suicide thoughts?

Question

well my grandad died a year ago , and my 11 yr old cousin took her life last year in june. ever since then i have just had thoughts of wanting to be with them. i cry nearly everyday i am so depressed, i dont take depression tablets maybe i should? but just worried about side effects. i just miss them both so much. its so painfull to talk about , and only my boyfriend knows i have these thoughts and all he does is shout. not comfort me. the only reason why i have not taken my life is because im scared of dieing!, but i always get these thoughts and i mean at least twice a day everyday. help im fed up of thinking of ways to take my life. i just want to be happy. (pls seriouse questions only) xxx

Answer 1

Please take 5 minutes to visit this site:
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Answer 2

Oh you seem so sad. I would love to be able to give you a cuddle.

You need to see you GP, anti-depressants would help, but take 3-4 weeks to work. Yes there can be bad side effects, but the positive far out way them.

I also think you would benefit from seeing a counsellor, even a grievance one.

Your boyfriend seems like he could do with a shove. You need support, and the more he undermines your feelings, the more depressed you will feel.

Your stronger than you think. You have had this upsetting thoughts for a while, and your so strong to put up with it for as long as you have.

You must confide in someone else. Your parents, a close friend, or anyone other than your boyfriend.

I too have suicidal thoughts, i self-harm, have an unsupportive husband, and many other negatives, but i'm trying to focus on the good things i have, my 7 month old, my parents, my work, and my friends.

I started taking citalopram 2 1/2 weeks ago, i have had the side effect of feeling tired, subsided now, and although i haven't felt the benefits yet, i'm reassured they're coming. I saw a counsellor for the first time the other day, and i felt a bit better to let sooo much out.

You need to think positvely about yourself. You are a good person.

Let me know how things go.

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Liz

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Answer 3

that is truly unhappy. i do not locate it impressive, although - because the idea of human beings being gay has been a smooth challenge and human beings do not really settle for it in society, therefore that's given a foul call and whatnot, at the same time as really that's merely some thing you may't help. i become once suicidal, too. I had to bypass to the psychological health center for roughly per week and then become placed on medicine - yet this become many years in the past. also if all of us who's interpreting this and is having suicidal innovations because of being picked on because you're gay or whatnot...communicate up and tell someone, someone to whom will understand each and every component. i trust everybody ought to placed their voice accessible and optimistically this can ward off a minimum of various the suicides. :

Answer 4

Well done for searching for help. Whenever I am considering suicide, I always think... I don't really want to become a statistic, they get forgotten eventually and people eventually move on. I think going to see your doctor would be a good idea. It's such a shame when people die, it is very hard to comprehend. Try to find something you have a passion for or enjoy and focus on your future. It's hard that your cousin will have lost her chance to do the same, but I hope you don't feel guilty or like you should stop life for her. Find people who need you alive... volunteer with those who might need your comfort, and that might comfort you in return - like at a nursing home or with vunerable teens. Hope you get better soon. My thoughts are with you. xx

Answer 5

I feel for you so much. I lost 3 relatives tragically and suffered with the same kinds of thoughts. What helped me a lot was to realise that the pain I felt from losing those people would be passed to people I care about if I were to die. I could not put them through the heartache I was going through. As for the boyfriend, it sounds like you would be better off without him. I hope he experiences a similar fate one day so he knows what it feels like. Please also consider bereavement counselling, it is hard and very upsetting at times but helped me loads. It is sometimes easier to talk to a stranger, who will not judge you or criticise you. I sincerely hope you feel better soon, I am still here and trust me it does get better in time. Love and light, blessings

Answer 6

at 11 u do not carry the world on your shoulders.The past is gone and start living for now and for future,You do not want any tablets or drugs.Nothing will bring back the loved one who gone.one day it is your turn.Do spend time with friends,relatives.do your study and try to be much better than others,do not be alone much.watch games and read good books on successful people and try to live a healthy life and be proud of your self.Have some time with school friends.Promise me u will not look back and i promise u from today u will be much better.do write to me in 7 days if any better then i tell u more.

Answer 7

If you decide to commit suicide, think of who will miss you. It would be selfish of you to take your own life. People care about you. Sometimes they show it in different ways.
And anyways, would you be happy if you were dead? You might regret it afterwards.
If you truly want happiness, do what you do best or your favorite activity.

Answer 8

ok my opinion on this is take your delf off to a doctor or contact the smartains or somewhere that can help you. you dont say your age but i am gathering you are younger speak to parents even or someone other than you boyfriend.

Depression is a serious thing and needs medical attention go to gp if you are that bad.