Am I weak?

Question

I used to cut... still battling with myself to not cut... i have an ok home life but was bullied in gradeschool.... now i hate myself and have a lack of selfworth and self confidence.... i constantly hide my emotions and things from others....am i weak? why am i so pathetic that i cut and stuff even tho i was only bullied... ppl have been worse off then me and not done things i've done... can anyone help me?

to set things straight... i come from a catholic family i was raised catholic and go to a catholic high school... but i am not catholic (my parents don't know that)... i've gone to a catholic school all my life... i had no friends throughout gradeschool and was constantly made fun off... i've had no major physical bullying or abuse..

i don't want to go to a doc or anything like that... i have not been suicidal in awhile so maybe i'm stronger than i realize... i don't really want to tell anyone close to me tho i don't want to disappoint them... what do i do?

and don't anyone dare call me an emo!!

Answer 1

i think that you need to talk to your parents/family/friends and ask for their suport and help while you seek councelling for this....do it now before youstart to cut again and god forbid, cut the wrong spot and have someone you care for deply find you laying unconscious or worse dead.

Answer 2

It is interesting that "weak" is the word you choose to question. You tell us all these unhappy things, but also "I have an OK home life," and I grow more confused.

You were bullied. Were you weak to allow yourself to be bullied, or were the rules about "no fighting" strong enough that you did not care to get in further trouble just to defend yourself from the bully? In other words, was it a rational response to the circumstances?

You see, a lot of kids get into thinking there's something wrong with themselves because they are responding to something wrong in their environment. Since home is/was OK, it must be the school environment that is screwed up. Welcome to the club, chile; you go to a public school, right?

The cutting is just the fashionable response to stress; there have been others, no sense figuring better or worse. You know people with other sorts of responses to stress. Do you know anyone who seems to cope well? Only a guess, but it may be the people who learn meditation, contemplation, the ability to get still and listen to the inside of your own head. Not to cry, but to think.

What, really, do you want to do with your life? What would be a good, hopeful impression of yourself five years from now? What steps could you take in the next five years to get there? Bring your mind to bear on your own personal agenda, and then see how you can fit that into the demands of the authority figures around you.

The obvious one is the school: you are so far ahead of the game if you grit your teeth and put up with them until the diploma is in your hands. Think about college later. But use the time you have now to get a start on what you really want to do with your life.

And if you do not know what you want to do, then make it your project to find out. What are you good at? What arouses your curiosity? What do you imagine would be a job so good it wouldn't even matter about what they paid you for it, just to be able to do it full time? Talk to people who earn their money that way and ask how they like it, and how they got started. What education did they need and what entry level jobs did they take?

Planning and working on your plans can take the place of feeling helpless and spinning your wheels. No need to cut yourself just to know you gotta find the way forward.

Answer 3

You are not weak; you are severely depressed and have very low self-esteem. You may have a chemical imbalance in your body that is causing your depression. Believe me, it takes more than being bullied to feel as badly as you do right now. Please seek out counseling. You didn't state your age, but you sound as if you are still in school. Go to your school counselor, or a favorite teacher, a clergyman, or your local health department and ask for help. You need to talk with someone, and possibly be on antidepressants. If your home life is ok, then you know you have people around you who love you and want to help you be happy again.

Answer 4

I am not qualified to help you but I empathize, it must be hard to have all those negative emotions swirling about. Any counselor you can seek through school or church? Can you tell mom or dad whats going on so they might help? I would suggest volunteering to help others, answer phones for a shelter or something charitable. I know I've always felt better about myself when I've helped others.

Answer 5

What you need is something you can believe in. Try working with kids, becoming a mentor for a kid can be one of the most rewarding experiences in life, and can be a huge boost to your confidence.

Answer 6

i be like that sometimes cause ppl not even ppl fo'real my family have to chose a person to pick on usually it be me cause im the second youngest but im like strong *** hell i dont get it but thats life it when u lack that one thing u really dont lack u just dont kno wat to do trust me kid pick one person that stronger than u but be have ***** feelin but not scared to not some one out let him b ur body guard and sh!t and u b good for a while this is the best answer fo'real

Answer 7

If you want to get stronger, then you have to seek professional help. Listening to all these Yahoos on Answers is NOT going to help your self-esteem.

Answer 8

well maybe you should talk to someone you trust or go to a phycologist. Cuttin yourself is really bad and can affect you when you get older. i would go to a doctor of some sort.

Answer 9

Well, you seem to have low self esteem. You have to love yourself to be happy. I would try some self help books. One that was real good was......louise hay you can heal your life, louise l. hay More Try this book. It may help!!!

Answer 10

Not weak but emotionally disturbed. Talk to a counselor