Does anybody know of an online recovery group for ENDOS?

Question

Not support group, a recovery group. I'm not ready to let go of my red bracelet.

sorry, yes, EDNOS, typo.

Answer 1

EDNOS

You walk through the grocery store for an hour or more, examining each and every nutritional label. You haven't eaten all day and for once you feel like have a 'real' ED. You go home elated that all you bought was flavored water. An hour later, you can't take it any more and you take a drive to a fast-food place. Then, you realize you've failed again and you drive around for an hour so you can cry.

People laugh at you because you're always "on a diet" but never lose any weight.

One day, you eat 100 calories. The next, you eat 3000. That's normal.

You stand in front of mirror, a tentative smile appearing as you look at your face. You almost look...pretty? Then, your gaze wanders down to your flab and you scream (silently, of course, or people will hear) and hit yourself.

You spend 20 dollars on a red bracelet---but you're not allowed to wear it until you lose 20 pounds.

You have no idea what a 'normal' meal is like. You either gorge or starve---there is no in between.

You avoid social occasions because you don't want your fat body to be seen in public.

You refuse to have a sandwhich because it has too many calories. Then, you down an entire plate of cheese fries.

You'll go for a week without eating, then gain everything back in one day. You do this at least once a month.

You have to know exactly how many calories are in everything you eat, but that doesn't stop you from eating it.

You gain and lose the same 20-30 pounds over, and over, and over.

You surf Ana sites hoping for inspiration and belonging. Instead, you just feel depressed, like you're not as good as the rest. As if being fat isn't depressing enough, you have to face the fact that you're not strong enough to have a 'real' ED.

You feel fake. You know that self-hatred isn't enough to make an ED---you have to lose 50 pounds before you're allowed to say you're screwed up.

You alternately starve and stuff yourself for years. You live in constant pain and agony for years. And you have absolutely nothing to show for it.

You would do anything to be able to call yourself Ana. But you can't quite make it

Answer 2

do you mean ED NOS?

If so, check out www.sfwed.com - it's a great board for people in ALL stages from sick to getting better to recovered

best of luck