What's Wrong with me?? Please Help?

Question

Please help me.
I feel so low and down. I feel like this most of the time now, and if i don't then i am so hyped up and excited etc.
I cut my wrists/hands most nights, combined with this i cry and listen to music.
I stay away from my family as much a possible. I stay in my room and hate them touching me.
I showed my Mum a few weeks before Christmas and showed her a couple of the cuts.
She didn't really do much and now doesn't talk about it.
2 of my friends know about a couple of the cuts, but ive told them im ok now and dont talk about it.
It'd hurt them too much to know. They cry over me and they don't deserve that.
I don't deserve that.
Im not going to see a doctor so please don't tell me to.
So my question is, Help?
I need someone to talk to, advice, and why do i feel like this?
Thank You ♥

Answer 1

Sounds like you are self mutilating yourself when you are feeling depressed. This is not good as it could lead to you killing yourself. You may not need to see a dr perse. BUT, you should atleast talk to a counselor or school nurse. It sounds like you are young. You may even need to see a psychiatrist. It could be a type of chemical imbalance that would be most likely treated with meds.

Answer 2

Hi it sounds like you have depression and there are many diffirent types of depression. I know you have said that you wont see a doctor but you probably should there is no shame in having depression it is not your fault. A lot of people have depression but some have mild or severe depression. There are lots of medicine these days that are really effective. My friend has depression and he has started taking something from the doctors and he says he feels a lot better. He feels like his old happy self again. Some days are still hard but he feels possitive about the future and he is not unhappy anymore for no reason. Just try there is no harm in it if it does not work than stop you have not lost anything. But not going to see a doctor is really putting yourself at risk by the sounds of what you have just said. If you dont want to go for yourself which i dont know why you wouldn't, go because of your family and friends who obviously care about you very much and are probably really worried. I really feel for you and what you are going through. I hope you realise that you need to go to the doctors. If you want to know more there are books on depression and heaps of info on the net. Lots of luv steph

Answer 3

Hi,
You are not alone. There are other people who do this type of thing to themselves. The ones I know are very sensitive loving people. Many have suffered a very painful loss of someone close to them.
I don't know what kind of pain you have inside of you that causes you to do this. Like someone else here has mentioned, there could be a chemical imbalance.
As sensitive a matter as this is, I would encourage you to reconsider seeing someone for help. You mention not wanting to hurt your friends, loved ones. Doing what you can for yourself before this becomes more and more of a habit would be a gift to them. I am saying this as you don't seem to have the love for yourself to do it for you.
My heart goes out to you. Please call a mental health hot line. You can remain anonymous.

Answer 4

I know you don't want to hear this but you do need to talk to someone who can help you deal with these feelings. Friends are great but they don't have the ability to help. Family is great too but sometimes think youngsters are just being melodramatic. Sounds to me like you need help from an adult that understands your feelings and fears. Please talk to a trusted teacher or counselor or if you don't feel comfortable with them, call the local mental health center crisis line. You should be able to find it in the phone book under mental health or counselors. Don't continue to suffer alone. Things will only get worse. God loves you even if you don't believe in him. He will help if you ask him to help.

Answer 5

You need to ask yourself why you feel this way.What reason do you cut yourself. This is a serious complex problem.There are ways to feel better about yourself but require you to challenge yourself.Say like work out ,if you stick to this regime you get possitive results.You'll feel better because you occomplished something.Allways look at family and friends ,ask them to give you hugs ,they also work.You can do this your bright,your a great person,there is allways a solution,life is not all bad life is an adventure go get it.HUGS TO YOU!

Answer 6

cutting is not a good thing you have deep pain you can not deal with I am granmother of 7 grandaughters. i use to be a cutter in the 80s and now i have 1 grandaughter that is a cutter.It takes thearphy honey to get well and you need to get there fast talk to a school counsler,and pastor. make a appointment yourself just get help this is curable but you have to get to the deep deep pain and find lots of support. you can email me anytime if you want [e-mail] my heart goes out to you may god bless you and keep you safe.

Answer 7

You won't get any better if you don't see a counsellor. There's possibly a chemical imbalance in your brain, so you have to see someone...it's not going to get better on its own.

Answer 8

I'm going to run an IP trace and call for help for you. Is anyone there yet? They're on their way....Stay in there

Answer 9

think about anything that make u happy ONLY. Ignore anything bad. You always have hope ONLY if you are alive.

Answer 10

you'll grow out of it, its a hormonal thing