad came to see me and went off on me. He was going to help me with some money. We went to take it too the bank. All the way there he was vebally very mean and nasty to me. When we got to the bank, i put the envelope of money on top of his car, and i told him i didn't want his help anymore and that i would call a friend for a ride home. I then walked away. He had driven an hour and a half for nothing, and i was stuck crying and having to find a ride home from the bank. We can't choose our family, but we can choose to not let them treat us badly, and we need to know when to walk away. I wish you well with the healing process.
2007-01-26 11:43:07 · answer #5 · answered by AMoRous 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It is such a sad poem but I feel your pain. If you send it maybe he will see the light. I wish you the best. Remember that you are the only person who can make you happy. Some parents just never come around, it is just so emotionally hard for me and you. No matter how bad they are we will always love them and want to impress them because they are our parents. Good luck. I think you should send it.
2007-01-26 11:39:11 · answer #6 · answered by cherristee 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Save the poem... write it down and store it away in your personal stuff... He knows what he has done and he has to live with that... Write him an "I forgive you" note, mentioning everything that you list in the poem... Tell him you are moving on with your life and regret his lack of interest, but that you forgive him... Tell him it's your way of beginning to heal... Tell him that he taught you a valuable lesson... One you will carry for life... and that being, you will never treat your own child that way if you decide to have children... and that you'll make an extra effort to be all the things he wasn't... because you know the pain of non-returned love...
Tell him that you will always be able to look your own children in the eye... and they will know that they are loved... Something you know he could never do... and that's why you feel sorry for him... and forgive him...
2007-01-26 14:10:43 · answer #7 · answered by deakjone 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
my god i am welling up. Thats a beautiful poem, you could make that into the most wonderful song. thats what i did for a friend about her dad.
I dont know whether you ought to or not. you have to be ready to take that gamble. if you think in your heart that he is worth it, then let rip and give it to him.
If you are, just send it to him, nothing else, so it doesnt become awkward. I do hope everything goes well, maybe email me or something.
Good luck! you deserve a good life, you have a lot of talent! I really hope it works out for you!! >
2007-01-26 11:36:25 · answer #8 · answered by angelchild 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I think that you should give the poem to your dad. Maybe then he'd realize how much he missed out on you, how much mistake he made by not being a part of your life.
And you too would have that burden taken off you, knowing that you told him how u feel toward him as a father.
2007-01-26 11:36:40 · answer #9 · answered by keamar 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
He needs to read it. He will think about it for sue and feel badly, but if he is a drunk, he will put it out of his mind.
You need to go to Alanon or Alateen for support.
It is very sad to watch anyone being a drunk, not being there for good and bad, not being reliable and not being loving.
You will not change him with your poems or expressing your feelings, he is sick and he needs professional help.
It is not that he doesn't love you, he does, but he can't show it, he is lost within himself with sadness, anger frustration and hate.
It has nothing to do with you.
In spite of his behavior, be the best you can be and do what you need to do in your life to be a good role model and a good person.
This is a hard lesson of life for you, but in the long run it will make you a stronger person who will fight for what they want.
2007-01-26 11:42:06 · answer #10 · answered by doclakewrite 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋