do you think its bad if......?

Question

im 13 years old, and my school found out i was cutting and now im going to see a counselor/psychiatrist person im not really sure what she is but i've seen her twice, the first time i saw her she gave me this depression survey and i lied on it saying that i was less depressed and stuff than i really am and i dont know why i did that i just felt like i had to and i've lied to her on questions she's asked me and i wish that i wouldn't of and im having other problems then just cutting, like really hyper and cant pay attention at all or finish things, and i want to tell her these things but i cant. is there any way i can fix those things?
thanks

im not hyper cause i drink soda or anything like that cause i actually hate pop and probly only drink it like once a year when theres nothing else to drink, and im not hyper cause of sugar either, i dont really eat much sweet stuff, and when i do eat sugar its more like it makes me calmer, sometimes it gives me a headache

oh and this conselor/psychiatrist person im seeing, i have appointments set up with her already for the future, i think im going to be seeing her like once a week

im still cutting, and ive lied to people about that too, but i dont want to cut, but it helps, i dont know why it helps, it just does, and another problem is i cant tell anyone exactly why i cut, and i dont know why i cant do that either.......................

Answer 1

You sound COMPLETELY like me a couple of years ago.... I cut, and had depression/bipolar and ADD. (yeah i know- a lot of things!) I had to go see a counselor and I dreaded it. I clung to the banister and my parents had to literally pull me off of it and drag me into the car. And then once I got there I hid in the bathroom! That was three years ago.... I lied on my depression survey thing. And like you, I regretted it. But you can fix it! Trust me, those people see kids like me and you every single day. After a while I got to know my counselor and she is really cool. Just ask her if you can take the depression survey again. She probably wont ask why. But if she does, just say "I think I didn't answer some of the questions as best as I could have." For an entire year I was suffering with depression, but I didn't tell my therepist about this. She just thought that it was "anxiety" becuase that's all I told her. So I would just ask to take that survey thing again. And not only that, but be very honest with her. She will ask you questions and just answer them honestly. She won't think you're a freak; trust me. She'll only help. Probably get you on meds so you don't have to go through the pain you're going through every day. I know that pain, sweetheart and it's a nightmare. Oh, it sucks big time. So just email me if ya wanna talk to someone who's been through it all. I might be able to help ya out a little. You take care of yourself, and good luck! My email's [e-mail]


Love Amanda

Answer 2

No- it is not bad. You dont have anything to be ashamed of. You might not feel like it right now but you are a wonderfu and unique human being. If you are cutting yourself to relieve the pain then it is what it is. Nothing more and nothing less. Perhaps in the future you might want to open up to the counselor more but it may take time to trust someone new.

If you dont have an appointment with her in the future then find someone else that you can talk to. Someone who can help you get to the bottom of the pain but please dont judge yourself. Even the most amazing and wonderful people have gone through hard times. It is part of being human. This is just an opportunity for you to reach out to be the person you dream of.

If you cant find someone who understands close to you why dont you give these people a call?

1-800-dontcut (366-8288)

I think you will find many other teens who have or may feel the same way you do.

Answer 3

Oh Bubbles... you need to tell the counselor you're seeing. That person is a trained pro and will understand. Try telling her you didn't answer the depression survey the way you should have because you weren't certain of the confidence you were ready to place in her... but now you feel more confident with her and would like to answer the survey properly... The only person you are hurting by not speaking up and by lying is yourself... don't you think you've done enough of that already? I feel certain the lady will understand. If you're having a hard time telling her directly, write her an email or a note.

I hope you'll be okay. And I'll definitely include you in my prayers. I was having a hard time too (though I would not like to be a teen today... it's harder) but here's something that may help you stay the course and do what needs to be done to get help:

The way you treat yourself is the instruction manual you give to others to treat you.

So... go see or write to the lady. Do it for you. Only you count right now... not the counselor, not your parents, not your friends but YOU. Please, Bubbles... do it for YOU!

And if you want to keep in touch, you're more than welcome to email me and whatever you say will stay there. Take care sweetie...

Answer 4

If I were you...I would go back to your counselor and tell her that you weren't completely honest. She can't help you if she doesn't know the full problem. Don't be embarrassed. That's what she's there for. Who knows...maybe she went through the same thing at your age and that's why she wanted to help kids when she got older! You definitely need to get some help and have someone that you can just spill your guts to! Tell her everything! You're too young and beautiful to be cutting yourself! The quicker you come clean...the quicker she can give you the help you need. Then you can feel happy instead of feeling nothing at all. Good luck! =)

Answer 5

Try changing your diet and eating better. Cut out sugar and soft drinks especially colas. Drink decaffeinated tea and drinks. Eat more vegetables and eat tomatoes at least 4 times a week. You will be surprised at how your diet change helps.

Tell the counselor you have trouble paying attention and you feel anxious/hyper a lot. Do you know how to pray? Ask the Lord to give you peace inside and to help you study. Keeping asking the Lord until He helps you. God doesn't ignore us for too long. If we ask enough He steps in and helps us.

Answer 6

You definitely want to come clean with her. She can help you, but only if you tell her the truth. Don't worry about HOW to tell her, just say you misled her and that you really would like her help. She will ask questions to help you reveal what's really going on in your life. Don't ever be afraid of needing help when you can't cope or when you don't feel right. Sometimes getting help is the only way to enable yourself to feel good again. It's not a weakness to seek help. You are being your own best friend.

Answer 7

It is easier to come straight to the truth. Our clinicians at our clinic can mostly tell if someone is lying. If this goes on any further their can be consequences that you may not like. We have clients that we have had hospilized for several months if they did not stop, even to the point of a year at the state hospital. I am sure you have alot of supporters to help you, but it will need to stop, or may become more serious not to other people that are trying to help, but yourself. And you probably would not want to be hospitialized.

Answer 8

Hello,

I don't feel it's a bad thing that you did that I just think you need courage to deal with your problems because in the long run you will be happy that you did open up to someone that can mentor you and give you good advice.

Answer 9

i understand. i was placed on alot of meds at your age, respirtol, zoloft, and prozac, and placebo.
i was told that i was schyzofrinic, bipolar, manic depressive, anziaty issuses, and obsessive compulsive.
i know what its like and to be honest i used to lie to everyone and myself that i was ok but i whent down a path that was wrong and now i dont need all thoughs meds anymore.
despite that im curetly still on zoloft, and zoloft only, they dont really work unless you help yourself, there for the meds will take its course,, there are ment to supperese the moodiness, but you have to make YOURSELF happy

good luck

Answer 10

You have to tell her the truth if you want help. Sounds like you could have adhd and depression but no one can help you unless you tell the truth about how you really feel.