I hate life!!?

Question

Hey my name is Marty Cabeen.I am 12 years old and live in New Mexico. I have Been abused, attempted suicide once(i slit my throat), I cut, i am a worthless punk, i am a damn out cast...No one cares. i am lost...I dont know what to do.when i go up to people and tell then that i am suicidal there response usally is; oh boo who, we all go through hard times what makes you so special.this ls probably my last cry for help so please answer me or e-mail me at: [e-mail]

Answer 1

Word. I've been there man, just hang in there and when people say that there just stupid no one should ever say that someone else has it worse because that doesn't change the fact that the persons upset. Relax, Hang in there things will eventually get better. [e-mail] if you need to talk.

Answer 2

Dont' commit sucide and the people who tell you oh boo who should shut up. Really if you were a "worthless punk." you wouldn't feel as terrible as you do. Seeing as how you've been abused maybe a good idea would be to find someone who you can trust to sit down and talk to. Even a teacher. Though a doctor or maybe a pyschologist is better. They are sworen to secretecy. Try finding somthing you really enjoy doing so that when you get to the point of where you want to cut you do that instead. I've cut and i have found that writing poetry helps prevent that. Although everyones different. Those are just a few ideas.

Answer 3

I understand how you feel. Have you talked to a doctor about how you feel? If you haven't, please do it. There are medications that can make you feel better, and hopefully, you can talk to a therapist about the abuse. I know exactly what you mean about people not wanting talk about it, they don't really understand how you feel. Depression can be a very lonely thing. I am almost 50 years old and I have been depressed for as long I can remember; I thought about suicide a lot. I never really attempted it, though, because a couple of other kids I went to school with attempted it and another actually did it. I thought like; "they stole my idea." I was a real nerd, I wasn't good at sports or school work, I felt and stupid and nobody liked me. My mother was a nurse, and I told her about it, but she didn't trust psychiatrists and she said "all teenagers have problems." It finally so bad when I was in my 20s, I couldn't find a job and it got to where I didn't want to get out of bed at all. I finally got to a good psychiatrist, and the medication worked like a miracle. I still have bad periods every now and then, and I still think about killing myself, but the medication helps me enough that I am able to work and be productive. Religion can also help if you are receptive to it. Another thing that can help you feel better is deep breathing, just try to sit quietly--count to ten while you breathe and and then count to ten while you breathe out. Try that for at least five minutes every day. I'm not sure why, but it can calm your brain down. Another thing is to try to find something you're good at, or something you like, and concentrate on it--it doesn't matter what it is as long as it isn't illegal and doesn't hurt anybody. Please don't kill yourself; it's such a waste.

Answer 4

Hi, I know how you feel. I have been there too. I think you focus too much on what you consider an end of pain instead of focusing on things ahead. I was abused (physically) by my parents, and life looked pretty glum for a 5 year old but what does a five year old know? Both my biological parents passed on, and I was adopted by the best Dad in the world. He was strict but he cared for me. You need someone to care for you. If I were there (I live in China), I would help you over this bump in the road. You need a few hugs, and a big dose of self-worth. There are many people that truly care about others...Big Brother...the church...even teachers. No one wants to see the end of a precious person...I care and I am about 9,000 miles from you. May be I can do more and offer you a new life. Message me back and we'll talk.

Answer 5

You're only 12 and already so filled with hate and the lack of appreciation for the beauty of life. Damned shame. I can't imagine being that down on life itself at your young age. Get some counseling, either at school or from your priest/minister. Make a promise to yourself that you won't use your computer for anything except school work assignments for at least 3 months. Get off your butt and go outside and play in the sunshine like a 12 year old ought to be doing. Make a new friend every week.

Life is so precious. It's really a shame to think that God would have wasted a soul on someone. God doesn't make mistakes like that, so get out there and clean up your life. It wouldn't hurt to smile as much as possible either. I'll bet you sit around pouting all the time.

Answer 6

I feel that way at times even though I've never slit my throat or anything like that. Try to talk to someone you care about or who cares about you. Make sure you talk to someone to get some help, but whatever you do, hurting yourself will not solve anything. Cutting yourself will make it seem like you want attention, even if that may not be the case. And you are twelve years old?? You shouldn't go up to people and randomly tell them that you are suicidal because that seems like you want attention. Actually talk to someone, especially and adult who WILL CARE AND WHO WILL HELP YOU. Stay in there, everything will be fine. Life may be down sometimes, but youll find that light outta that dark tunnel.
As for the abusing problem, you should definatly tell someone and let them know that this is a major issue. Ok. HANG IN THERE!

Answer 7

You need to check yourself into the hospital right away. You are depressed and suicidal. Don't give up, call your family Dr. and tell him how you are feeling. This is not something to fool around with. If you have an attack in the middle of the night, look in the front pages of the phone book and call the assault crisis line. The best thing you can do Is try to help yourself and go to the hospital immediately!!! Call 911 if its in your area or any crisis line. Take care Heather I have also been assaulted and suicidal. you can email me at [e-mail]

Answer 8

everyone does hate life in one point or the other but dont worry im not gonna give u a stupid "oh boo hoo" answers because i hate when i get them myself! Do your parents know u feel this way? hopefully they do because even though it may seem like it sometimes parents CANT read your mind and have no idea whats going on! what is bothering you why are you feeling lost and hurting YOURSELF. Sort everything out. Is it people at school? is it the fact that you've been abused if youve been abused at least you arent anymore right? Plese dont make this your last attempt for help. there are many people out there to help and if your friends dont help then im sure you can make better friends somewhere else :) a trusted adult. . maybe even your school counsler. and for me one of those trusted adults happened to be the lady in the girls gym locker room. and my neighbors but not too much as the locker room lady.

Good luck in your life I wish you the best!

Take Care,
~Kiran

Answer 9

Well, Marty for starters, you a reaching out and people are responding. That's a great start. It just takes one person to make a difference in someone's life. This shows that people do care. I would keep using the world of internet to keep in touch with the world. Have you tried calling a crisis line. You don't have to give your name or anything, you can remain anonymous.

Answer 10

People find it hard to believe that people could want to end their life. It's hard for them to understand unless they've been there. Being suicidal is physically and emotionally exhausting. I've been there. The first thing I would suggest is looking in the phone book for crisis lines. Pick one and call. They will listen. If they feel like you are at risk they will find you a way to get to the emergency department. There they will evaluate you. They may admit you to the psych ward. Being admitted can be a scary ordeal, just know that they are there to help you get better. Looking back I'm very thankful that I was admitted to the psych ward when I was. They saved my life. They helped me see that there is hope. It may hard to see right now but there is a reason to live. And I care about you. <<>>. I hope this helps. Take care and look to the stars.

Answer 11

Listen, I'm 30 and I've been where u are. trust me life gets better! It my take a while, but just keep your head up! Believe me people will miss u dearly. Every body's somebody! you have you're whole life ahead of u. I sometimes feel like u do now, but i have my children. so i live for them. I;m in an abusive marriage, and i feel sad allot, but i am grateful for the things i have. Life really is what u make it. please don't do anything that will hurt everybody that loves u. call the suicide hot line, and dcf if u must. Just keep your head up!!!!!!!!