My experience in opus dei?

Question

I participated in the recruiting activities of a religious cult called Opus Dei when I was a Form six student. I was sexual abused by a girl of my age several times. One of my friends who also joined the activities of opus dei told me that the girl did the same thing to her. She did it to me several times under the eyes of opus dei priest (when he was giving talks to us). I remembered she put her hand into my clothes and touched my breast. The other time she put her fingers into my pants and fondle my bottom. When I was talking to somebody in the study room, she put her hand on my legs and touched them several times back and forth. At that time, a member of opus dei saw it and said nothing. I was so disgusting and upset even though it was happened 10 years ago, the memory is still very vivid and I cannot get rid of it in my nightmares. I was watching tele today and heard one of the male characters said he was not intended to put message on diaz's bottom.

I felt very uneasy right away and because that line made me think of the incident again and again. I was so shocked to learn of that because I thought no one can do any harm in front of god's eye. But I was wrong. She did it even in front of the eyes of the preist and one member. They know it, but said nothing, or even tried to hide things up in front of everybody. I reported the case to the police, and they tried to interview the member which I thought had witnessed it. I am so sure that she knows something, but she lied in front of the police and said she knew nothing or no one that was related to it. She said the whole incident was created by someone who hated opus dei and wanted to take revenge of them because they loved God so much. I cannot live with the lies anymore. Everytime I tried to get into the whole issue of prosecution and finding justice, they will do everything to protect themselves and hurt me again and again.

They did it so deliberately that my teaching careers went into failures. They smeared my character and I lost jobs many times because of that. I don't know what I can do to make them so angry. All I want is justice and truth. All these cold-blooded people tried to ruin the life and career of an innocent person, while keeping the person who committed grave sin in center. As far as I know of, that girl is still active in opus dei, may be she is looking for another prey. She was so successful in getting what she wants there, because she knows the silencing technique that opus dei used to deal with sexual abuse issues. I am so disappointed about the catholic authority who is trying to hide things up, initiate smear campaign against me and even say that I am a homosexual. I was so shocked to learn all of that. Up till now, the wound is still bleeding, and there is nothing I can do to heal it. I don't want my parents to know about the details of it because I don't want them to get hurt.

Because of the smear campaign, I lost my job and friends, I was admitted to psychological hosiptal four years ago. I was still haunted by the whole issue and the treatment that I received by opus dei.

I know you are not something that can give counselling services. But please tell me what to do. I need somebody's advice so that I don't feel I was dealing with it alone. I am so sick of the feeling of helplessness and hopelessness, which I always experienced before my mental breakdown. My doctor said I was hallucinating a lot of things about god and the end of the world. I even told them that I saw angels on the cross and that I was trying to fight with devils who wanted to take over the world from god. The doctors in the hospital heavily medicated me. Up until now, I was prescribed with drugs that make me fat. I am now very overweighted, and I have no social life because of low image.

My illness prohibited me from getting to know friends because I have a feeling that they will betrayed my as my friends in the church and opus dei did. I think I need exit-counselling and sexual abuse counselling. But I don't know how to get it from the place that I live with. I am working part-time and I don't have a lot of money to pay for the counselling session. I am in great pain and even thought of suicide at one point.

Answer 1

First off. I know what it means to be hurt by people who are supposed to be doing gods work. I was once beaten into a coma by a bunch of born-again-Christians, and because the prosecution screwed up on the case, they all walked away free men despite the pain they caused me. I realize now I'm living with Port Traumatic Stress disorder. I became violent, and hostile towards people. You need healing, you need to see a psychologist who can help you deal with this problem. You also need to show that you are not going to be intimidated by Opus De. You have to get up in their faces and tell them over and over again, that nothing that they say or do can change the fact that you were mistreated while under their care. You need to bring this to the attention of all who will listen. Write it all down, and have it published so that everyone knows.

Answer 2

Sounds like the basis for a great novel. Great work of fiction there.

I could figure that out pretty much from the beginning, when you claimed to have joined Opus Dei as a "form six student."

This despite the fact that Opus Dei does not take children as members.

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Answer 3

You must get counselling. Ask at the hospital or social services office if there is a place or phone number where you could talk to other rape victims. I think that if you get it out to others who understand how used you feel, you will feel better, and be able to better get on with your life. Good luck.

Answer 4

I wana said Happy Holidays

Answer 5

If you can, find a church (the denomination doesn't matter) and talk with a pastor. Any pastor would love to talk with you and help you.

You're in my prayers.

Answer 6

Why do I get the feeling that this is a load of hogwash? Oh, that's right, because it sounds so rehearsed.

Answer 7

you need help find a councelor