Not a question. Im so down I don't know what to do. Ive seen all types of doctors.?

Question

I abuse pills, Im 29, my father that I never really knew Is now sleeping on the living room floor. He's a alcholic. Not a drunk, but beer Is part of his breath smell and hygen Is like really bad. I cant work and havent for over two years. I broke my left heel and right ankle. Ligaments and tendons are torn and I can bairly walk. I dont sing karoke anymore or play my guitar for the lack of truth. Im 250 lbs and only 6' 1". My girl has changed drastically towards me. Frinds or shall I say friends I thought I had dissapeared. Im very Intelligent but cant get over depressed feelings. My mom hit two people walking 2 months ago, where the guy almost died from head trauma and now my mom Is mentally shot. She's 64 yrs young, yet old If you know what I mean. My family Includeing my sisters have been abused all our lives. Even my sisters have been devistated by him. Broke, lost my mustang that I loved. Writing on this website cause Im lost. God exist. My name Is Steve,and Im sorry you know....

Answer 1

Others have it worse! You do wake up every morning! Remember Steve, you can only control what you do....not what any one else does or feels!
Your only looking at the bad things in your life....turn it around! I 100% know how you are feeling, I'm 32 yrs old, I was married then divorced 7 yrs later...I'm now a single mother of 4 little girls....I drive to Mexico to get pills every other month....men approach me and say, "I cant believe you don't have a man..your beautiful!"...But I cant put my guard down!.....I had 2 yrs of a abusive relationship....finally got out, things where looking good...then 2 months later, I had a major stroke...who has a stroke at 32??? I'm healthy...It doesn't run in the family....just a damn blood clot in my Left side of my brain....I was a veggie for 2 months....that was 7 months ago....i wished I was dead!! But my girls need me....Now, I go to the gym twice a day, and wake up every morning thanking God for another day!! So stop thinking about all the bs...focus on the positive and have faith!! Snap out of it!!! Keep your head up....we will still have some bad days, but the good days will make up for those!!

Answer 2

If you were seriously considering harming yourself or someone else, then the doctor would tell your parents. This is true until you reach the age of 18 and then your life is yours to live freely. I used to go to a shrink and I was hesitant to tell her a lot of things because she felt the need to blab absolutely everything to my parents. I'm still really mad about that. Is there anything you can do yourself that will bring you out of the dumps? Are you physically active? If not, you may want to start because exercise does help a lot of people feel better as a chemical imbalance in your brain is causing what you're feeling. Drinking water can also help you a lot, so try that. Make sure you're eating a healthy diet. You've probably heard all this a million times before, but it's true. Just take my word for it, please? Don't assume you're doomed to be helpless just because your doctor will tell your parents-try to "get better" on your own. P.S: 15 was a really sucky age for me too. I absolutely hated it! Things will get better when you turn 16!

Answer 3

I am sorry you are going through such a rough time but that is what it is. Now is the time to pick yourself up because no one will do it for you. To start maybe what you need is to get a better doctor and get on some anti depresents. I am not saying that as a joke. It just sounds like because of everything that is going on in your life you are depressed as well. First step is to start feeling better about you, you can not fix your parents and don't expect to but you do not have to follow the same course that they are on. Start to exercise your leg so that it can get some strength in it. My daughter had the same thing happen to her and we could not afford a physio therapist so we researched the net and found exercises she could do to strengthen her tendons and give her, her mobility back and guess what it worked. She started walking more and more and before you knew it she lost the extra pounds and she felt good about her. Nest step join some free groups and there are a lot of them whether it be on the net or out in the real world. You need someone to be encouraging you not knocking you down. Once you start helping you, you will see a difference in you and your friends will as well. They may not all come back but the ones that don't were not real friends any way. So get up off the couch and off the pitty train and start working on you and remember you can make a better life for you if you really want it. Just remember you are worth it and there are people out there that really do care and want you to succeed. NOW JUST DO IT!!! Best of luck to you.

Answer 4

Steve hi. My name is Vonnie. What country do you live in? Your message is a cry for help, and heres hoping that by doing this you will get this help. After what you have and are going through, it is no wonder that you feel the way that you do. You only worry when you have had a good life and feel the way that you do right now. You need to see somebody. If you are in the USA, why dont you write to the Dr Phil show. that man is fantastic they way he helps people like you. I suffered from depression for 10 years and only when I took an overdose to end it all, did I get the help that I needed. I have been fine for 15 years now, and that is why I know that it can be treated and you can turn your life around. Feel free to ctc me via this site. Even if you just need to talk. I will always listen.

Answer 5

Steve, your not alone life is hard I can sit here and tell you my problems and I have many and worries but that will not help you . What I started doing is getting me old cowboy movies and watching them that takes me back when I was a kid and was happy do some thing like that . And as for your girl hell let her be she needs her space I'm sure it's hard for her as it is for mine. And as for your dad well if he's at your house ask him to leave and if your at his house try to move out but plan ahead . I wish you the best and hope things get better . Your not alone take care and God Bless ..You always have all of us here on Yahoo I know this thing here has helped me ..

Answer 6

Get work or u and friend move where there is work..leave all this pain behind ..keep in touch with your sisters but plz leave this enviroment..changing your enviroment can break your depression. stop abusing prescriptions... I will say prayer 4 u..it sounds cliche' but it also works .. good luck!

Answer 7

at 29 you should find alternative accommodation and report the abuse if it is still happening then find a good friend and a good doctor to confide in

Answer 8

If all these things have really happened in your life then you need serious help and pills are not the answer your need counseling or professional help

Answer 9

Two thoughts;

1)you need anti-depressants really bad

2)maybe you should try for social security if you can't work, as messed up as you sound, they might give it to you.

Answer 10

steve, you have to find someone to talk to and to cry to. troubles dont last always and the sun will shine after awhile. so sorry but i will keep you in my prayers.