Pain etches through my body, a dark evil spreading through. I want to scream and cry, yell and weep,
but I can’t, I have to be strong for the rest of them, I lost my last grandpa not long ago and I am slowly
losing this one two, then only one grand parent will be left, my world collapses one support at a time.
Why is it so hard? This winding road our feet travel? My heart trembles with sorrow, my soul screams,
help me someone, save me from this hell, I just want my life back, how it all used to be. My mommy
cries my daddy is quiet, my sister plays as if nothing is wrong. Can’t they see the pain twisting around
me, suffocating me with feelings of hate and sorrow. I don’t know how long I can take this. This pain
that eats me piece by piece. I want to cry, scream and yell, how can I make this pain leave me be!? Is
sleep the only escape our will death be my savior? I have no clue what to do, my life is almost gone.
My grandpa was just announced to carry the disease called cancer. I weep inside, my soul screaming
with sorrow and pain. Maybe one day, somewhere far, I will have 2 grandpas 2 grandmas my mom
and dad, my happy sister, and our dog named baby I love so. Maybe in a world far away everything
will be perfect then. The urge for suicide creeps into me, Maybe it will steal me of my sorrow, but I
know death is not the answer, so I’ll sit her on god’s playing field and watch my family slip away into
the jaws of the monster of time...
2006-12-16 14:56:58 · 10 answers · asked by Midnight-Star 1 in Family & Relationships ➔ Family
Why, that was very poetic.
Cheer up, sweetheart :)
I never even met any of my grandfathers (both succumbed to one form of cancer or another)
If you kill yourself, no one will be able to hear your wonderful poetry.
2006-12-16 15:17:23 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
Sweetie, you are going through the five normal steps of grieving. Everyone on the planet goes through this when they are losing someone or they have lost someone, or both. The steps can last for different time periods depending on the individual.
1) Denial
2) Anger
3) Bargaining
4) Depression
5) Acceptance
You sound very strong at heart because your poetry is beautiful although it is sad. You will naturally come out of this grieving stage on your own however if you really feel suicidal, try a light anti-depressant until you reach number 5. Good luck. I will pray for you and your family.
2006-12-16 23:05:58 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
Wow! I am truly sorry that you are going through so much sorrow. I am assuming you are fairly young. I urge you to try to find a counselor or someone to talk to. Losing loved ones is a part of this life. It is very difficult to say the least. However, there are good things to this life too. God put you here for a reason and has a plan for you. You write very well; I hope you will continue to pursue that. I wish for you peace!
2006-12-16 23:07:34 · answer #3 · answered by Yahoogirl 5 · 1⤊ 1⤋
that was beautiful i mean that sounds like something id write about when im at my worst u just need to get it out and writing is the only way u can do it releasing all the pain and frustration building up u think that no one sees ur pain and suffering and u just want to die but ive been throughe it others have been through it and survived u just have 2 be strong and hold on to the that little self preservation that u have and just believe that u can survive and get throughit all believe it or not every1 in ur family is being affected and the way they behave is because they can cope with their grief in that way without doing something that cud cause further trauma and sadness
2006-12-16 23:20:03 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
wow! what an amazing poem of pain and love. I can fell the pain you fell I can see the tears running down your red cheeks. I can understand the strong love you have for your family... I can understand as I lost close people to my heart as well and Ive gone true that pain. Your family must be going true the same pain and I think you should speak about your sadness with them that way you may not fell so lonely...you need to talk and let it out. Comfort others and let them comfort you to. You can not go true tough times by your self, you need the people you love to know what your going true and let them give you the support they want to give and don't forget the love you give to others It's shared back.
All my love, Flory
2006-12-16 23:27:16 · answer #5 · answered by Tina 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Talk about it. Do not let it build up because you will explode. Talk to your mom, comfort her and let her know that one day you all will meet again. Keep your dad company talk about your day how it went what kind of people were on the roads today. Let your sister be. Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourselves! Everyone has to go sometime! Make the memories joyable and do not dwell on the deaths. Talk about happy times and visit with other family members. Pray to God and he will surely be there for each and every one of you! God will never put more than you can handle on your plate.
2006-12-16 23:09:13 · answer #6 · answered by sweetgurl 1 · 1⤊ 2⤋
This happens in life and it may be hard but we need to pull thru, be strong. Just spend as much time as possible with your loved one. Never let him/her see you cry over her soon coming death. Just enjoy the time you have left. Remember all of the good times you guys had. Talk to them like they are just sick and will soon be fine. Dont tell them "i will miss you so much when you..." yah kno. Just tell them you love them twice as much and give them plenty of hugs and kisses. Love will keep you alive.
2006-12-16 23:11:52 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
Thats soo sad,I understand everything you're going through.I lost my best friend in June,My other friend in October,my stepdad in Auguest and all of them in 2006.It hurts I know.
2006-12-16 22:59:12 · answer #8 · answered by DiamondXxx 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Quite over dramatic.
2006-12-16 22:59:05 · answer #9 · answered by Answergirl 5 · 0⤊ 1⤋
oh my god that was soooo beautiful i almost cried reading that! that was sooo emotional!!!! that was very good it expressed pain sadness and anger and most importantly LOVE
2006-12-16 23:02:18 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋