More to the point have you felt something deep inside you that is telling you, you will soon. Have you had the dreams of knives and blood and screaming, or is that just me. Have you wanted death but then are so terrified of falling. Have you ever felt you are begging for someone to help you to just breathe and they don't even notice or worse they notice but they turn their back on you. I am not going crazy and before you suggest it, counselling doesn't solve anything i've been there done that. have you ever just felt so tired, so exhausted and broken?
2007-01-09 18:17:43 · 20 answers · asked by colonel 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Oh Yeah... I have felt all that and more...
After having faced a number of tragedies and a number of very difficult personal experiences and serious injury and the list really is long about all the bad things I have been through.... and yeah I just got to the point several times over that I was too soul deep tired to go on... I begged for death.... hoped, wished and wanted it so bad.... even planned it... I dreamt of it and nightmared of it...
I felt that if only I could die the hurting would stop.....
after years of physical, mental emotional and spiritual traumas and abuse and it coming from differing sources at differing times of my life I was completely done in...... empty of any desire to live or exist... death had everything I wanted and needed... sleep peace safety...... ahh sweet death.....
And yes for many years I fully believed I would die at age 27.... then I believed I would die at 35.... I am 41 and still here....
BUT I made a deal with myself a long time ago that I would never take my own life and I even have a life insurance policy that never pays a cent if I die by my own hand.... and as I have kids and I want them to collect on the isurance if I do die I cant die by my own hand.... in other words I gave myself a reason to not kill myself... as shalow a reason as money is it has been at times the only reason not to kill myself...
And for all of those people who say... oh how selfish she has children and they are not reason enough to live... I would say.... bahumbug.... you simply do not understand....
it is against my spiritual principles to kill myself but that does not stop me wanting death....
Counselling did help me... it helped a great deal... the counsellors I have seen have each taught me strategies to deal with particular parts of life.... and honestly to talk about some of the stuff that has happened in my life was not easy but it was necessary to help me make sense of it....
Slowly over many years I was able to rebuild myself and make the best of what I have which when it all boils down to it all one has is themself...... and live each day the best way I can...
However I should point out that I am not a walking talking ball of misery every day... I have nice days and pleasant days even joyous days...as time goes on I have more of these days than the other kind.... but I still from time to time feel that soul deep pain and tiredness.... I still rom time to time desire death....
I am teaching myself to desire the good things that life has to offer as long as I have life... but it is only with many years of counselling that I have been able to turn somethings around in my life....
2007-01-10 07:22:09 · answer #1 · answered by wollemi_pine_writer 6 · 1⤊ 1⤋
Yes. I am currently struggling with this. I just can't see a future for myself - it's like I have no motivation. It's not that I hate life, but death seems so much better, somehow. But, at the same time, I haven't tried to kill myself. I want to jump, but I could never really jump.
Perhaps you are stressed out. Maybe you're having problems seeing a future for yourself. Since counselling has failed you, I'd try online support groups, and finding a hobby. Find something you can obsess over, something to distract you, something to live for.
2007-01-09 19:01:35 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Everyone at some point in time experiences panic and despair. For some, it is a daily occurance. You are not alone. Perhaps the counseling you had was not appropriate for your symptons. Why not try it again? Life is truly to short to live in fear and pain. There are so many subliminal lines/pictures out there that perhaps you are zoning in on too many for some reason. Speak with a medical doctor as well to try and curb these with medication. Good luck to you.
2007-01-09 18:32:07 · answer #3 · answered by soozemusic 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Only when they have a new series of X Factor, Britains Got Talent, Celebrities Up the Jungle, Dead Enders on TV all week and extra at Christmas. I could go on but you get the gist. Almost forgot, Nick Clegg being part of government, Lib Dems in entirety, the Common Market/EU and John Prescott.
2016-05-23 02:29:56 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yes. I had a recurring dream where I slit my wrists in the bathtub, then dropped the exacto knife so that it stabbed me in the back everytime I wanted to lie back into the water, fall asleep and die. I was so lonely and miserable for so long, and I never told anyone, because I had no one in my life to tell. I am so sorry you feel like that. It will get better. I am so happy now, and nothing in my life has really changed but myself. I wish we could talk more.
2007-01-09 18:34:31 · answer #5 · answered by Suzanne 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
No, How am I will enjoy things in life if I'm dead? Is selfish wanting to enjoy the good things of life, but the bad ones. Many people when are in the good state never think in God or in the others, but the bad time comes then start to say "God, Why me?" You should remember that many of the things that happen to us are the result of our own actions. So, Why wanting to be dead? Alive I have more probabilities to solve things to feel better and to solve my problems to feel the satisfaction this brings.
2007-01-09 18:26:53 · answer #6 · answered by Javy 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes i felt that on different occasion in my life
l learned that we can not blame people all the time for what is going on in our life.
1-You need to work out the biggest part of it “every one take care of his own self”.
We need to find the best solution or the second best solution
2- And you need look around you will meet people sharing the same problem & maybe worse.
As you said nagging to doctor to a friends or to a brother does not help much maybe relaxed for a while but then you need to analyze things work on this second solutions or a second plan to be happy.
do not feel like falling & depressed this is normal in our life but later you need to go on with your life be more possitive
2007-01-09 20:16:12 · answer #7 · answered by Rachel 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
All of us feel this at some point in out lives, but this feeling will pass. My brother took his life a little over a year ago... suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem... Nothing is ever worth taking your life..
I really miss my brother, he was only 24, and now all of us have to bear this horrible pain... Don't even think about it.. ♥
2007-01-09 18:24:08 · answer #8 · answered by GMaster 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
no I have not been that depressed, but you are not alone there are many people out there who have these feelings. What you need to know is you don't have to live like this, there is help out there available for you. find a psychiatrist to talk to, if you dont know where to get one, start with your regular Dr. there are alot of medications available to help you with those feelings and the depression. seeing a psychatrist and getting medication is much differnt than counselling.
You can also call the suicide prevention line to start to get help. If you have tried "talking" and it doesnt help then you need medication to help you. there is nothing wrong with it, and it will help you good luck
2007-01-09 18:55:41 · answer #9 · answered by JoAnne H 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
yes. all the time feel tired, exhausted and broken and no power to fight any more. just i am a chicken to die - remember hamlet? to die - to sleep? and maybe dreaming? whi knows maybe there is not a complete darkness after death, maybe there is smth very very unpleasant.
2007-01-09 18:24:34 · answer #10 · answered by jacky 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋