i cut my self?

Question

i know its not good and most people say it is because i need attention but i dont or most would say i want to die. im not affraid of death but thats not it either. i have had so many things wrong with my life (father left me and my mother when i was 6 i was daddys little girl... mom does drugs.. METH WEED and drinks all the time.... sister and brother are 21 and i see them maybe once evrey 3 months my father is in rehab has been for 3 years in and out though and there isnt much i can say or do about any of it and thats the way i leave all the pain in my heart.. if for one second i can not think about all that and just think about the blaid and my wrist ill be fine. What do you think i need help or i just want to die i really need to know thank you..

o i just turned 17

Answer 1

In my experience, cutting was never about dying, it was about reminding myself I was alive. So no, I don't think this means you want to die. Please try to ignore these stupid stereotypes, they will only hurt you. I'm so sick of hearing I'm parasuicidal or an attention-whore. If I was suicidal, I'd cut deeper, and if I was an attention-whore I'd show people what I was doing.

The people before me have said a lot of helpful things, and I don't know if there's really anything that needs to be added there. And they probably worded it better than I would.

but I just thought I'd add a bit here and say you're certainly not alone and if you ever just want a random person to rant to I'd listen. You can e-mail me through Yahoo Answers.

Answer 2

I think you are hurting inside and you're full of anxiety. The cutting is a temporary release and it's only going to get worse. Please find someone you can talk to and I'm don't mean just a friend. I'm talking about a school counsler, or teacher. Maybe a preacher or even someone at a health dept.

You are much to young to try and handle all of these things on your own. Your older brother and sister are too young as well.

For now, when you get the urge to cut, instead I want you to try ice water. Get some ice from the freezer and fill up the bathroom sink with it. Run some water into it and place your hand in it up past your wrist.

Leave your hand in there and pretty soon you'll start to notice the stinging sensation. This will release the same endorphines in your brain that cutting does thereby helping you to feel better while keeping your beautiful body safe.

You are special sweetheart. You are loved and supported upon this journey and you are not alone. I've been through alot too and I've had my bout with cutting episodes. Using the ice water technique and learning more about this disorder has helped me not to cut for over three years now.

I've realized that nothing stays the same. Good times don't last and neither do bad times. Your Mother is sick, but right now you have to take care of "you".

Please talk to someone that can help you. Call your local hospital if you have to and they will connect you to someone that specializes in this sort of thing.

(((warm and tender hugs are sent your way sweety)))

Answer 3

Honey, I've been there. I'm a 13 year cutter, and I know every feeling you're having. Life has let you down and you are the only person you can rely on, right? Yeah, I know, and at 27 I still don't have any close friends I trust with this.
Counselling works for some people, and maybe you should try it, just to see if it helps. It doesn't work for everyone, but death IS NOT the answer.
I was 14/15 when I tried to end it all several times, and I know you say your parents don't care, but it would hurt me.
I know I don't know you, but those of us who have been there, hurt each time one of us succumbs to the pain.
Please check out www.recoveryourlife.com as a resource. Most people there have Self-harmed at some point in there life. It's a lifesaving network, and everyone cares about you, no matter who you are or where you're at. If you don't like it, please email me and I will do everything I can to help you out, whatever it takes.

Answer 4

When you cut yourself it releases endorphins( a chemical made by the body ) into the blood stream and creates and sense of well being and pleasure thereby relieving your stress. There is medications that can stabilize your mood without cutting and you will be able to think straight and take care of your self call your local hospital and ask for the mental health department, the hospital is obligated to find you a number or facility for help, you will feel so much better with the proper medication, you can get rehab also and break this terrible chain that has imprisoned you.

Answer 5

actually cutting is more about everything you just said...you have so many emotional scars and pain. What you are doing when you cut yourself are bringing these pains to the surface where you can see them feel them and watch them heal. It tends to be a relief or release of one pain for another. It's not about wanting to die or wanting to kill yourself, it's about manifesting your emotional pain into the physical, and more so about seeing it heal hoping it will give you the feeling of the emotional pain healing itself too. Though it doesn't otherwise you wouldn't continue to do it...
Talking to someone may help it depends on how you best work through your problems...a good friend someone who will allow you to get things off your chest release your anger and just vent to, may help. There may be abandonment issues that even keep you from trusting people and always being worried they will betray you in some way...it kinda sucks because there will be people like that but it's the ones that will stick by your side that make it worth sifting through the others.
My advice tear any walls down, open up and do what is best for you...truely no one else matters if they aren't there for you don't blame yourself for their selfish ways.
Hope that helps.

Answer 6

There isn't a reason in the world bad enough that you should feel the need to kill yourself. You have had a very turbulent childhood and sounds like you don't receive the attention, support, love that you should be getting. Talk with a school councelor, a priest/pastor/rabbi or some other cleric, and in most states there are free 1-800 help lines to talk with someone trained to help you get the care needed. Good luck and remember you were put on this earth for a reason......Sometimes it might be hard to remember that but you just might realize it one day.
Peace and well being to you

Answer 7

No you don't want to die. And yes, you do need to seek some help. I work with youth who are cutters. What you are doing is taking your internal pain from your life's problems and taking that pain out on yourself in a physical way. On a few rare occasions, however, some cutters had accidental killed themselves by cutting too deep.

See a counselor, your doctor or school guidance counselor/principal/teacher for some help, support and direction.

You have experience a lot of stressful or traumatic things and how you feel is understandable. But cutting yourself won't make it go away. You owe it to yourself to see someone. Best of luck to you.

Answer 8

Cutting yourself is like any addiction, in a world with chaos and all the troubles your family brings it is the one thing you can control. It is being able to have that control that is the high, then the release. There are plently of people to offer proffesional help. Good luck.

Answer 9

If you're joking, it's not a very funny joke. If you're being serious, you need some help immeadily. What you're doing is seriously detremental to your family and friends. I urge you again to go see a doctor, psycologist, or anybody your close to and talk to them about you cutting yourself.

Answer 10

you need to call for help. you are in an abusive environment please go to a trusted adult and have them help you. you are on here talking to complete strangers because you want help. you don't want to die. you just need to escape the world you live in I don't know your age, but talk to a counselor at school they can put you in the right direction. good luck and I wish you the best.