What is the internal world of schizophrenics and schizotypals like?

Question

If you have a schizophrenic spectrum disorder, what is your internal world like?

For example, I am diagnosed with schizotypal PD. I am never sure whether my thoughts are 'real' or just part of some conspiracy against me. I question my motives regarding myself. I have very poor memory and feel I go through life with a weak flashlight illuminating a very tiny fraction of the world I experience. I am not interested in other people, they are a distraction from my fantasy world. I experience extreme feelings like terror or otherworldliness one day, and then question whether I did the next.

Answer 1

I have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia there are a lot of things I can't remember whether they actually happened or not the whole world seems confusing I can't seem to trust whether a person is there or not so I have cut my self off from social contacts.

It's kind of hard to try and sum up what my "world" is like I know what it feels like but finding the right words to describe the whole experience is difficult. I guess if anything everything feels dark I see strange large creatures roaming around and find my self a lot of the time listening to voices that come from no where and sounds that I have never heard before. People appear and disappear without warning, everything feels erratic and almost as if I am watching from the outside.
I can never hold a relationship with someone I meet so many people that I really enjoy the company of people I can never find a thing wrong with but as soon as it ends I never want to see them again and I try and avoid them as much as possible but other times I am just not interested in people just like you, I never have the urge to have friends I feel so much more relaxed and at ease without them I've literally cut my self down to one person who isn't apart of my family and that's my boyfriend who has helped me through everything.
Sometimes my world is terrifying and I just want it all to go away and sometimes it is calm but it is always random as to what will happen next.
But watching the people on the outside of my world sometimes it feels lonely that I am the only one that knows I am in here, I do not seek nor want those outside people but sometimes I want to be able to have my own understanding of my self

Answer 2

Same as anyone else's.

The diagnosis is just a "different" and not socially acceptable way of dealing with things - possibly "everyday" stresses, or possibly extraordinary stresses (e.g., severe child abuse).

Incidentally, someone with schizotypal PD would not be worried about conspiracies. Schizotypals generally are more into ideas about cause and effect - such as seriously wondering if their mother broke her back because they thoughtlessly or angrily stepped on a crack.