Existential crisis?

Question

Well...
I'm a regular guy, my family loves me,...
But I constanly feel a sense of Emptiness, failure, Fear, Panic, Fatigue(I sleep a lot)...
I hate the things that Made me happy before, like playing guitar, listening to music, the outdoors, hanging with friends.
I can't even sleep well, my head, thinking a lot of bad stuff that happened to me in the past, over and over again...
I'm just tired of all...
I used to drink a lot like 3 or 4 times a week, and i felt relief with alcohol at the time, but the day after I was dying emotionally, so I quit drinking...
I was abused wen I was young(not sexually). but physically and psychologically... i remember guys beating me up, gum on my hair, near death situations, failing at school (like right now)...
So, should I get some drugs or something to ease the emotional discomfort? What can I do?
Please help...

Answer 1

You can certainly reach out for help. There is all kinds of help out there. Medication helps some people but not all people. I do believe in medication in some cases, its done wonders for my husband. But he also goes to therapy. Both he and I were abused by our peers they way you described. You start to get programed to think negativly. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy may be very helpful for you.

Answer 2

It might be like you say an existencial crisis... I've been feeling like that for the last few weeks, and it's been killing me. I'm trying self help right now, but your case sounds a bit more serious, so I might consider professional help. However, self destructive behaviour is never an option to stop feeling. It can make everything worse. So hang there, and get help. You certainly can move forward, for a crisis is never eternal, unless we allow it to be (for example, submitting yourself to destructive ways, or in the extreme, suicide). Life will get better. My life was going just great when I suddenly started battling with negative thoughts and un-answerable questions. Don't worry, it seems to me like your background has something to do, too. But there's hope for everyone. Just keep that in mind, THERE IS HOPE. It can do wonders to calm the obsessive thinking! However, I still recommend you ask someone for help; even when you think nobody understands or that you want to be alone, it's always best to have support. There's hope, there's light for everyone.

Good luck!

Answer 3

All of your symtoms say 'Clinical Depression'.
There is a 'big' difference between being depressed, and having
clinical depression.
It sounds as though your hormones may even be out of whack,
or there could actually be a chemical imbalance going on in your body.
The only other thing that might possibly be causing all these
problems for you is, (not being mean here) that you have held onto your hurts and they have turned to resentment and unfirgiveness. That in itself can cause you to literally 'hate' life,
and yourself.
I know all this because my son went through simular things that you did, and it took a long time for him to get over it.
Once he could finally admit he was full of anger (age 25) thats when he started to heal emotionally.
Now he is in the medical profession and is 'very' happy..
Talk to your parents (or grandparents) about how you feel.
If they love you as you say they do, they'll help you through this.
SO, whatever the reason for your depression, mom and dad can help.

Answer 4

I recommend a book called "A new pair of glasses" By Chuck C. Have an open mind. I think it will help. I was in your shoes for a long time and this book changed my perspective on life. It works, it really does just give yourself a chance. You are worth it!! Keep in touch and let me know how you are doing. Good luck.

Answer 5

In my experience with patients we refer such cases like you have to consult a psychiatrist. But, behavioral cognitive therapy would help a lot. Go out with some of your trusted friends or here in yahoo 360. I was able to help cases like you have through correspondence.