can someone please help?

Question

how can i feel so alone? i mean i know i am not but i cant help but feel that way i mean i have been through more in my 18 yrs that a lot of others cant even immagine. hope no one ever goesthrough what i have i lost my father 2 yrs a go i have had eating disorders i mean i was bulemic and i lost 40 lbs then i was hospitilized for suicide and i gained some back then i went home and was made fun of school was even worse so i looked to food as my comfort now i am back where i started. then my best friend died that was bad. i went to therepy and i was diagnosed with skitzophrenia, depression and antisocial personality disorder i mean i am not lying either i thought the entire world was against me i stll do but i am not sure what to do anymore i am so lost. i mean i feel like i am in a world here i dont belong i feel like an outsider i feel lost in a crowd of strangers yet i ahve known them my whole life i am so lost snd confused i have no 1 else to talk to so i am asking you what do i do

Answer 1

As long as you are on here to talk to people and ask/answer their questions you have somebody.
While you can not sit in front of your computer all day, and should not. You can count on us.

Maybe you need to talk to your doctor, they might need to switch your meds. Sometimes they cause different side effects.
I feel bad that I don't have the answers for you, all I can say is what I am sure you have heard a million times. Hold your head up, and eventually things will seem brighter.
I have not had 1/2 the bad life you have, but bad enough.
My hubby died only months after we were married, left me alone to take care of our 5 month old baby.That was at the tender age of 25. I have been to hell and back, but that's just it, I came back. Never give up hope. When you are feeling depressed, come here and find some sorry sap that you can give advice to and make them feel better.
It is almost like therapy, getting a best answer makes me feel good.
I am going through a break up from the only guy I dated since my hubby passed away. We were together 2 1/2 years, and I am having trouble with it, but you know, every day that goes by I get a little better. And if you have the right meds and counseling, and friends, you will get through anything.

Good luck, I hope that you find an answer to your question that gives you hope and ease of mind.

Answer 2

You might try Christian counselling. There's a lot of love and acceptance there -- not the reported judgemental attitude you might have heard about -- and they have special programs for folks such as yourself.

My best friend was repeatedly incested by her father growing up; he died, after which she was adopted by her aunt and uncle; the uncle took over where the father stopped; she developed suicidal and food issues; etc., etc. All before she was 18, but going well into her adult years too. Christian counselling took several years but very much helped her. I'm glad she went through the counselling. I would be very sad if she hadn't. I did not meet her until she was in counselling, but finally, life is good for her and her family.

If money is an issue, you can ask someone from one or both of these organizations to see if there are any scholarships or free clinics they can recommend. There may be a counselling center near where you live that operates on a sliding scale.

If it's OK with you, I'll keep you in my prayers. Here is a link to a couple of Christian counselling organizations that have centers around the nation.

Answer 3

Hun, believe it or not, I understand some of what you are feeling. I'm 20 and I've had many problems of my own, but I won't go into detail on all of that. I understand what it feels like to be alone, to sit in a room filled with people and yet not talk to a soul, but you'll find that there are lots of people out there that care about you even if you can't see it at the moment. Mental disease and eating disorders are common. I have some myself, they run in my family and they do make you feel like an outsider in more than one way, but you aren't. These years of our life are hard and seemingly unbearable especially with the loss of a loved one, but it will get better. I've done my share of stupid things because of how I felt. Don't make the same mistake. People care and you aren't alone. No one is ever alone. Remember that.

Answer 4

I am so sorry honey. I mean, you really seem sincere here. And I know what it's like to feel literally like you don't even belong on this planet.

My mother died less than a year ago, as well. And I'm bulimic, so just know you're really not alone and there are people out there who are going through at least some or all of the things you have.

Answer 5

Wow, you have been Thur too much, for someone your age, I can See why life is so hard for you right now. But you have to find your way in this world, it's there, the hard part is finding it. Is there a way you could use AI the life experiences, you have been Thur?? You could write about it, you could take acting lessons, (you know every emotion possible) Think hard and deep, what in this life would make you happy?? When you figure out this, achieving want you want is't so hard, if you want friends, be friendly, if you want education, study,ect ect find some thing, any thing to focus on, and stay in therapy, if the one you have now does nothung for you, then take charge, and find one that helps (not just tell you, what is wrong with you), but how to feel better, I wish you lots of good days a head, you deserve it, in fact say that to youself, "I deserve a good life".

Answer 6

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Answer 7

omfg u sound like me!!!! its totally hard but dont give up im 18 and my mum died of cancer when i was 7 then my dad got addicted to pot im suicidal and a self harmer its hard but pleaz pleaz pleaz dont give up hospital sux it made me feel worse i thought im gettin better by taking my aggression out on paper and craft work i suffer from skitzophrenia to and people treated me like a alien so i found a local support group go 2 a youth centre and see how they can help just ask and good luck

Answer 8

you are focusing on the negative things that have happened to you sweetie. focus on the more positive side of life. i bet you are a wonderful person. you yourself just don't realize it yet. once you do, you will not have the need to feel insecure about yourself. you need to join a support group. with all that has happened to you, share your knowledge with others who are in the same situation. there are lots of people who are going through the same things as you. they could benefit from your experience and you may also find that you could benefit from theirs. good luck sweetie! i hope and pray things get better for you.

Answer 9

Call your local Kingdom Hall and ask to take their free, no obligation home bible course. I did it and I have not felt alone since. My depression has passed and I am a much happier, more positive person and I no longer feel hopeless or helpless. It is the best thing I ever did for myself.

Answer 10

Counselling & medication. If you are in college (or have other health care), then you should be able to get both relatively inexpensive. Truthfully I would NOT suggest reading online forums and such, since when I did it increased my depression and gave me destructive ideas that I wanted to do to myself. Some people turn to religion. (I did and am now trying to deprogram myself from it by becoming a Satanist.)