Everytime a relationship is going good I end up screwing it up by not putting any effort into it and it ends badly. And every time im invited somewhere where I can meet new friends and stuff I say ill go and meet up but I never do.
I got addicted to opiates again so now im physically addicted and in pain if I dont take them.
I get a good job in engineering and end up slacking off eventually.
I think im trying to **** myself over, im my own worst enemy. Anyone else like this?
2007-01-22 02:52:34 · 9 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
There are more of us out here than you can imagine! Self defeaters one and all. Anytime my life got smoothed out and I met someone great and the job was going well... I wrecked it somehow. Cheated. Laid out of work. Was late. Started arguments. Got drunk and got stopped. Stupid, stupid stuff.
And at the base of it all was the assumption in my heart that this was all I DESERVED out of life, so when things got better than I figured I deserved, I ruined it so I wouldn't have it anylonger. After all, I didn't deserve THAT!!
One of the best things you can do for yourself at this point of self discovery is find someone to talk to who values you. Let them help convince you that indeed, you ARE worth more than a life of tragedy and loss and screw ups and addiction. Try AA or NA. And go to 30 meetings in 30 days. Really give it a chance, and you may discover that at the end of some clean and sober days, you like yourself a little more. Then you can build on that feeling, and do things that you can like yourself more for every day. As soon as you come to feel that you are worth having a decent life, you will allow yourself to get one AND keep it!! Good luck to you .
2007-01-22 03:09:30 · answer #1 · answered by themom 6 · 3⤊ 0⤋
I know exactly what u mean, I have been in 2 long-term relationships and have 2 children but they both ended badly because i am a control freak and i have an anger problem i blow up over the smallest things and it's my fault and i can't keep a job I'm ok for about a week or two and then i look for an exuse to get out cause i just can't handle the pressure or someone telling me what to do, and i have depression and anxiety disorder so i think u should see a psychologist immediately, I take medicine for this but it isn't helping much but without it i am a total b*tch. you definitely have a mental disorder, i have the same problems so i hope u take my advice!!!!!!!!!!!! before it gets out of control!!!!!!!!!
2007-01-22 11:22:47 · answer #2 · answered by cc1872 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Well I can't really relate with your situation. But to me, it sounds like you are focusing your energy on the wrong things. What you need to do is direct your life toward Christ, Jesus. He is the healer of all things. And I am not saying that he will heal you of all your ailments or problems. There are a lot of trials and tribulations that we go through because that is what the Lord uses to grow us, spiritually. What I do know, is that if you do start seeking after the Lord a lot of your "problems" will simply dissappear. You are putting your focus too much on you, you, you...Start LIVING for Christ. Not some every Sunday I get forgiven realationship, but a daily relationship. One where you are constantly seeking new wisdom from the scriptures and asking God through prayer to heal you of certain things that you may be going through. That is when you will start seeing some changes. One of the first changes on your part you need to make though, is to find a good grounded church body that will support you. One indication if it is a good church is that they should be teaching from the bible. If you walk in and a handful of people have a bible in hand, and some are not even open. That is a pretty good indication to get out...After this I would recommend you start reading in the book of John. Some good translations to start with would be the New Living or New King James. New Living is very simple to read and makes a great starter bible. But most importantly you need to ask Christ to come into your heart. For only a change of heart can transform a mind. If you do want to ask Christ into your heart today, pray this prayer..."Jesus, I know that I am a sinner. I know that I have messed up in life and I cannot fix myself. I ask for you to come into my heart and heal me of this sin. I want to be cleansed by the blood that was shed by you on the cross. Please bring your Holy Spirit into my life and make me whole again. Amen" If you prayed that prayer, and meant it...then you are now my new brother in Christ! It is very important that you shed off your old lifestyle after making a decision for Christ. But with Christ that decision to do so will only be made easier.
2007-01-22 11:27:14 · answer #3 · answered by Damien C 1 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I think you might have what is called "Self Defeating Personality Disorder". I know because I have it. Try looking up Self Defeating on the internet and get some good tips on how you can be happy and actually enjoy it without feeling guilty about feeling good.
2007-01-22 10:58:44 · answer #4 · answered by icunurse85 7 · 4⤊ 0⤋
Take a look at how your parents functioned. Are you repeating the pattern?
You sound as if you are clinically depressed to me. Opiates aren't going to help that - if anything they will make it worse.
Talk to someone if you really want help.
2007-01-22 11:01:30 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
You're in denial about your Homosexual tendencies. You're fighting your real desires, and the resulting guilt cycle is leading you to destroy yourself.
You need to accept your real sexual orientation or seek out religious consoling to "Make" you straight.
I know one guy who "resolved" the conflict between his sexual desired and his religion by simply marrying a rather mannish tomboy. She was "masculine" enough to turn him on, but being female was acceptable culturally. (Although his mother insisted that he "could have married a prettier girl" for the first eight years of the marriage). I can't describe how elated he was once he convinced her to try wearing a strap-on. He didn't know that I'd been the one to talk her into doing it, pointing out that if she would do that sort of thing now and then, he'd lose any real desire to stray or seek sexual gratification outside their marriage.
Today, they have three kids, he has a good job and he's no longer trying to destroy himself out of guilt.
2007-01-22 11:08:00 · answer #6 · answered by Mike M 2 · 0⤊ 4⤋
If you truly come to Jesus Christ with repentance, you will be living a new meaningful and hopeful life, and Heavenly right.
In the Beginning God created heavens and earth.
God gives us air to breathe and sunshine to enjoy.
God gives us water to drink and food to eat.
God gives us a wonderful body and sound mind, to live.
God loves us, and we are precious to Him.
Son of God died on the Cross to save us from condemnation.
Jesus’ love is boundless and everlasting.
We have the hope of Heaven through Jesus.
Life therefore has fantastic and glorious future!
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2007-01-22 11:05:46 · answer #7 · answered by tmthyh 4 · 0⤊ 4⤋
i think you could put on a little bit of weight there twig boy
2007-01-22 13:09:19 · answer #8 · answered by ? 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
get help....(not trying to be mean.)
2007-01-22 13:14:51 · answer #9 · answered by gonnabeme4u 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋