i am on the verge of commiting suicide and idont know what to do.?

Question

i see a psycyatrist every month and still not getting any better

Answer 1

Hi Simon, my name is Bobby Jean. I'm really glad that you took the time to talk to someone about this feeling. That's a big step toward healing .. you are already on your way.

If you would like to write to me, feel free to do so. I'd be happy to talk to you about whatever is troubling you .. to listen to what you have to say. I'm a Navy veteran, Mom of three and Grandma of nine (!!) .... oh yeah, and a trained counselor, but not a psychiatrist.

Now..about this doctor: you are hiring the psychiatrist to help you. Would it help to interview others? Psychiatrists DO get burned out because of the intense emotions in their work.

In the meantime, try a couple of things that I learned over the years ... ready? Grab a pencil and a writing tablet. As you write, keep in mind one thing: YOU DO NOT WANT TO DIE, YOU JUST WANT THE PAIN TO STOP.

Page 1. Make a list of ten things you always wanted to do.

Page 2. Start writing about your life .. from the earliest you can remember. Write your joys .. and your sorrows. Get mad if you need to, rant and rave. Laugh, too. Name names.
If you do this right, it could take a couple tablets (I took four .. legal size tablets.. both sides of the pages). It is important to put down as much as you can remember .. because when it is done, you are going to go outside to the nearest park .. somewhere with a barbeque pit. Make a nice little fire. Then you are going to tear off a couple pages of your tablet and throw 'em in that fire. Then tear off a few more ... All of the misery is going to go up in smoke .. cease to exist ..

As the misery is evaporating into smoke and ash, and drifting skyward .. bless the memories and let 'em go. Just let 'em go.
You are free.

As you walk away, realize you have a perfectly clean canvas in front of you .. the canvas is your life. The paints will be your dreams that you awaken one by one, whenever you need them. (That would be the list of ten things you want to do in your life..)

From that point on, take a cue from the Las Vegas commercials..what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas, right? Well, what happens today does not get dragged into tomorrow.
..........and what happened yesterday does not get dragged into your today.

Every day, do one thing toward one of your dreams, even if it is just drawing a picture of a beach house you'd like to build. Little things count. Visualize a goal .. where do you want to be in six months .. a year .. five years. If you do one thing every day toward those goals, you WILL have a dream come true.

So..do we have a deal? Will you try that '2 Page' plan?

Answer 2

Hi,I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling so down and hope that your thoughts of suicide will change in the future.Seeing a therapist helps but it's really up to you to make the changes in the areas of your life that affect you.If you are not on any anti depressants,get some prescribed and if you are and have been taking them for less than a month,have patience,the effects only start after,such time.If you have been taking them for a while and have no effects,try get them changed.Only you can sort your problems out.Here are some sites that wll help you boost your self esteem.Please don't end your life,it's not your decision to make,think of those who will miss you when you're gone and what a selfish act it really is...
Goodluck...

Answer 3

Suicidal feelings are common.
I know scores of people who have felt the way that you feel now.
Most of them carried on and their ability to deal with life's hardships improved as they became more experienced.

Give yourself a break, and give life a chance as no one deserves a life of misery.
It is your birthright to have some joy and contentment. Go out and get it!
And if you don't know how to do that, the internet is full of good info and inspirational stories.

Some psychiatrists are not really good enough. Ask for a second opinion. Don't let them prioritise drugs over quality councilling, that's a cheap fix that often doesn't work.

Answer 4

It sounds like you need weekly meetings with your doctor, and if he doesn't take your thoughts of suicide seriously, get a second opinion. Medicines help, but they must be the right ones. Suicide says there is no hope; DON'T believe that; there is always hope just around the corner.
Find someone sympathetic to you, and that has empathy for your problems. A lot of people don't seem to care, but if you let them know you are so depressed, they will be there for you. Most of us think we have to be strong, but don't lose your life, and your beautiful future by not asking for more help. Once a month is NOT enough when you are so hurt, depressed and wanting someone to care. PLEASE get help right now; don't give in to this feeling, as you will feel better when on the right medication, with the right doctor, and in a healthy environment.
Can you learn to focus on other things, such as ..if you think "No one likes me" change that to "I haven't met everyone in the world so I don't know that no one likes me". A reality therapist can help you realign your thinking, and teach you how to turn the negative into positive thoughts. God bless you, and please reach out and get help.

Answer 5

First of all, you should NOT commit suicide. Second of all, life may seem like it sucks right now, but believe it or not it does get better. Try to look at the bright things in life. Find people who will be there to support you and stand behind you when you go through the rough times. If you are on anti-depressants, ask your psychiatrist if maybe you should be on a different prescription. I've had depressed people in my family and they have had to change their prescription and it helped. You should definately call a suicide hotline. Please do it!!!!

Answer 6

When I read your question, it unnerved me, because you sound just like me.

i too have come very close to suicide, and I was seeing a councillor and a physiologist every week, I just did not seem to be getting any where with the therapy.

I went back to my GP and told them how I was feeling, and they put me on medication for depression and anxiety, I have been taking them now for just over a month and things have improved, not dramatically, but they have certainly taken the edge off the way I feel, and helped me to cope with life a little better.

Please go and speak to your GP,

Also I called the Samaritans when at my lowest they are very helpful.

Answer 7

really its a question of understanding why you feel this way...and accepting it...if you reject the feeling you are just covering it up for a while...if you know what makes you feel suicidal thats a good start...the next trick is to find someone who can really understand you...that doesnt give lip service or try to help...but merely hears and understands how you feel...im not saying you should give up your psychiatrist but that if its not helping then something more is needed as well...hopefully once you understand yourself a little more...and feel that someone else does too...maybe things may just slide into place and you may find that you start to feel a little better...maybe find something that captivates your interest...that makes you happy...and do it...allow yourself to enjoy it...always remember though that you will have times when you feel suicidal again...even after you begin to feel better...and you will feel down sometimes...everyone does......i wont patronise you by saying much more as i nor anyone else knows why you feel suicidal.....all i will say is that as corny as it sounds...time is the great healer here....and it will take time...persevere and dont lose patience with it....you will get there in the end...i hope you can live happy someday...;0)

Answer 8

Your Friend died in a car crash.
I bet they wanted to live.
I hate to state this, as I always do to these questions, and have a look yourself, loads of people ask this all the time on YA.

" Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem ! "

Try Glastonbury Festival this year, you then have something to look forward to each and every year.

x x

ps - at least 22 people, some up at 3.06am, are concerned enough about you to offer support, and we are complete strangers ! When you feel down, get a hug from someone immediately !

Answer 9

You have received lots of useful answers so I just want to send you a hoard of angels to give you a great big cuddle!
Hang on in there - it can only get better.
And by the way - if it's true that we come into this world to learn a lesson then move on to another life - if you end yours before your lesson is over, you'll just have to come back and do it all again. Better to fight through the dark patch - there is light at the end of the tunnel. Honest!!
Take care of yourself
Hope this helped.

Answer 10

Please dont give up hope! There are so many people out there going through the same thing as you. Nothing so terrible I have gone through has ever made me the first one to go through it. I have never had a phyciatrist, and it's ok if that doesnt help, but try and listen to the lessons instead of her voice. This is for you, and anything that helps, hold onto it with your dear life. Why on earth would you be put here if you werent ment to be here? Maybe you have heard this a dozen times, but God loves you more than you could ever know. Honestly, it's something you cant just think about, you have to believe it, and when you feel it, it's enough to make you conqure the whole day.
Life can be so horribly terrible sometimes. There are days even as a strong christian where I just want to die. But I know that I am not alone. The Lord is my rock, and my strong foundation, and if such good works and pleasure were not enough for me, I would have stopped being a christian a long time ago. It's not what the world calls it, or wants it to be. The greatest truth you will ever find is in Gods love, embrace His peace. Its all true. And I tell you, I am so imperfect.
But now, my life has meaning. I am able to look at a day, and no matter how pitiful I could be feeling, He talks to me, and asks me to trust him. Jesus Christ, God, and the Holy Spirit all in one, DESIRES a relationship with you. To deal with you personally and individually. He loves us all equally, but you will see how much he cares about just you. He's got so much love for each person, it's enough to dround you. I , and no christian who has served him even there entire life, can comprehend it.
It's a big step, and it may look scary, and maybe some people cover that fright by saying, it's not for me, Im not religious, excuses of all kinds, because the devil wants you to be afraid. He wants you to be utterly terrified and miserable, and feel like there is nothing else to live for. The bible says he goes about the earth like a roaring lion, hungry to consume unbelievers and people who are trying to reach for God's hand, and God's for theres. They are both fighting for you.
I am deffinently not trying to scare you. I dont want you to be afraid, but serving God makes the biggest difference in the universe. It's the greatest step up in your life you will take. Trust in his life. Get close to people who love him, see how your life will change. It's like entering a completely new world. A rebirth.

Go for it! Maybe sometimes christians sound like there throwing out a sales pitch, but I would never have stopped to speak to you if I thought the Lord did not care, or I didnt.
There is a completely other world that loves you, and you would be so suprised how many people love you now with all their hearts. Who knows, I might be going through one of the same things you are right now, not trying to compare my situation and try and top it off of course, I hate it when people do that. I feel so weak often, Im not so very strong at all, but it's God who has to stay strong, so he can help people like us. And "He is the same yesterday, today, and forever." If you need scripture talk to me, I can get you started.
The more you hold this strength God will give you the more beautiful life will become to you. He NEVER gives you more than you can handle, while the advirsary overwhelmes.
You are truly loved, I beg you, dont let this letter slip your mind, great blessings be with you my friend, and dont let things change your mind, you've got your very own gits, and God gave it to you for yours and His good pleasure. He is not manipulative, you'll never feel so freee!