How to get over weight obsession?

Question

I really don't know how it happened. But I have become obsessed with my weight. I gained a lot of weight during both of my pregnancies. I am now 5'5 and 135-140 pds. I feel like a blimp ALWAYS! I was 135 in HIGH SCHOOL so I have never really been that small. But I don't know.. I am weighing myself 4 or 5 times a day, not eating for days and then eating and puking! I am embarrassed to say anything to my friends or family but now I don't really know what to do. I don't know how to just feel good about myself the way that I am. This all came out because I just realized that I had consumed a 50 count bottle of Metabolife's Extreme Energy Pills in just 4 days. I REALLY don't need any smart ellic answers.. I know I NEED help... unfortunately I can't afford it. But at the same time I dont know how to quit. I tell myself this is bad for me and then do it any way. I am a stay at home mom... if my kids ever did something like this I would hit the roof. And PLEASE don't tell me that I need to not think about myself and worry about my kids. I do love my babies and play with them and I feed them ... haha I get the most down at night.. and like now while they are taking their naps. Does anyone know of any good support websites? Or has anyone been through this before?

Answer 1

You might want to stop taking those pills, they are not a good habbit to get into, plus your kids might see you and think its ok. But thats not anything you don't know. What I would do is try to count your calories daily. See if you can keep it aroun 1800 a day and no more. Don't have fatty foods or pop. Drink a lot of water. Now that you have kids, exersizing I'm sure, is not on your schedule. But maybe try to get a video tape of an exersize at home thing. Wake up 30 min earlier and do it then. Just go to bed 30 min earlier to make up for it. You are not overweight or anything, you are a good size, so you don't have to be drastic. This small step should help you get toned. It should be ok.

-Dave