why do i feel like killing someone?

Question

i have no friends and im always by myself. im very ugly and i see everyone around me is better looking. im sure something is wrong with me but whatt could it be? when i was in sixth grade i would go to counceling. but i never said anything i always keep my feelings inside. she reccommened i saw a physcologist.

Answer 1

You are killing someone—you. You don't mention your age. 11 to 14 year old girls are the most miserable creatures on the face of the earth.

Go to a counselor or therapist and say something. Therapists see lots of miserable people who are making things worse for themselves and can help them with different perspectives if you can tell them what you are struggling with.

If you don't learn to open up, you will have no friends and always be by yourself. These things can and will get better if you push the envelope.

Answer 2

There is nothing wrong with you, you simply feel the normal kind of lonliness and despair at not having the people around you who you think you need. I am quite sure that you are not ugly. The way you see yourself is only so negative because you feel so negative about the other aspects of yourself. Have you tried joining any clubs outside of school, or college? Have you spoken to your parents about how you are feeling? If you don't speak to anyone who is willing to try and help you, then you cannot help yourself, and you are likely to run around in these circles for a long time into the future. Bottling it all up is totally destructive.
I recommend you speak to your parents, maybe go back to the psychologist if that is an option, and maybe try to expand your circle of activities in places that aren't around the people who bring you down. Also, by doing this, you will create confidence in yourself, and find it easier to interact with the people you see ona daily basis. You won't feel so alone or helpless. And it will come to you naturally, I promise!
I went through a rough time a few years ago, and I discovered that the best way to feel better about myself, was to detatch from the people and places that made me feel so bad. After realising that I had skills and that I got enjoyment from other things in life, I was able to get on without feeling like I wasn't as good as everyone else, or that I was missing out on something terribly important. Today, I am a happy, hardworking, confident person, with a wide social circle, which I might not otherwise had had, if I'd not trusted in myself to want to feel better.
I don't know how old you are, but everyone has feelings of inadequecy. They don't have to last, and its perfectly normal, especially (though not only) if you're a teenager. Don't criticise yourself so much; there's every chance that the person sat next to you on the bus or at school or stood next to you in a queue feels just as alone as you do.
Ask for help - you will find it there. All the best. :)

Answer 3

You probably feel like killing someone because you are majorly depressed. Your low self esteem is taking over your better judgement. The good thing is you are seeking some assistance by posting your question here, so I believe that there is hope for you.
I suggest that you see a counselor and possibly go on medication. I am not a huge fan of meds, however when a person has feelings of harming their self or others I think it's necessary.
It's very likely that you have a chemical imbalance.
Visit www.everydayhealth.com for information to learn more about your depression.
Good luck with everything, and try to remember that if it feels this bad and you are feeling this down then it can't get any worse and the only possible way to go from here is up.

Answer 4

I doubt you're ugly as well, but it sounds like you've convinced yourself so much that you are. I can relate to your feelings though. I always felt envious of girls in high school & college that attracted guys I liked, & at some points, i just kinda withdrew myself from seeing people so that i wouldn't get hurt or rejected. But then i'd always meet someone that proved me wrong & made me feel better. I also tended to keep my feelings inside & someone that knew me well alerted me to them, & that i should do something about it. I had been feeling pissed off & bitter towards everyone, even though it wasn't really their fault. I wasn't really aware that i had bottled these feelings up inside me so much, & it was really quite alarming. Once i figured out what was going on, I sought some counseling, which helped a lot. It was hard for me to do, & i wanted to try to see if it would just go away, but I'm glad i did it. It won't go away in 1 day either, you have to have patience (which i don't have!), allow yourself to accept what's going on, & go with it. I hope you do the same!
Good luck.

Answer 5

I'm sure your not ugly. Your a girl, and any unconceited girl always feels ugly at some point, especially when she looks at everyone else. Don't just go for a certain group of friends either, try to "mingle" with different kinds of people and im sure you will eventually find some that are your type. I think you just need to let your feelings out and stop hiding them. If you have a problem speak your mind about it. And i think that this quote is very true:

"There's always a secret hate for the prettiest girl in the room." or something like that :-)

Answer 6

What does all that have to do with you feeling like killing someone!! Why would you do that if you don't know anyone-someone had to have pissed you off to be like this!!! I'm sure your a beautiful person but just don't have any confidence. How do you know the best looking guy in the world isn't watching you or having a crush on you? Throw some lipstick on sister and get out there with the rest of us-because believe me-we have all been in your shoes at one time or another!!!! Good luck and take care of yourself!!!!!!

Answer 7

You're angry. I'm sure you're not half as ugly as you think you are, either. You sound like me when I was in middle school.

Don't hold all your feelings inside. That's probably what the problem is. You need to release, because that anger will just keep building up .. and you could seriously hurt yourself or someone else. Talk to someone. I promise it get's better. =)

Answer 8

The more you fight with yourself becasue of what bothers you, more angry you'll get inside! Killing someone won't cure you. It won't calm you. First you would have to start calming down your inside, what's bothering you. I am an introverted person myslef and always keep my feelings inside of me, but that just makes me feel worse becasue all the time I'm fighting with myself. I think that seeing a psychologust or talking to someone will help you release your emotions. When you talk, SAY EVERYTHING that is bothering you. Becasue if you don;t, it's all pointless. It can be hard, but hey everything is; confidential and It's their job to help you with your problems. And don;t feel that you are ugly because there is always someone who is prettier, smarter and better than us and we can't compare ourselves. If your inside is kind,It'll show on your outside and people will be attracted to you more. I know how you feel and It's hard not to think that way in this society that's obsessed with body image. But try to be KIND to YOURSELF and to OTHERS! It'll make a difference and see someone to talk to so you can become more relaxed inside! GOOD LUCK

Answer 9

Hello. I just thought that you might have bad experiences while you were a kid. Those things you should always let go. Go out and do volunteer work. Try to get busy and learn something new. Be involve in church activities. In doing so, you will learn to love yourself and other. Pray and always thank God. If everything wont work, then try to seek the help of a psychologist or any professional.

Answer 10

first- put a smile on that avatar, girl! lol Seriously hon, we all feel ugly but that doesn't mean that everyone sees that. Inside there's a special someone just waiting to pop out. On here nobody sees you anyway. I try not to let other people get to me. Remember life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. (author unknown, but smart) Just be you; it's who you do best....xoxo, Catrina