is everything my fault or am i making this up?

Question

I was diagnosed with severe depression but I am not sure if the docter had it right or not. My mother doesn't think i have it, and it never crossed my mind that i might have it. I didn't go to school for two weeks before winter holidays cause i couldn't get out of bed. But only after my diagnosis that i realized how depressed i m, i thought life is supposed to be like this. Even when i m smiling i m asking myself if i m happy at this moment i can only answer no. My mother is supposed to know, she gave birth to me so i guess she knows me well. I don't want to seem nuts to her anymore, it pains me too. She reminded me that my teachers who omitted work for me because i missed it is just helping me cheat through life. I m not even in University yet and i m already cheating!!

I feel horrible i just want to hear someone's opinion if I really do have depression or it's just all in my head.

I have problems sleeping,
i have problems waking up,
i have a hard time trying to see my goals and when i see them i still dont feel motivated to go for them,
i feel suicidal most of the time,
i believe rain is god's way of telling me to shed more tears,
i don't eat right and I cry because i see how depressing my life is with all of the above.

Answer 1

no you are not cheating, no you are nuts, people can only make someone nuts if they allow that to happen. so if your mother says you are making her nuts then she is allowing that to happen to her, no your fault. your mother is very very wrong, my mother was the same way and i have spent the last 35 years in therapy. tried suicide 2x please get help with your depression even if your mom doesnt think so.

beleive me when i tell you sorry, but as a mother i can say this, MOTHERS DONT KNOW EVERYTHING.

i am a mother of 2 and grandmother of 8.

Answer 2

There is such a thing as what doctors call seasonal depression that a lot of people get in the winter time due to the change in weather, and the amount of sunlight and that sort of thing. If you have been diagnosed by a doctor with depression, I would go with the diagnosis and stop listening to everyone else unless they have M.D. after their name. That's what doctors go to school for, to be able to make this kind of diagnosis and prescribe medication to make you feel better. Sometimes people are just unwilling to be understanding about things they don't understand and sometimes they are unwilling to understand because they consider it outside the "norm." Basically, some people are asses. It's a little unfair on your part to expect your mother understand if she hasn't actually experienced depression herself, because she deosn't actually know how it is effecting you both physically and mentally, so I wouldn't be too hard on her. Sometimes people are depressed more around the holidays as well. That's usually when I myself start my downward spiral. Mine usually begins about a week before Thanksgiving, and I stay down until about the end of January, but this year hasn't been so bad for me, because I had somewhere else to focus my energy. Talk to you doctor. Tell him you are still having issues and see about getting a medication adjustment. Talk to your mother and tell her that you don't think she is being very understanding, and be sure to let your doctor know the same thing. At this point that's what you need to do, a lot of talking and explaing, both to your doctor and your mother, and I know that you might not feel like it right now, but you are really going to have to to get some things to change. Good luck to you.

Answer 3

I would like to suggest that maybe you need Jesus in your life. You may be depressed but whatever your problem is Jesus can guide you in the direction that you should go. He can calm you and make you feel good about yourself.
Jesus loves you and your mother more than anything in the world. He wants you to find peace in your life and be happy. You can do all things in the name of Jesus. You can get on with your life. You can find out if you are depressed or not.
If you are not a member of a Christian church visit one this weekend. If you are a member of one go or call them. God can help you through any trouble or pain. He can help you get your life back on track, if only you believe that He can. Your life can be turned around to where you will wonder why didn't I do this before. Find a Bible teaching church. You may want to get help from the pastor. If you are not sure of one church, visit another until you find the one that's right for you.

I will pray that you will find what you need. Between a good doctor and the good Lord anything is possible for you. Reach out, there are a lot of good people who are waiting to help you. If you are depressed; there is help to make it better. You can over come anything if you truly want to bad enough. You are young, give it your best try.

Answer 4

Yes,you have depression,and your mother is obviously not supportive or helpful,or she is just in denial.Depression does not mean you are "crazy" or lazy.I have been struggling with depression since I was 12 with absolutely zero help,even though I reached out several times.Keep going to therapy.It will probably do you some good to talk about it and since mom doesn't understand a couselor is your best bet for the time being.I have been living with depression for half my life,but it has gotten easier and more mild in the past few years,although I still think therapy would help me.

Answer 5

patty, depression IS in your head. Literally, its a chemical imbalance in your brain. Your mom doesn't know everything. trust your doctor. You are not making it up and you are not a drama queen. YOu have a serious medical problem that needs to be treated.

Don't worry too much about missed school work. You are not "sheating throuh life" you are having a problem. Call the doc and get the support you need. be it medication, therapy or even staying in a hospital for a few days.

Trust me, life isn;t like this and there IS hope. Please do not spend time fretting, get some help.

Answer 6

If you are unsure of the diagnosis remember that you can always get a second opinion. Depression is a serious condition that needs to be dealt with. Stop worrying about what your mother thinks and get the help you need.

Answer 7

And where did your mother get her medical degree or her Ph.D. in psychology?

You should think about loving your mother from a distance. That means when she starts on this crap, say "I love you Mom....but I can't talk to you when you do this." Then walk away. I bet your therapist would agree.

No, your mother doesn't know. That's why it's much easier to talk to a therapist who is not involved in your home life. But be willing to actually hear what they say.

You know everything is not your fault. Don't be a victim.

Answer 8

its depression.your mom may know you well.but she doesnt know what is going on in your head.only you do.your not nutz.its
a illness.im sorry your mom doesnt know that.but please you
remember that it is.BTW your mom thought there was enough wrong to take you to doc.and if you turned out to be diabetic and
your teachers helped would you mom say you were cheating?
also BTW im bipolar and it is a illness and since its under control i get to say im nutz.lol

Answer 9

oh dear...yeah you've got it....its a chemical imbalance in your brain that makes you have these thoughts. It is of course "all in your head" because thats where your thinking is. Seek professional help at once.