I don't know what TO DO!?

Question

I Really do not want to live anymore. I haven't wanted to live in over three years now. I really wish I could take my own life but the problem is I am really scared of dying. I wish I could just tie a rope around my neck, but I am too afraid. PLEASE HELP ME! WHAT DO I DO! I REALLY WISH I DIDN'T FEEL LIKE THIS! I WISH I COULD JUST LIVE A NORMAL LIFE, AND WANT TO LIVE LIFE, NOT END IT.

I have no friends, I don't want any friends. All i want, is to be happy. It is not working, & I can't take living each day, argueing & fighting with the only people I come in contact with. I am unable to completely be on my own two feet, cause I have had one broken for over six months now (LIT.) My dad is my landlord and tries to kick me out over and over because of my ex fiancee, who should already be my husband, but my father ****** it all up, when I had to make a choice. Things are just crazy, and I have no one to talk to, and I fear calling those hotlines. I just wish there was a way to speak to a psychologist via internet. It would be so much easier. There is so much going on in my head, and I really do not want to kill myself, I just wish somehow, something would kill me, and I wouldn't feel it. Maybe I'd get lucky... PEOPLE, PLEASE DON'T WRITE BACK "GET A LIFE" OR "SHUT UP" BECAUSE SERIOUSLY, I DON'T NEED TO HEAR IT FROM A PLACE WHERE I AM COMING AND TRYING TO GET HELP!!

Answer 1

Isn't it weird that the guys answering are such ******* and the women have compassion and intelligence and sense?

You REALLY need to attack depression with professional help. There is nothing wrong with that. If you were having trouble breathing, or heart palpitations; even if you had a spider bite or carpel tunnel, you'd go see a doctor. But when it comes to mental health, people don't go to professionals. Part of it is because those first three ******* who think you should just "snap out of it" represent so much of how society thinks. Part of it is because it seems like an admission that you're crazy. So it continues to grow in you until you're on the verge of suicide and looking for help from Yahoo.

I know, a professional psychotherapist or analyst can save your life and relieve you of incredible pain. A knowledgeable professional can help with a combination of drugs and therapy/conditioning that will literally change your life. So many advances have occurred that can help you, but you have to make the first phone call. You have to call the crisis hot line and take it from there.

Stop listening to the idiots and ******* who think you should just get a hobby. You need more than the well meaning people, myself included. You need help, and I mean that in the most basic sense. You need a caring, professional loving person who is willing and knows how to help. Call the suicide prevention hot line and talk to someone about this.

It's a first step.

Answer 2

OK, first of all if you seriously think you might take your life stop reading this now and call 911.

Now I don't know you and what you're going through but I'll try to give you some advice and questions you can ask yourself. Sound good?

Have you seen a Psychiatrist? There may be something wrong with your brain chemistry and he/she can prescribe drugs to correct it. If you're already taking something, maybe you need to try something different. There are many anti-depressants on the market and everyone is different.

Try to play sports, take a long walk, exercises. Physical activity literally releases things in your brain that help.

You need to find a therapist if you don't have one. They will not solve all of your problems for you, but they will help you see choices you may not have been aware you had.

Do you have a hobby like writing, painting, crafts, modeling? If you do, spend as much time doing it as you can. If not, get one. It will give you a feeling of accomplishment.

Take your life slowly. Set small goals for yourself. Don't take on more than you can handle, but do SOMETHING each day. The important thing is to move forward, even if it takes a while.

Do you have a friend you trust? If so, talk things out with them. But make sure it's someone close. Even in 2006 a lot of people do not understand what depression is.

I will keep you in my thoughts.

Answer 3

The fact that you're afraid to die is a good thing, because most people who attempt suicide realize they don't want to die halfway through the attempt, which is especially tragic when people succeed at it.

Please go see a qualified psychologist; your case is definitely a serious one.

As for myself, when I was chronically depressed and afraid I might commit suicide I found a lot of help in Buddhism and chanting. I knew that if I were feeling suicidal I could just start chanting and not stop until the feeling passed, and this may have saved my life. If you're interested, do a search on SGI (Sokka Gakkai International), since that's the organization I belonged to.

But most importantly, get counselling. Many, many people recover from severe depression with therapy.

Good luck to you. Hang in there and you will make it.

Answer 4

oh my god! why wouldn't you want to live? you should know that being born as a perfect human being isn't something everyone can have. take a walk down the park and admire god's creation.. oh, wait. that's dumb and boring. you could call up a friend and ask her how she'll feel if you were no more. you'll be surprised and touched with your friend's answer. call up a dozen of people and ask them the same question, or just sit down and think of the amount of people who are involved in your life and how they'll feel if you're no more. the answer would most possibly be, EMPTY. seriously. you have to fight all the sadness and depression and misery in your way.. they are all obstacles which have to be fought and not taken. live your life to the fullest and enjoy each second. cheers mate!

Answer 5

It sounds like you are under alot of stress right now. This can definatly be contributing to your depression, yes I believe you are depressed, hence wanting to die. It can be very challenging when the brain is in conflict with itself. The funny thing is, it may not be able to help it. Thoughts of death or suicide can also be considered part of OCD. Of course the advice that most people is giving you, to see a proffesional, is good. Hobbies can help keep you occupied, but can also leave your mind free to wonder, that may not be so good. Why don't you try both, keep yourself busy and seek help. If the thoughts become to severe you could always use one of the hotlines or go to the ER. I know that your probably feeling that you are the only one who is going through this right now, but your not. You won't belive me, but it is true and help can be gotten.

Answer 6

please please talk to someone. i can relate to where you're coming from. when you feel as if there is no where to turn. and nobody cares. but listen, suicide is a permanent fix for a temporary problem. i got help, i'm now on anti-depressants and feel 100 times better. it worked for me, but then again, i didn't let myself think about taking suicide that seriously. a family friend committed suicide and i know the after-effects of the tragedy. you end up hurting the ones that love you the most. and that's selfish. don't take your life, please. call a suicide hotline, i have a medical plan thru work that provides counselling services that i used and they helped soooo much. it helps to talk your problems out with somebody that doesn't have a biased opinion on your situation. it's like starting a fresh slate. i was the last person i thought would talk to a psychiatrist, but trust me, it helped to bring me up when i was at my lowest. even once or twice really helps. if u don't have a medical plan, they do cost alot, but there are free hotlines, like 1-800-suicide and others, just take a look online and there are hundreds of free services you can take advantage of. you don't want to end your life. i know you're probably going thru a really hard time. but that's not the answer...please help yourself, your life is worth so much...good luck with everything!!!! god bless!!!

Answer 7

I wish I can you give you a hug right now. Life is really wonderful, try if you can to focus on the positive side. I know that is hard to do right now but if you can think of just one thing that is positive or happy then along with that will be many other great things to make your life worth living. Look around you, it is so beautiful. Smell the air, feel the breeze and so much more.

Answer 8

Its really weird that I ran across your post your feeling the same as I am, for years I prey every night for God to just let me die, I'm not afraid of dying I just can't bring myself to kill my self I guess its my religious back ground I just can't do it, as far as what to do I'm going to a shrink this month and hopefully they can get my meds right but I'm not going to hold my breath I have been on meds before and it still doesn't help I'm just ready for it to be over and to find out what real happiness is because this isn't it, try to find yourself some help there might be an answer out there for you and if you ever need anyone to talk to that understands you can always email me, best of luck.

Answer 9

OOH man I feel for you and I know how you feel!!! I , too, feel like that sometimes... I have lost EVERYTHING... have no family... have a sh*tty car...totally broke..BUT one day out of the blue things just started to look up. I met someone who I love very much and who loves me back.... I got into school... and I am hopefully getting rid of the car tomorow....and it is all because SOMEHOW I kept going. I kept going #1 for my three dogs who have been there for me when I lost it all and everyone abandoned me including my mom... and #2 to see what happens next... I know that sounds crazy but sometimes wondering what would happen next is the ONLY thing that kept me going. and I realize something now. YOU have to make things happen. don't sit around and WAIT because then things won't happen. It is hard for me to explain but just decide what you want to change about your life and make it happen... I don't know why you feel this way BUT I totally understand and I sincerly hope things get better Very soon!!! you are scared of dying because you really do want to live,,, when You lose your fear of dying you have really given up... keep going!!! there is something awesome going to happen to you very soon that will make it all worthwhile... I feel it :-) :-)

Answer 10

I wish I had an answer for you. But I don't know you. You want to start a greeting card company... how good will it be when you get it started, making a success of yourself.
Nothing I can say will change your mind because I am just a stranger, so I don't know.
" If things are so bad now that you have to kill yourself, Then things can only get better"!