Quirky, nervous personality... Not really sure how to describe this...?

Question

So. The doctor says I have bipolar disorder. This has gone unmedicated for maybe 2 weeks now, and I feel pretty okay. So that's not really an issue for me at the moment.
What has been a long-term issue for me, though, is that I'm extremely avoidant of confrontation of any sort. For example, my father steals my money from me all the time, and I know it, and I don't want to confront him about it because I'm afraid of reprimand. He also constantly guilt trips me about it when I do decide to try and speak up.
Another thing is, I may like a certain person on and off. And when I tell them I do, I usually get rejected and go, "Oh. Well, I was just being crazy, disregard that, etc..." and if I don't even do that I'll make it completely obvious that I am a lesbian, even though I am not.
I feel like if this goes unsolved people will continue to take advantage of me, and I will never have the confidence to solve real-world problems once I am moved out (in about a year). Any advice?

As for family life, it was pretty traumatic during my younger years. My father has serious anger issues and would break my things (but never hurt me) when he was upset with me.
My mother has a much more severe case of bipolar than mine, and when unmedicated she hallucinates when manic and is also frequently depressed.
I do see a doctor, and he knows I am unmedicated and wants to see how I do without the meds for a few more weeks. He says so far I sound pretty okay.

Answer 1

Why, exactly, are you going unmedicated? I don't think you're able to properly assess how you're doing. Most bipolar's think they're fine when they're actually not. Please see your doctor and get on medication again.

Answer 2

Sarcastic, smart a s s, funny, loud, generally a happy person, cranky sometimes, hippie at heart, shy with certain people, I love music, I sing, play piano and trombone, Im a runner, I am friendly, I am a nerd--and that's okay, huge Beatles fan, intelligent and dumb at the same time, really bad dancer, aspiring, hard worker, tall and thin, tired a lot, lazy, likes naps, hates when girls use a bunch of makeup, doesn't like stuck up people, is a girl, likes boys, wish I was born in the 60s, has a fast metabolism, never gets full, my eyes are closing as I write this, checks her email twice to three times a month, hates spam letters, in the honor society, no job, virgin, always wondered how being high on acid must feel, never took any drugs, don't smoke, don't drink alcohol, thinks youtube shouldn't have a word limit, hate going over peoples houses, hate having people come over mine, hate meeting other people's parents, good listener, nice person, down-to-earth, lovable, strange, stubborn, close minded sometimes, pessimist, creative, born in Uruguay, original, about to fall asleep. Bye!

Answer 3

The situation is not all that bad. You are still thinking clearly but just not being as assertive as you think is good for you. Before you change consider how they feel about you being so easy be with. Is it really you they control? There are more friends being close to you because you make life easy for them. You will gain strength soon enough why not enjoy the popularity here for you. Sure its not exactly what you want but you get lots of attention. Be happy and make them happy too. You can tell them you run the universe later. Now is that a good idea or what?

Answer 4

Only way to lead a happy healty life is if you can manage to be comfortable in ur own skin. That is, at least what I know for sure. Identifying the disorder correctly is crucial. It seems like I need to work on this myself, hopefully with the right psycolog or dr my case would be free from ambiguity soon!! So if u r happy with ur dr, make this ur #1 priority & solve it before u get any older(don't know how old u r though). Thx for ur reply by the way. Here is :

http://www.webmd.com/content/article/1/1700_50459.htm

Answer 5

I wonder what your family life was like, sounds like there are some issues there. We teach people how to treat us, and sometimes we are our own worst enemy. Sounds like you have some serious self esteem issues that need to be delt with possibly with a counsellor. It is normal to be afraid of things, but when you get to a point where you feel like it is affecting your life then you need to take a deeper look in to the cause.