Everything/body is going insane.?

Question

here is the deal, my dad died a year ago, and since then everything has gone crazy, my aunts (on my dads side ) always disliked my mom because she filed for divorce and told the cops about how he hit my bro and her. I guess my aunts think my dads drinking got worse after that (eventually leading to his death). less than 2 weeks after my dad died my aunts wrote a letter to the court telling them to take us out of here. We went through all the court bull**** living with my one nice aunt on my dads side for 6months and we won! but everything is falling apart again. My mom has a neurological disorder (shes had it since i was like 9) and that sometimes causes her to be very weak. But then she just starts drinking too. These past couple months she has been in trouble with the police a few times... right now she is in the hospital. She has tried to hurt herself two times in the past 2 months. Once by starting a fire (smart one right?) causing me and my brother to get hurt not her.
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We put out the fire b4 the cops got to our house. Recently by drinking rubbing alcohol, she is now in the hospital. My evil aunt came by last night and told us all this crap about how we r gonna end up in foster care and stuff.

I just don't know what to do... I'm 12 going on 13 in a couple months and my sister will turn 16 in 4 days. My brother is 17. I miss my dad sooo much and I just want to be normal. Not having to worry about having to avoid social workers (cops too now) and not having to lie to anyone. My friends don't know and i'd like to keep it that way. What do you think will happen? I'm asking all you because I trust you guys more than my mom now. She always ends up in the hospital b4 a court date is scheduled. Mainly I miss my dad its only been a year. and i want to be closer to normal. I really have given up on the court stuff because my mom screwed everything up. I'm a 12 year old girl shouldn't i be worrying about hot guys not where i will sleep at night??

Answer 1

Perhaps your aunt's were right the first time and you'd have been better off losing that court battle.

Answer 2

You should find someone that you can talk to about all this.... Sometimes, It's hard to carry all you feeling around. Do you have a teacher or an adult that you trust? Talk to someone about this. Usually it's best if it's an adult. I don't blame you for not talking to your Mom. A lot of kids find it hard to talk to their parents. I don't like talking to mine... I'm 14. I'm so sorry about your situation by the way. It's sounds REALLY rough. Just try to get your feelings out so that they don't eat a hole in you. Maybe somebody older and smarter than me can give you good advice.