Sometimes i feel....?

Question

like i can break down and cry. Today in class (6th prd) i got so sad that i almost went out of the classroom and ran away from school because i got so depressed. What wrong with me? i think its becuase i think im in love with my best friend, but he is giving hott/cold signals and mixed signals. I always feel down. I am a pessimist. I dont know because i love this boy he is the one who makes me the happiest girl in the world but than the maddest. he is the one who makes me mad ( i am beyond suicidal) and feel so down that suicide is always on my mind right next to his name. So what is wrong with me?

yES, But what does that have anything to do with it?

Answer 1

Have you tried talking to an adult that you feel listens to you? try telling your parents and if you can not say it in person then write it down.
You are still young, but that doesn't mean the feelings you have for your friend is any less real than that of an older woman's feelings. I will talk to you as if you are my age.
There are many boys in this world. None of which are worthy of suicide. Ever hear "How do you get that lonely" by Blaine Larsen? Listen to it. Might not be your style of music, but give it a try.
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To say nothing is wrong with you would be insulting your intelligence. It is clear you know there is something off inside of you. It is not what you think though. Every person out there has asked theirself that very question. Your mother, father, friends, cousins, grandparents, strangers, etc. We all have demons inside of us, issues, etc. The real question though is what are you going to do with it? How are you going to deal? Are you going to dance with your demon, feed it, or displine it, teach it to be respectful, make it understand that you are the one with the power not it.
What you are going through is not what others have done. No one knows how it hurts, no one can deal with it for you, no one knows but you. You can tell other people, and they in turn can claim they know, but they don't. A heartbreak is different for everyone yet the same.
Only you have the power to stop this, to say you have had enough. Only you can do something about it. If you need an ear that is willing to listen to you, you can find it. If you are not secure enough or not willing to share it with those around you, you can always tell me.
I do hope you will consider these last thoughts. You are in control. You decide. Everything that happens in life does so for a reason. It might be miserable, it might be worse than hell itself, but when you walk away from it, you will be stronger than before. You will learn something from it, making this experience one that will heighten your sences and knowledge. You will defeat it if you choose too.
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Answer 2

You're way too precious to be under someone's control. Never ever let anyone put you down or control your emotion. Talk to your best friend to release some of that sadness and frustration. Watch comedy show - do something that once interest you before this boy came along.

It's normal for girls your age to feel pressured and having mood swing. Talk to a counselor. Hang out with friends and take up other interests. Don't give in. You will be OK.

Answer 3

Sounds like you have depression, although it may be seasonal depression-a lot of people are affected by the loss of light and everything outside and that can change how they act normally. Talk to a psychologist, a good friend, get some help. I think talking to the guy about how you feel and get some closure somehow. Know that there are people that care about you. I've been there...just surround yourself with good friends. Pray.

Answer 4

if he was your true friend he would look after you forget about him and go into counseling

Answer 5

Got God?