hey yeap i had a nice experience.. i wrote it down once and burned it on CD
here it is
(dont fall from your chair)
My experience in Christ
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by peter
i felt like i should write this down, the whole moment
so here it is
i have no clue what i should do with this writing
time will tell
it was a strange day in the netherlands, the country i was visiting
the weather was soothing i believe, bit heavy, the deep kind of atmosphere
must have been the tight city surroundings, altho we were far from the center of the giantic city
there i was sitting on a wooden chair, outside at a small court in front of a major sport building
next to me also on a chair, some french speaking woman, we could barely understand each other
tho we got along well, we were playfull friends during that time, partied a bit looked at stars, fooled around
all friendly because in my mind i would soon go on a travel to a more distant country to visit a woman who came inside my life wich was dark at the time
and light also, like all my life has been, strange, mixed with evil and good, heavens and hells ive been through
a seeker of love, not the temporary kind, the eternal kind
we were enjoying the moment, some people were talking against the wall in front of us
some were walking by, killing their smoke inside an ashtray wich was placed in front of our chairs
i felt a strange arousement inside my chest, inside my heart, my mind went on raging about it seemed there was no stopping the cruel human mind of mine
almost like my mind was fighting some event wich was about to happen, while my heart was sinking deeper and deeper into furfillment, amazement
the type of feeling you get, when you are about to experience something completely new
like watching your first sunset, the sun coming up or going down, or staring at the moon
altho like i mentioned already, the mind was in a terrible fight with itself, something was about to happen
i expected some clarity, because through the severe struggles i have seen, i always know i had the ability to pick myself up from any situation possible
in stead of this clarity of thought, a whole different event took place, a special holy event that day
some random person, an elderly man, killed his smoke inside the ashtrey and i said "merci!"
me and her were both sayin this playfull, to the people who were doing that
pointing out to them that smoking is bad for the health! yet without worry or expectations!
we were killing time i guess, like so many moments in a human's life!
we laughed about, discussed god and much aspects of life during my time in the netherlands there, some nights and some days
different people from different parts of the world i encountered there, many cultures, many languages, many paths
most were friendly and willing to share comfort there are some human basics..
anyway, after this elderly guy, killed his smoke inside the ashtrey, in stead of what i would have expected to happen, this clarity of mind
this pickup from the struggle,i found myself into this complete natural state of heart
like it was the most normal experience in the world
like i saw it every single day! like it was always there with me!
my mind was still and so was my heart, tho i knew my heart was beating fast and my mind had a history of raging about!
some duality in this
from nowhere, this being, full of cosmic light, with the entire creation as his body appeared
passing by me, walking, like it was nothing
he was observing the surroundings
still in my natural state of mind and heart i thought all was normal
while suddenly a thought came, "ahh look, it is Christ"
i was perplexed. like a secret you want to keep for yourself. i became silent
a moment for myself i had
i thought, yeah right i must be daydreaming, a real good one!
when i move my head about, this experience will be over!
so i moved my head left to right and i observed with my eyes the surroundings, and i focused my sight
but no! he was still there!
now he stood on my right side in front of me, some meters away
he was having a moment, and the brightest light from his being appeared
a light so bright, so clear, so pure and all powerfull, it contained the entire expanding creation
including my little body
beyond all death and life, beyond all misery and wrong thought, deceptions, lies, hatred and love
beyond all i could ever imagine, this light was bright and took all of existance
my mouth fell open in amazement, my eyes peeled out
i felt people noticed something was happening
indeed there was a strange divine in the atmosphere, one could feel
i had an intense desire to have this glorious being Christ is, for him to take me away from this world
he looked at my eyes, he came closer, the cosmic father peeked into my little human eyes
my entire image of self, my entire soul, received a shock
like i was a dust in his hands, like there were no secrets for him
my entire personality, the entire "me" was look-through for him
the shock went so deep i would never ever experience such again, such love, such strange fenomena
it cut through the deepest of my world
i felt so little this beauty to touch me, the mortal man
my entire self-image faded like snow for the sun
everything i experienced, all the troubles and joys i seen were nothing in compare with this being in front of me
and most enjoyable a whole new world inside myself, inside my heart opened up, blossomed, a whole new adventure with choices waiting there for me
like a new step into the ladder of evolution i took!
like a glorious future full with questions answers amazement, one big miracle!
a deep devotion arised from within and i felt his energy merging with mine
the experience was over and there i was, for some minutes on my chair
i felt like abandoned, left alone, i felt cold and in shock
i couldnt speak
how could i ever make words for this?
yet i had the desire to express what happened right away
i felt like i would die otherwise!
i told the french speaking woman sittin next to me on the chair
"hey, you know what i just saw?" some kind of response she gave
and i continued with the deepest words i ever uttered
"the christ! the cosmic being! the all pervading one! the ruler of all!" i dont know my exact words
but they were in such context, one must understand the amazement of the moment, so the words are in pure amazement as well
she said to me something like, "dont say that" or something, i dont remember well
from that moment in my life, my focus was not anymore on human life
it went deeper, human life included
tho, much deeper, my focus was in Christ
i believe that day i experienced Christ
now i have him tattood on my left arm, the meak Christ
im not the kind of man who goes for anything or anyone
for me to tattoo something, (i didnt have one) must be deep reason already
my strong opinion did not fade
now i go to church sometimes, and i celebrate him
knowing how strange it is, to perceive him, with his full cosmic glory
im aware that crazy fame-mad people make up such
im aware that most people would call one a loonie if you mention such
i can only be honest and share this moment
my life would never be the same again
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2007-01-11 12:25:28
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