Mental disorders?

Question

I really need some help.
It’s the hard for me to admit that i need help.
But its time.
My life is becoming unbearable.
I’m losing all my friends and most of all my twin
I’m hurting people around me and it took my this long to notice it.
I have a lot of mood swings and I don’t know how to describe it but its like something triggers in my brain and I find myself yelling at people and its not like I mean too. It just happens. Everyone gets so mad but its not like I don’t feel bad after it happens.
I don’t ever tell anyone anything that im feeling.
I don’t like sharing my opinions or being the center of attention.
I like to be alone.
I don’t like loud people
Mostly because of my social anxiety.
I really don’t understand why people don’t understand anxiety.
They think I can just "get over it"
But its not that easy…
I hate going outside.
I don’t like when people look at me or talk to me.
I have panic attacks
When anyone try to talk to me my heart is beating rapidly
thinking about going to a public place make me very nervos
my hands sweat

I’ve never got any medications and I think that would help me.
I don’t want to be scared to talk to people
Or scared to do anything.
I’m most scared of being socially embarrassed.
Im severly depressed every day.
But I can deal with that.
I also have a lot of thought racing through my head
I cant figure out if some things are real or I just imagined it.
Sometimes I will see something that isn’t really there.
I have to have everything perfect or I cant sleep.
Im also a virgin probably because i think everyone has an STD.
I can never get close to someone.
mentally or physically.
commitment scares me.
i like everything to be in order.
everything has to be perfect in my eyes.
i have obsessive thoughts running over and over in my head 24/7
I use to cut but not so much anymore.
I alwyas feel empty inside even when im happy.
Im usually never happy.
I dont know if you will help me or not.
but i thought maybe it was worth a try.
Thanks for your time,
Brianna

Answer 1

You need to see a Dr.

All of this can be lessened with medication. Just try it for a few months to see if you feel better. If you do, keep taking the Rx.
Everyone needs to feel comfortable.

Answer 2

You definately have what is called OCD. This OCD can make u feel alientated, thus leading to depression, and being depressed can make u afraid to take risks, and without taking risks in life (not necessarily dangerous risks, just fun risks), u are less stimulated, leading to more controlling behaviour of OCD, leading to more depression. Talk to a doctor or hypnotist. im not a great supporter of medication cos i had a similar issue to urs, and i took the meds and had an adverse reaction that made me feel 10 times worse for years. im now better than even before the anxiety, but it was a long struggle. Another bit of advice id give to u is to throw urself into exercise in a gym, not only releives stress, it gets u mixing with people which is very important for someone with ur condition, and u come out of it with a better looking, stronger and healthier body. Also, try to think about people less fortunate than urself and realise that the worlds problems dont revolve around u, and in many ways ur quite lucky.

Answer 3

well i'm not exactly sure but some of your symptoms sound kind of like OCD(obsessive compulsive disorder) this is wehere people have rituals they perform such as putting things in order . they sometimes have panic attacks if they cannot perform these. as for your other symptoms i'm very sorry i don't realy know. all i can say is maybe find someone to tlak to . and go see a doctor and talk about it with him.

Answer 4

Brianna,
It sounds to me like you have post traumatic stress disorder. Has something terrible happened to you?
I suggest seeing a mental health professional and getting help as soon as you can do it.

Answer 5

try to go to a doctor and get some help