sorry it was me who lied, part 2?

Question

I know most of you would probably advice me to seek professional help, but I did. I saw my GP, saw the counsellor, even saw the crisis and resolutions team whom came to visit me everyday. I took the sleeping tablet that they gave me (which is only 1 per day) and the anxiety tablet as well. But nothing is helping at all, as the days goes by, I hate myself more and more.I can't sleep at night because I am constantly hearing noises from outside like people returning homw, their conversations, or even the rain or the wind. I am exhausted and I really don't think I have the will power to deal with this anymore. I only have 1 frd and I am sure she is better of without me coz there are loads of people around her to take care of her. My family abandoned me when I was little. I really have nothing to live for.

So please, I beg all of you out there, let me know which sleeping pills and how many of them I need, so I can die peacefully and finally escape from all the pain and sadness I suffer.

Answer 1

if this is real, then it is heartbreaking. No-one on here, in their right minds, will tell you the pills and quantity you need to kill yourself. you need to speak to someone who has gone through this and come out the other end. Please dont give up, life will get better, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not the day after, but it will and you've just gotta hang on in there

Answer 2

The fact that the Crisis Resolution Team are visiting you daily leads me to believe that they are pretty worried about you and it is good that you have talked to them this far. Have you told them that you are still feeling suicidal?

You don't say how long you have been feeling this way but I am guessing it must be a while now. It is exhausting to feel this way and if you are having trouble sleeping things seem even worse. Trust me I know!

Please don't think that you have no value as a person because your family abandoned you. You are valuable and you deserved better. That is very tough to deal with but you must remember you were little and it is unlikely to be anything you did wrong. In fact you were wronged whether by circumstance or neglect.

Try setting yourself a set of goals for each day.

Walk to the shop or take a stroll round the park for half and hour

Put yourself in a situation where you have to talk to someone briefly (ask about a book at the library perhaps?)

Try to make eye contact with someone and smile (even if you don't feel like smiling).

Your friend is probably feeling a bit hurt at the moment but I am sure that she would be ok with you if you made contact. She seems to be worried about you so take a chance and call her.

It is really important that you talk to the Crisis Resolution Team. Get them to read this if you don't think they believe you. All the above may be of help but you need more help than you are getting and they can help if they know this is how you are feeling. Have they given you an emergency number that you can call? Now is a good time to call it.

Above all, post here again to let us know what is happening. I would like to know how things are going for you.

Take care and remember to give yourself a break!

Answer 3

With depression, you can get all too consumed with your own problems until in the end, you can think of nothing else and no other way out other than taking your own life. But, talking from experience, suicide is not the answer. It is selfish and cowardly, and leaves a lot of unanswered questions for family and friends who will probably never comes to terms with your death. Your pain would have gone away, but theirs will remain for many many years to come. We all experience problems from minor to overwhelming and we all have our demons too. For some, its drink, for others its drugs, with you its clearly depression. Getting dependant on drugs is not the answer either.. you need to help your body release endorphins by going to the gym or spending time doing something that you enjoy. At the moment, you are probably not in the mood to enjoy anything right now and cannot see light at the end of the tunnel, but believe me, it is there. just takes a little finding thats all. Take each day as it comes and appreciate the little things in life. Go to the park, or a local beauty spot and breathe in the fresh air. Look at the sky, the way the clouds move and the trees swaying in the wind. May sound simple, but it really works. Take in all the scenery, the birds, squirrels or dogs playing.. Get a bit of mental peace going on.. make sure you find a real quiet spot. Each time I feel desperate, this is something that I do. I will stay out until I feel a sense of calm again. Life is beautiful and for living... and im sure that once you have done this you can start to smile and think life isnt so bad after all and it helps you get things into perspective. Once you are smiling, no doubt you will be inundated with people wantint to get to know you. Its very hard to turn your back on a happy person because we all feel we all want a slice of what that persons got. Smiles are contagious - try it, because I really hope it works for you. I could write a book on the terrible times and turmoils of my life, but I will never let the demons get the better of me. Picture me with a baseball bat, once someone bowls one more bad thing at me, Im there, ready and waiting for the next, and so I bat that off too. Many times I have felt like collapsing in a heap, but Im stronger than that and im sure if you take some of my advise you can start to feel a little better too.

Answer 4

Sorry and thank you are purely lies while they are pronounced without sincerity. with the intention to be sorry you will possibly could be prepared to work out that the different guy or woman's opinion or argument includes greater validity than your individual. This involves having an open innovations, being analytical and purpose. with the intention to be grateful, you will possibly decide for to be appreciative of what somebody has finished or suggested. in case you carry the opinion that thank you and Sorry are lies, then you definately could learn your existence. Do you have faith? Are you in contact in a reciprocating love courting? Are you grateful on your skill to place a sentence mutually? you spot, i'm grateful for the prospect to respond to your question and that i'm no longer telling a lie. that's a elementary remember of your theory. you won't have faith it, yet i've got faith it.

Answer 5

i know you don't really want to die, because if you did you would not have to ask what kind of pill or how many... i know this because i was you once... the pain you feel inside, the long days and nights that all just keep running together... its like one very long day that never stops...
sleep is what you need right now, if you can find a way to get at least 8 hours you will start to feel better.
the other thing you need to do is try to find some kind of release for your feelings... i right poetry and i draw... i have never wrote a happy poem, because i never write when i feel good... i hope you get what i am saying...
third...you need someone to talk to... sometimes the best way to feel better is to talk...if you talk enough, you will start to understand yourself better...
and last... you need to know that it is okay to hurt... no matter if someone else thinks what your feeling is self pitty or just plain crap... it is okay to HURT....
my family shut me out when i was going through all this, they thought that i just wanted attintion... i found myself alone, afraid, and i just didn't care anymore.... i sat down with a bottle of pills and a glass of water one night , because i just wanted the pain to stop. i guess you know that i didn't do it because im here today, but God saved my life that night... i found myself praying..something i rarely did... and then i walked to waffle house. i sat down with a cup of coffee and little hope for my life ...then a man sat down at my table and talked to me... i didn't know him and i had never seen him before but when the sun came up and he left i was smiling for the first time in a long time.. i never saw that man again, but i do beleive that God had answered my praiers... don't get me wrong life didn't get much easier for a long time but i was glad to see the sun shine everyday, because it meant that i had survived another day.
my life today is great, and i still love to see the sunshine, and i love it now because i get to live and see another day... i am married now with two kids...
you can get through this... i know you can, you just have to find the fight within you...it's only been 5 years ago that i was there, and beleive me, i have not forgotten that pain... i have to take medication for deppression sometimes but thats okay...
God bless you and i hope this has helped just a little....

Answer 6

How long did you take the tablets for? It can take up to 6 months for them to work. I know that sounds scary and waaaay too long but it is worth it x

Answer 7

You have GOD to live for! You said you saw a counselor, well, I would call that counselor back and ask for a referral to a psychiatrist. Psychiatrists are doctors, and have been thoroughly trained in the Mental Healh field. Out of counselors, psychologists and psychiatrists, they are the only ones who can prescribe meds. They are experts in their field. GP'S aren't experts in Mental Health. Good luck.

Answer 8

Give your medication time to work, sometimes it might take a few weeks for them to work right. Life will get better, and Life is always worth it. You'll be ok!!

Answer 9

You sound desperate and need someone to talk to, Please phone the Samaritans. They will listen to you and be there for you, they are not there to judge.
The telephone number is 08457 90 90 90
www.samaritans.org.
Believe me pills are not the answer
Good luck and god bless

Answer 10

Yes you have a lot to live for, first stop feeling pity for yourself, get off your *** and do some volunteering, read good books, stop being a loser, be a man!