I feel like ending everything right now?

Question

for all the ppl who read my other questions in the passed about my dean..well I keep screwing up every chance I get.. like today, I was apologizing to my dean at 2ed period and she gave me a hug and said she loved me then in 6th period I'm in her office AGAIN.. I felt terrible, I just felt like walking out and just leaving school, but she was like 'if you leave Im calling the police on you' or something.. then she had to go teach a class, so I got stuck with the priniciple of the school doing my discipline.. and she just said 'you will be lucky if I just give you detention for this'.. because I supposedly was 'ditching' 5th period.. cuz I was in the bathroom for 30 mins. but I was tottaly honest with her, that's why I think she didn't just send me to opportunity then..and, I just feel like giving up on everything, i feel like just going out to the strip and looking for the some people who will sell a 13 year old some beer and some drugs and drinkin myself away. What should I do?

*Apologizing for the poor grammar and spelling. I ran out of characters so I had to edit it.*

Answer 1

call your local crisis line

Answer 2

So 13 isn't so great. Well, life isn't easy, and no one ever said it was. It is a lot of work, but the rewards are awesome if you stick it out and work hard. First, I can see that your Dean REALLY cares about you. You know this, right? She gave you a hug, said she loved you. That is huge. No one made her do that, it is not in her "contract" or a mandatory part of her job. Not everyone has someone who really cares about them. Count yourself as one of the lucky ones. Now take a look at yourself. You obviously have good characteristics and a good heart if someone cares that much about you. You have a conscience. Not everyone does. Again, you are a lucky one. Now you need to get it together. First step is to tell your dean that you are DEPRESSED. If your parents won't take you to the doctor, then ask your dean to talk to them. Depression is an illness and you fit the bill. I was depressed at your age, and it was horrible. But it is not something that can't be fixed. You need some counseling, and possibly an anti-depressant. That will help, but you have to make the move and ask for the help. You need to really, really try. Why were you in the bathroom? Don't make excuses for yourself. You weren't in class, and now you have to take responsibility for your actions. Do the time, and while you are in opportunity or detention think about how you could have handled that situation differently. Make a deal with yourself that for the next HOUR you are going to do everything right. After that hour is up, give yourself a pat ont he back. Try another hour. Keep doing this. DO NOT try drugs or alcohol. They may sound appealing, but they are DEPRESSANTs and will only make it worse. They may be a short term fix, but if htere is one way to ruin your life, that is it. So talk to the dean, tell her you are depressed. Don't make excuses for your behaviors. Take responsibility for them. Ask her for her help - not just her forgiveness. I bet she's been waiting for you to ask.

Answer 3

You need to talk to a professional. I'm in therapy and I just recently started on an anti depressant. Depression is quite common. You didn't come here to Earth just to leave right away... Please try and do something and get through this temporary phase! It's good that your are reaching out. This place can help you or can really bring you down... be careful. I wish you the very best and God Bless!

All the stuff in your paragraph is just drama... a month from now all this silly stuff will be long gone... Just be easier on yourself. You will get through anything. All of that really aint much! You are just fine. All you can do is your best and be as honest as you can. Trust God and have a little faith.

Answer 4

Do you not have parents that you can speak to or that will give you any kind of support?

First, if you have a bad situation you do not want to make it worse, which is what trying to drink or drug yourself does. Second, you should try taking things day by day. If, at the end of each day you can honestly say that you tried your best, then that is what really matters. If things go badly throughout the day, as long as you try your best and try to avoid making things worse, then you should feel good about yourself. Things don't always turn out well no matter what a person does, and that's just life and something that you need to accept. But if you always try your best, then things tend to turn themselves around eventually. And good things can't happen if you aren't at least trying.

Answer 5

dont do that. whenever you think about doing stuff like that think about what youd be losing. education is really important, especially in todays society. competition for jobs is at its peak, so you need to continue schooling. some days it may seem hopeless, but just dont give up hope. talk to someone if you have to. say sorry to your dean. try saying it with complete sincerity, and dont get mad. or write her a letter explaining that you feel bad for everything youve been doing, but that you feel you just need a little more help, to get you out of the hole you have dug. try to be good in school, as much as possible. try not to slack off. do your homeowork---it helps more than you know. dont procrastinate. and try not to spend 30 minutes in the bathroom, if that what you did. :)

Answer 6

Hey dude look Its not worth it at all Trust me I been in a situation almost like urs and then I realized when the person asked what i use to off myself with, that it wasn't worth it plus think of who u be hurting and leaving behind plus if u off ur self just think u would be earning a 1st class ticket to hell and trust me u don't want to go there so think about it its diffently not worth it at all. if u need to,talk to a friend or a crisis line or ur parents or sum one to help u to stop thinking this way, and get ur life back on tract and feel happier!

Answer 7

At some point in your life you have to take responsibility for you actions. It is good that you care what others think about you but you must care about yourself also. If there are rules they apply to you as well as others. It sounds to me as if you are having a pity party for yourself and inviting all to agree. Sooner or later it will be too late to change. Make the change now for you.

Answer 8

What you need is ;
First of all a good old fashioned *** whipping. I mean so hard you'll not sit down for a week.
Listen you little sleeze bag of nothing. we have ot pay for your education and for you to pissit awy with such silly gay adventures suck.
If you don't understand they are trying to help you than your're a waste.
Stop being a pissant and get a life. no one's looking at you and everyone's tired of your crap.
Grow up or get lost kid; we don't need the crap. school is for education not silly games on your part.

Answer 9

well you need to ask yourself , is that the way you wanted in life? being in the street and no certain places to go? ofcourse you had your ambitions and do the best of yourself.

You still have lots of time for yourself..and make the best of it,,and I know you will give totally make difference in the world.

Answer 10

evidently you are beginning to have some serious social problems.
these things are going to have to be worked out. ask your dean or the principal to have you speak to the schools psychologist. it's free and I'm sure that they can help you.
good luck

Answer 11

Nothing is worth "ending it". Call someone or talk to someone close to you about how you feel. I was where you are when I was your age. I am now 28 and love life! i have 2 beautiful girls that I love and cherish. Please take care and value the life that you have. there are many people that are in really bad situations. Please take care!