I SEEN MY BROTHER kill hisself...?

Question

I was 9 and i am now 15...I remember everything and I never did get counseling....there is not a day that doesn't go by that i do not think of him..I miss him dearly..
could i be crazy?? what kind of mental illnesses could i have...
He was schizo...what is the possibility of me being schizo....

I NEED LOTS OF INFORMATION SOO SOMEONE HELP PLEASE..?

Answer 1

I think you should ask your parent to take you to a psychiatrist in order for them to make a proper diagnosis. sorry to hear that.

Answer 2

I worked a little bit in a mental institution which doesn't by any means make me an expert on the subject but I also have chronic severe depression which means that I do know a little something about it. I know that schizophrenia is not necessarily hereditary. Missing your brother and re-living that moment is about as normal as it gets. Any person would re-act the same way in the same situation.
Based on what you are saying I do not think that you are mentally ill at all but I DO think that you should see a professional counselor to discuss what happened. He or she can establish if you are dealing with the trauma in a healthy way or if you are dealing with it in a self destructive way. If you are experiencing problems as a result of this traumatic experience he or she can work with you to get back on track.
Please remember that you will probably never forget what you've witnessed but you can get past it and grow from it and live a healthy life.
Don't be afraid of seeing a professional either...more and more completely healthy and sane people see therapists and are treated for all kinds of conditions....myself included.
Good Luck.

Answer 3

hmm, I'm sorry you've gone through so much at such a young age. How come you haven't been to a counselor? It is very normal to miss your brother. I don't think you are crazy, and just because he was schizophrenic does not mean you will be also. Pls Pls Pls try to talk at least with a school counselor/psychologist, and with your parents too, they will give you the love and advice you need in life. It was not your fault, and there was probably not much you could have done to change the things that happened. I wish you the best of luck, and i will have you in my prayers. =)
Also, the person above me has given you a good place to start...local churches might have counseling services for free!

Answer 4

I think you should consider making an appointment with a psychiatrist if you are concerned you may be developing similar characteristics. It's also possible you could have some kind of post traumatic stress disorder or you have tried to repress your memory of what happened and it is now affecting you psychologically.

My heart goes out to you, what you went through is just unimaginable. I do think it is important to receive some kind of counselling, because sometimes we experience something so traumatic that we push it to the back of our minds, deep within our subconscious. I guess it's our mind's way of protecting us in the short term, but these unresolved issues always have a habit of resurfacing later on and can affect your life if you don't deal with them.

Please take care : )

Answer 5

since i am a psych major and also see a psychologist (actually social worker, but just as good and cheaper) i would suggest you see a psychologist, not a psychiatrist. there is a big difference. psychiatrists main job is to prescirbe medicine. a psychologist is the one that will sit down and talk to you about your problems. and then there are different type of psychologist , there are counselors and therapist. then there is idfferent perspectives after that, behavorist, humanistic, biological, existential, psychodynamic/psychoanalytic, cognitive and many others. so if one psychologist does not help, try another. and dont think of seeing a psychologist as bad, a lot of people see them, there is nothing wrong with it becasue it can and most likely will help.

the schizophrenia problem, it doesnt really start showing in females til the 20's. it can show syptoms before though. and it is less common in females then males. i would suggest you research the disease and also a good point to start your research is the DSM-IV-TR. it is the diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders. it is what psychologist use to determine if someone has a mental disorder.

Another thing to think about is PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) yes you can have since you saw him kill himself. this is not just a disorder that veterans get, anyone who has experienced a traumatic situation, can have it, but it does have different severities.

so the best thing to do is go see someone about it, talk about it, dont keep it in, it might be hard to do at first, but it will help. the longer you keep it in the more it can affect you when you get older. also about the psychologist, talk to your health plan to see who they pay for, then go from there to pick your psychologist and remember, psychologist even see psychologist!!

Answer 6

Firstly, you are not crazy dear, don't ever think that - you had to go through something very painful and scary at a very young age and an experience like that inevitably has some affect - but you are not crazy for thinking about and missing your brother, you are just having a hard time coming to terms with your loss, because you've carried that burden with you for most of your life and kept it bundled up inside you.

It is likely that you are feeling very alone, which makes you even more scared. But trust me, I know from experience, you are certainly not alone - countless people suffer from the after effects of similar experiences and let it rule their lives or they talk to people they can trust and take the first steps towards feeling better - and there is no shame in admitting that you are suffering from a problem. Accepting it is the form step towards sorting it out.

I don't know your family history or yours, but I do not think you are suffering from anything as such, although many mental disorders are heriditary which means they can run in families.

I suffer from depression which can be caused by the subconscious anguish of grieving over the loss of a loved one among many other reasons - and it is obvious you have been through alot, and that may be what you are suffering from, having seen your brother kill himself at such a young age was also a terrible experience, and is likely to have left a psychological scar.

I think you just need to see a professional to help you through your time of need, ask your parents to find you a psychiatrist, speak to your school guidance counsellor, they are trained to help you come to terms with these traumatic events and help you through the post-traumatic symptoms. I hope you feel better soon, such a sight is not easy to forget.

If your feelings are affecting how you feel in everyday life, and affecting the way you perform at school or if they simply don't allow you to function normally in all aspects and make you unhappy or cause you pain or grief, it is good to try and get it sorted out.

- But in any case you won't find your answer here - It would do you the world of good to seek a professional opinion.

Answer 7

First off, you are not crazy if you can rationalize things so well, and if things aren't gettin in the way of your life I wouldn't think you are crazy. Unfortunately, some studies have shown schizophrenia to be a heritable disorder. If you are worried about it, I would suggest seeing a professional, they would know better than anyone here on Yahoo! Answers (unless they are a doctor, but you can't believe everybody nowadays). My deepest sympathies to you for your loss, I know how hard it can be. I have had 27 people around me kill themselves, 3 friends of mine were killed, and one of my friends was shot dead by her sister who was also a good friend. I saw 11 of these instances since I hung out with a pretty odd group of friends who should have got the help they needed. It is ones own personal choice to rise above circumstances like this, but it is possible. Best of luck to you.

Answer 8

Sorry to hear about that. I can see why your freaking out, but the only way to know for sure is to have your parents take you to see someone. Even if your okay, which you probally are, you need to get some help to get over those fears and your brother's death. There is no point is scaring yourself like this. Hope everything's okay.

Answer 9

The possibilities are there for all of us...If you need help..seek it..Therapy, counseling may do you some good. But your brother's illness does not mean you have to suffer too. It's okay to miss him, but don't alllow yourself to feel the compulsive curiousity of whether or not suicidal tendencies ar hereditary. God Bless you young lady.

Answer 10

If you feel that you are having irrational thoughts or having nightmares (interruptions in your daily life) seek professional help ASAP! You may want to go to a hospital with a pysch ward maybe for an evaluation! Seek counseling ASAP or maybe talk to a family member or friend.

Answer 11

I think that you should talk to your parents or anyone that you can trust about going to a doctor. Dealing with things like that would require a lot of therapy. As far as the mental illness, thats why you should go to your doctor and let him check you out.

good luck