Just want to know what you think...?

Question

You said you love me
"Do you?" I wanted to ask
But decided against it
Instead I remained quiet
You noticed, after all this was the third time you said the L word to me
The first two times had been while I was in a hurry
I heard you
I pretended I didn't
You assumed I hadn't heard you, so didn't try again
This time there was no hurry
And no noise to drown you out
So you knew I heard you
Out of all the things a guy could say after not hearing "I love you" back
You went with "What? You don't believe me?"
I again stayed quiet
You didn't push it, and just changed the subject
Later I talked to you on the phone
You said you wouldn't push me to say something I wasn't sure about
I tried to tell you the truth, but you had to go
I thought about it some more and affirmed what I already knew
That I do love you
My mouth just won't say it
I sent you a text, which I regret now, with those words in it
I don't know if you ever got it
(it continues, ill add it as details in a min)

You never mentioned it
Maybe you thought I sent it just to make you feel better
Because I knew you were struggling
But no, I sent it because I had a feeling you needed to hear me say it
And I knew that if I called you, my mouth wouldn't cooperate
I'm sorry that I didn't say it back
I was scared
I've been afraid of putting myself in such a situation
In which I could be regected
After all I was dumped for my best friend in third grade
Guess I never got over that
I loved it when you used to call me every day, you know?
Made me feel wanted
Hate it when I'm the one that has to call you
Makes me feel needy
Remember how I said I don't cry over guys?
I don't and I didn't when you dumped me
Wanna know a secret?
I'm crying right now while writting this
I'm not crying over you
I'm crying for you
Because I hate it that you're in pain
It hurts me when I see you hurt
Most of all it frustrates me that you won't talk to me
And tell me what's wrong
(not done yet)

Instead you say it has nothing to do with me
Not undestanding that anything that has to do with you has to do with me
Then you go away without telling me, about 3,000 miles to be exact
My heart sinks when I wonder about what made you leave
What was it that made you break your promise to go to your friend's wedding?
And consequently the one you made to be here for my birthday
"I'll talk later" you told me
Will you ever talk?
Do you even trust me?
Do you really love me?
I know that you want me by the way you kiss me
But do you love me?
Figure it out
I figured my feelings out
And I know I love you
I couldn't wait until this Sunday to tell you that
But you won't be there
But as I said before
I'll be here
Thinking about you
Praying for you
Crying for God to keep you safe
And waiting for you to be honest with me
Because I've always been honest with you
And I am now when I tell you I love you
Now it's your turn to do the talking
(DONE)

I only write when I'm upset, yes i did write this. just want to know what you guys think

Answer 1

I think you are writing one of those annoying poems that make no sense and have no literary value and than posting it on Yahoo Answers just to get a response/attention and all you get is a lack thereof.

Answer 2

keep quiet, spare us the rest.

Answer 3

I'm sorry what's your question exactly?

Answer 4

i think i fell asleep reading that..

Answer 5

did you write this?