I need Mental Help (borderline Disorder)?

Question

Hello, I’m here to look for help because I can’t find it and I’m really desperate, please be serious in your answers.

Since I was a kid I always feel sad, alone and strange; with suicidal ideas.

When I was 13 I start to feel worst and start to have problems sleeping. And when I was 16 I start to be medicated (I used to take Haldol, altruline, trileptal and Rivotril ) that was my first prescription) my mom take me with another doctors and they remove some drugs and change my Dx.

When the last Dr. remove almost all my drugs; I don’t what happen but i start to feel better and that was like a 3 years period.

But know, I’m sick again (a lot of Depression!!!) I’m going from a Dr to Dr to find a cure, but I can't. Being honest , I don’t know if I can still trust on doctors.

So… do you know if there’s something that I can do to be better? Like exercise? avoid caffeine? Read some kind of books? What I can do?

I’m currently 24y.o., I’m an engineer, I lose my job, I’m still on therapy (with a psychology ) and my last Dx was Border limit Disorder (6months ago)

I Hope you can help me. I wanna be ok.

Sorry the grammar, English is not my first language

Answer 1

Hi... Here is an answer I have given several times already and I repeat it here as it is worth doing so. I have borderline too... and do not take any drugs for it... so I hope this helps..


I suffer from depression, anxiety, panic attacks and stress....

I can not take any of the medicines that doctors prescribe for these conditions they tend to make me worse... so I have had to do the following to keep myself on an even keel...

Find a good counsellor attend sessions weekly for three months... take a break then do it again... repeat as long as is required..

Exercise: This is not the 101 situps ten mile run kind of exercise..... Just simple exercise like walking swimming or cycling for at least 20 minutes each day... do this very day... do not push yourself too hard at first walk powerfully enough to start tofeel your heart working and then slow dow a bit then build it up again..Do not hurt yourself or push yourself too hard or fast...be kind to yourself even if it takes you a year before you can exercise steadily for 20 minutes that doesnt matter it is just important that you do this daily and do it with gentleness towards yourself.

Eat fresh foods as much as possible. include grains fruit and vegetables in every meal... be creative when preparing meals and use a lot of colourful foods to make eating a true pleasure. Prepare and eat your food while listening to some pleasant music. Make eating a wonderful gift to yourself.

Drink more water: Water flushes toxins out of your system drink lots of water...

Take up a creative pursuit: this can be gardening (nothing fancy here stick a geranium cutting in some dirt and add water) drawing ( a pencil and paper and away you go) music make music with whatever you have, paint, write anything that gets the creative energy flowing,

Learn to pray, meditate and or contemplate.... there is lots of info on the net about prayer and meditation and contemplation means just being quiet with yourself... noticing little things, allowing your mind to gently explore things..

Join an interest group... real time gatherings are best rather than net groups... spending time with other people who have a common interest is an easier way of being with people as the focus is not on you or them but rather on the topic at hand, there are interest groups for many different kinds of interests, lapidary groups (gemstones rocks etc), writers groups, local history groups, motor cycle clubs, land regeneration groups, photography groups, parenting groups, walking groups (bush walking, power walking), pet care groups, charitable groups and organisations. Find a group that you share an iterest with and get involved.

Listen to music that you enjoy and explore a whole range of music like indigenous music from various countries, classical music, opera, rock, blues, listen to many kinds of music and build your cd collection.

Spend time sitting on the ground leaning against a big old tree.. feel the earth supporting your weight, notice how the tree supports your spine allow yourself to feel safe and supported by the universe.

Spend time outdoors in the sunshine and fresh air... the sun interacts wit your body to create some happy chemicals in your body. The fresh air allows your lungs to breathe in and circulate more oxygen.

Laugh! Get some comedy cds or dvds or go out to comedy shows and funny movies. Buy a good joke book and read it. Learn a new joke each week and share the joke with others. Spend time allowig yourself to build up to a good belly laugh. Hang out with people who are funny.

Keep a daily journal. You dont need to record everything. Just record some of your activities, thoughts and ideas for each day.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF
There is no point in being hard on yourself, being negative about yourself, putting youself down.... trust me there are enough people on the planet who will do that for you so don't you do it too.... Instead find the good things about yourself and remind yourself about all of the good things about you.. When you think of good things about yourself record them in your journal...

You can of course combine several of these things.... be outdoors with a group of people that are exercising and you will achieve several of these points in one go... So don't fret about this list seeming long... just introcude one or two of these things to your daily/weekly routine at a time and get used to doing it... don't make it too hard on yourself it is more important that you do these things than how well you do them... just add one and get used to it then add another...

Best of Luck with it all and I am sure you will find a way that suits you..

Answer 2

first of all don't panic, coz you are still young and from what you wrote you sound absolutely normal and good thing is you know your problem. don't give up to seek professional help because you will need their help and take appropriate drugs, you should trust them. i suggest you to search on internet to find some pyschological association or doctors association for recommending you some doctors. apart from that you should do more exercise example jogging, and do voluntary works, i feel much happier after doing voluntary work. and it's not necessarily to tell people you have such problem. don't worry a lot of people have depression some include my friends and they recovered after taking medication. and i think you may try getting a new job instead of just always stuck at home. make friends and share more time with your family.

Answer 3

I know you want a quick solution, but there is no such thing. You are the cause of your depression because you can never control a situation but you can control how you react to it. You have to choose to not let the little things bother you and you have to choose to to see the big picture. You need to think more with your head and less with your emotions. Don't get upset if you are running late and you get stuck in traffic, getting upset is not going to move the cars in front of you any faster. You get the idea here, I'm sure.
I hope you feel better, choose to be happy!

Answer 4

Maybe make an appointment to see a neurologist and have a CAT scan done maybe a PET, get an EEG and EKG. And have him explain the results to you so you understand their conclusions. Try taking the Myerrs Briggs Personality Inventory and several other written tests. Basically go the physical doctor route to see if there's something going on with your actual brain as opposed to just your personality. Good luck!

Answer 5

I am 19 and have had these same problems.
it is so frustrating, i have also had trouble in work, relationships and everything else.
many scuicidal thoughts,
many medications.

but i am off them now.
what really helped me was changing my thoughts about my "condition".
i had been this way my whole life and had developed a story about myself and i made my depression a part of my identity, not a brain dissorder.
i finally realized that this is simply a chemical imbalance in my brain and that there are always going to be those bad thoughs in my head. BUT THOSE THOUGHTS ARE NOT MINE. they belong to my imbalance, not me and i am in control of my brain. (by knowing that i actually AM in control of my brain, for the first time in my life)
I sometimes still let those thoughts take over and i get caught up in it. depression is firmilular to me. i have felt it all my life. and some part of me feels weird when i am not depressed.

it is like a catepillar sheading its crysalis and becomming a butterfly.
i was a catepillar at one time. but inside i have always been a butterfly.
you have to remember that you are a butterfly inside, behind all those bad thoughts.
you are bigger than your brain dissorder.
i suggest guided meditation, inspiring music and art and anything that can make you feel good and see that you are ok.
i hope this helps,
it has really helped me.
remember that you are good.

Answer 6

www.helpmyhead.com
This can help, tell them you are funds limited and could you have a discount, they are very flexible, especially if you become a regular.

Answer 7

This might be helpful
http://sensitive-psychoworld.blogspot.com/