Extreme Rage?

Question

I'm a 19 year old female and lately I've been having these feelings of extreme rage. I can literally feel the anger rushing through my body and if anyone even says one word to me, I go off. The worst bout I had, I was so angry that I sat rocking in my room for nearly an hour, scratching my wrists. I now have two huge scars from this fit. It feels like I'm just going to explode. Then later on I'm a perfectly normal mood. What's happening to me/ I also have trichotillomania, a condition that causes me to pluck hairs from my body. I have had it since I was like 7. But this disorder calms me down during my fits. I've tried talking to my mom about it but she doesn't think I need any help. I'm going through one of my fits now and I just need some help. I've seriously had very violent thoughts about people that I care about and I just want this to stop. That's all. Thanks for your help.

Answer 1

That's one of the few problems that I deal with. I get intense obsessional rage and I am unable to calm myself down because it feels like a physical thing, not just a mental thing. I had rage issues as a child with tantrums and it really started to get out of hand when I was about 14. I've had all violent relationships with boyfriends and my mom because I cannot stop it. My mother refused to get me help because she was against teenagers being on medication so I only got worse since regular counseling could not help something I felt was chemical. I used to bang my head against the wall or get in my car and psychotically look for the person that pissed me off so I could confront them. I'd drag people out of bed and scream at them because I wanted help but they would just get mad and me and call me crazy. Next thing you know, I'd be hitting them trying to get them to take me seriously.

I was able to stop hitting people when I was about 25 but the homicidal thoughts never went away. I want to kill people I love and anyone on the street that says anything sleazy to me.

It's usually set off if I'm upset/sad or disappointed by something. I start with crying and it ends up turning into intense rage and hatred toward the person that upset me. If they refuse or cannot make me feel better I want to kill them. I'm 28 and I still have this problem.

I just got help a few months ago and I'm on Lexapro for depression but it's not helping with the anger. I'm also on Ativan for anxiety/panic attacks and that seems to be helping to control the rage because it's a sedative and it keeps me calm. The Ativan is just a short term fix because it's addictive and I shouldn't be taking it every day for too long. I don't know why this is happening to me but I'm still working on it with my psychiatrist.
No offense to your mom but she sounds like my mom and my mom was NOT helpful at all. She just didn't get it because she didn't have any problem like that. Try going to some sort of walk in clinic and see if they can direct you to someone or some place that can help you. I don't know your insurance situation but if you don't have any, there are many places that take payment on a sliding scale. Don't listen to your mom if she thinks you don't have a problem.

Answer 2

You need to go see a doctor ASAP. Possibly hormones. Possibly bipolar disorder. Discuss with DR let them do tests.

Answer 3

It appears that you need to take anger management classes,Im sure you can find one to attend through mhmr......your doctor could recommend one to you.