i dont think im a lesbian...there aren't lesbian's in my country..its a taboo in our society.
i do go to church..
i dont watch porn...
or drink..or party.
i never looked at my friend with a lusty feel..or a feel to have sex with her..
which i dont even know how it would be like..cause we both are females...
so its impossible to be a normal sex..
i dont want that with her..
i just want to have her with me life long..
living together under one roof.
while she is a muslim...
she is not a religious muslim..she doesnt pray or wear the headscraf.,
but her family has the values.she practices meditation..
she is very much modern..i admire everything about her..her sense of style and her sharp and attractive features.
maybe,
IT IS ADMIRATION...AND I ALWAYS THINK ITS LOVE..
AND I TEND TO THINK I WANT HER LIFE LONG..
recently,i have been spending money on her..for her personal things..and a mp3 as a gift,i got it for her though she never mentioned that she wants it from me..i just ahd the feel to do it for her,..because of her financial contraints
i have been helping out with her education fund..while im still a student at a university...
im doing all i can for her...
but i think im just destroying myself...
i need a lot of time...to get rid of my thoughts on her..as i have known her for 7 years and been deeply into her past this 3 years..
2006-12-11
21:06:09
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