I was clinically depressed and had anxiety disorder. I have come a very long way but I had (actually kinda still have) one other symptom that none of the councelors I ever talked to seemed to address. I had almost no emotions ever. I had no emotional connections to anyone or anything in my life. It used to scare me because it felt like I was some kind of psychopath although I never tried to hurt anyone. However, I often thought about some pretty bad things. For the last six months my emotions have been turning back on and I have barely been able to keep up with them. Love, sadness, anger, joy, endless frustration, hope, happiness, pain from imagined loss and they each hit me like a damn freight train. Has anyone experinced this or heard of anything like it. They always say a symptom of depression is feeling sad or empty but nothing like what I felt. I felt completely dead. No identity, no emotions, just nothing. Thank God it's over. Anyone know anything about this.
2006-12-15 17:04:24 · 6 answers · asked by dejectedmarlboro27 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
definetly not bi-polar, I know all about that disorder. This is something different.
2006-12-15 17:18:41 · update #1
I FOUND IT!!! These are the symptoms of loneliness. Thank's wikipedia. Loneliness sucks!
2006-12-15 17:33:46 · update #2
I won't go into all the details about my ordeal, but I felt all those things myself.
It's been several years now and i have learned how to 'take
control' of my life, including my emotions.
And if I can do it, then so can you!!!
And you are partly right, however it is actually a form of self
seclusion.
Because of the feelings we were having and the added torment
of lurid thoughts, we chose to seclude ourselves from society,
only adding to our torment.
As far as I know there is no medical, or scientific name for this.
I just called it 'hell'.
What brought me out of this nightmarish existence was finally coming to grips that I needed help.
I got help just like you, but i couldn't shake the ever present
lonliness that kept me miserable most of the time, 'until'
I 'FORCED' myself to 'get real', to be a part of this world and the people in it.
Little by little I did things (outings) that kept me in close contact
with people, and to my utter delight I found myself talking and laughing with others, who are now my friends.
Now I 'love' life and I 'love me too'..
2006-12-15 17:51:12 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
This is just a theory of mine. It comes from my own personal experience and experience with therapists. I think they never discussed your lack of emotions because they were waiting for you to express them when you were ready to. Of course I don't know that for a fact.
I bet all those emotions DO feel like a freight train hitting you. I have a feeling you have had emotional connections to something or someone in your life but you haven't allowed yourself to feel it yet or remember it. The emotions you are feeling are connected to something and even the good emotions can feel good yet scary. I suffer from anxiety and for sometime I did things to block out what I felt because I felt like I could feel everything. It was like I felt too much. Feeling emotions for me was scary so I shut them off. Now the feelings are "on" and it is good to feel. I don't know if all this has a clinical name it's just my experience. Maybe because of your anxiety you "turned off" your feelings, pushed them away as a way to cope with your depression. Maybe you lived like that for so long that you forgot how it all started. Now the feelings are come back and it is like meeting a lost part of yourself.
2006-12-16 01:27:42 · answer #2 · answered by mia 5 · 0⤊ 1⤋
you're not bi-po.you just ain't got your med's right which would be the fault of your doc's.what you describe is typical of depression.you just need to find a doc that cares enough to regulate the proper medicines at the proper dosage's.i suggest finding an agency through one of your local hospitals that are state funded,they care more than others do.you might even contact your local county court house and find out where their"mental health specialist"operate from.
2006-12-16 01:44:17 · answer #3 · answered by jgmafb 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Sounds like bi-polar disorder pal .ask your doc to do a checklist and diagnose your symptoms again ......
2006-12-16 01:12:11 · answer #4 · answered by cesare214 6 · 0⤊ 1⤋
you could be bipolar, do some research on it and talk to a doctor who specializes in mental illnesses not just a counselor.
2006-12-16 01:09:38 · answer #5 · answered by mrsmohio 1 · 0⤊ 1⤋
if your young its prob your concious turning on .. My friend said the same thing, she used to get in trouble a lot b.c of it but shes fine now..
2006-12-16 01:29:14 · answer #6 · answered by jax p 1 · 0⤊ 1⤋