How I feel right now..?

Question

I am a freshman in college at my local community college right now. I have a boyfriend of 2 years but he is in the Army and sometimes I feel so lonley because all of my friends are away at college yo and my twin sister is away to. Tonight I made my mom cry because when I was younger she found a note that said "I want to die" written by me and I asked her about it. I have tryed to talk to a doctor but I really didn't think I was that much in need of help because I have never tried to commit suicide or anything. I have had thoughts like "I wish Jesus would come and take me to Heaven so I could live with him and be happy forever with my loved ones. I'm on Zoloft and I think it helps? I just recently started taking it. Right now though I feel like I'm just going to school and when I'm there it is really hard to concentrate and when I try to go to sleep at night I think about everything. I just feel like crying but honestly I can't and I really don't know why I'm typing this on here.

I don't know how long my boyfriend will be gone either. Hes only in schooling but I feel down. I tell him that I'm proud of him and support him all the way even though the distance is hurting me.

Answer 1

I just stumbled up on your question and I know I have the right answer for you. first you need to seek salvation for your soul, and by doing that--you want to say the sinners prayer. I t goes like this: Lord Jesus, please save me--I know that I have sinned against you, and I know that you died on the cross for my sins, forgive me for my sins. I beleive that you are the son of God. I submit my body mind and soul to you today, I put you in charge of my life, please be the Lord over my life, so that I may follow you from this day on and forever more. amen.
After you have said this prayer, you have become a new creature in christ-and if you should die today or any day after--you will go to heaven. if you haven't said this prayer, and you should die--you will go to hell. this is the only way to the savior, no matter how good you have been. Now you dont have to die anytime soon, and your life can, and will change for the better. talk to God and tell him how you are feeling and tell him that you want to talk to him alone, and you want him to help you to know him on a personal basis. he will do just that. try and find a "full gospel" church, so that you can study "the word" the bible! the king james version. your whole life will change to a happy one. You will no longer have these suicide feelings. you will overcome all the sadness, and he will replace it with joy. God Bless you and your mom and the rest of your loved ones. I pray that you will listen to these words of wisdom!! Be Blessed "IT WORKS"

Answer 2

You are suffering from a mild depression. You need to help yourself - it is not as diffcult as you may think.

You are lonely - you have reason to be lonely - your boyfriend is in the Army, your sister is away and your friends are away at college. Hmmmm, sounds like reason to be lonely to me.

How do you chose to handle this loneliness? You can sit around and suck your thumb (literally) and tell yourself how lonely you are. I can guarantee this will make the depression deeper, the lonliness harder and you miserable.

OR, you can chose to take this lemon and make lemonade out of it. You can go to your nearest church (or your church or place of worship) and find out how you can help someone. Go to the nearest hospital and do some volunteer work. Go to the nearest grade school and ask if you can volunteer to help children with their studies. When you think of others and how much they need you, I guarantee you will get more than you give.

Along with trying to help someone else, get out and exercise. Take a long, brisk walk every day. You will not believe how much this will improve your daily outlook and energy level.

Yes, it's not fun to be lonely but you are the only person that can change that. You are in charge of how you feel.

Let me tell you a story: My daughter had breast cancer just 5 years ago - this after giving birth to her 2nd baby. Her children were 2 years old and 6 months old when she got the diagnosis. She never let her get her down. She did what she had to do including mastectomy, chemo and radiation. She keeps a positive attitude and she is a winner. She is doing wonderfully.

Then on December 26th of this year, her 40 year old husbad suffered a heart attack! They lost him twice in the emergency room. I watched my daughter go through another difficult time. She kept her positive attitude.

Her husband is doing well.

On January 1st he came home from the hospital - but he didn't go home, he and my daughter came to the family New Years Day party! It's a wonderful gathering of love and laughter.

I watched as my daughter and her husband joined in the laughter and got into games that we all played (there are 22 of us). I admired her and her husband. In 9 short years of marriage they have been through 2 major issues. They could have chosen to be depressed over what has happened to them. Yet, they choose to stay in the now.

Yes, we do have control over how we feel. Don't let anyone tell you different.

Follow my advice - you will be glad you did.

I won't wish you good luck because I believe we make our own luck. What type of luck will you make for yourself?

Answer 3

Perhaps you were typing this note so I could read and discover how much you need someone to talk to right now. How about girls, are there any you can hook up with? The challenge is in finding someone to care for besides yourself, your family and your boyfriend. Get out and meet some new people, one step at a time. Of course some Doctors are just plain stupid, but not all of them are and I know there is one out there that could help you.

Answer 4

heyy...you know i felt the same lonliness that you're doing right now...but ive found some relief on yahoo 360...i made a page and started blogging my feelings and it kept me occupied...and now less than a month later...i've got friends there that help me out soo much...they read what i write and ccomment and its jsut great!! come make a page and we'll be friends and u kud twk to me and ill wk to uu and it'l be great!!

Answer 5

Honey, I love you, all right? I was suffering through depression and still am due to anorexia, so I know EXACTLY how you feel. I'm glad you got this out of your system. You've made a difference to me, so feel good.

Answer 6

I feel for you girl. You seem really down. If you need anything email me at [e-mail].

Answer 7

I hope you feel better